Just a Little Pixie Dust

Jacob (Chapter 17)

We got back to the house and Sarabelle had managed to head straight to bed, I was left lying on the couch in the living room trying to make heads and tails of everything that happened but I was left with my thoughts drifting back to her, how long had it been since that night? Six months, if I wasn’t wrong…. 

Six months since she finally gave into her wants and stayed with me, we’d gone out and went back to my place and it seems like from there was when things got bad. That night was amazing, she’d slept with me, and she was probably the most amazing woman I’d ever been with but that following morning she wasn’t having any of it. 

She’d left like nothing ever happened, like I meant little to nothing to her and she made a mistake. That was that and since then she’d barely looked at me right, I was shocked she went out of her way to save me like she did but part of me knew why she did it. No matter what she said, I knew she cared for me and even the smallest part of her wanted me but she was so stuck on the past that she couldn’t seem to get over that. 

It drove me insane, I wished she would just see what was in front of her and actually just give in. I knew she would be happy if she did that but it was like she didn’t care if she was happy or not, she wanted to avoid me like the plague because of what happened between me and Jasper and because of how it impacted her life but part of me felt that she was better off this way in the end. 

She was so much more full of life than she ever was with Jasper, she was constantly ready for whatever came at her and she was always wanting to do more than she could. She turned out to be something beyond amazing that everyone looked up to. She didn’t let the stigma of her past stick to her any longer, she wasn’t just that little fairy girl that everyone saw as a bad apple she was strong, independant and beyond smart. 

But then there was that one part of her that seemed to think differently. That part of her felt like she needed Jasper in her life forever. I didn’t understand but I wasn’t going to argue either. Frowning I closed my eyes and just breathed out slowly, I needed to calm down and relax, and that was exactly what I was planning to do.