Hidden in the mist

I needed this.....

         We made it to the out skirts of the town and pulled over, Azzy and I had talked quite a bit on the way over, discussing our plan on how to approach the dryads. Our only real solid plan was do what we are about to do now…. We got out of the car and Azazael came over to my side and held my hand as I walked to the edge of the forest, I knelt down and looked up at Azazael to see him give me a nod and then I looked down to the soil and reached for it.

   I ran my fingers threw the soft earth and summoned water, I thanked it for coming and asked it to bless this land with its riches as an offering. I then felt the land fill with water and help give life to everything that was rested on the land, I then stood and called out to the dryads, praying they would hear me out. It didn’t take long before some started to appear, they walked threw looking like life itself, so pure, so natural, and there was something about them that not even I could fully describe.

    “hello goddess…” a male was the one that spoke up, but stood afar behind some other dryads, I wasn’t sure if he was elder leader or not, but I had to try.

   “hello, I mean no harm to you or your kind, nor your land.”

     “we know, thank you for your gift. But why did you gift us something out of the blue?” his green eyes were indeed full of questioning and interest; they weren’t scared thank gods.

    “your welcome, my name is Boa, Boa anna…. I seek help, can I speak to your clan leader? Or someone that can help?” I held my breath as it fell silent, I was waiting for rejection after a long moment.

“behind you goddess.” Azzy and I jumped at the closeness of the voice behind us, I turned to see a tall man with such dark green eyes with hints of gold and purple, almost glowing gold and purple, those flecks were mesmerizing.

“hello Sir, can we talk, I need help.”

“so, I hear… why does a goddess need help from us dryads?” I looked over to Azazael and he again gave me a nod. I returned it before I went on to explain everything to the dryad, he was silent and deep in thought as I went on explaining everything. He showed no emotion or expression.

“hurts like hell…. To lose the ones you love, then feel like after so long of emptiness and loneliness, fell like your world is flipped around again. We will help you…. Under one condition.” I was in shock at his words, that he had finally spoken was like a crack of thunder in a silent night with out rain.

“do I want to know?” Azazael said, I nudged him to be silent and then turn my attention back to the man.

“whats the condition?” he stepped forward and grabbed a hold of me, his breath on my ear made my eyes widen. His words more so, they were on the verge of popping out.

     “let us help you more then just today, we want to go home as well, we want the truth as well….. Also, if it doesn’t end well with Zanthis, know ill be more then happy to take a chance at your heart.” He words left me speechless but I knew, they were only words, they didn’t bring me to my knees like Zan’s did, if it was Zan that said that to me, my soul would have bursted out and screamed YES! To him. I did blush though, it was sweet. I looked him in his stunning eyes and nodded.

   “we can join together… if by chance that day ever comes ill let you try, but I promise its hard to win this cold heart over.” I gave him a smile and a wink, he was handsome, but I wasn’t lying. Zan was the first person to strike any feeling in me, let alone this strong of feelings. Plus, I really wanted things to work with Zan, its to early to think of a plan B before going through with plan A…. I hope Zan and I last a long time, but there is a shadow lurking in the back of my mind saying ‘don’t do it, you know the pain it will bring…. He isn’t forever like we are.’ That voice will just have to suck it up I wanted what I wanted for once, it may not be forever and it will hurt like hell when its over, but at least I can say I loved and was loved.

     I finally found out the man’s name, Fidelis, he told me it was druid, I knew once he said it. I even told him the meaning, it means faithful, which I hope he holds up on that end, I need him as a friend right now. The whole town was excited to see me there, I had many visitors while I was in the coffee shop. It was nice, to be around others similar to me, I wished Azazael was around to enjoy this with me, but he had to go see Zan. I also wished was with Zan as well, I hope he was doing better, I missed hanging with him alone, I grifted into those kinds of thoughts when I wasn’t greeted and chatted with by the locals.

     “he is your first love, isn’t he?” Fidelis asked, I was shocked at the sudden question, I even blushed, I hated myself for that.

     “yes, it wasn’t something I was expecting either.”

     “no one ever expects it Boa, I know I didn’t expect it when I first fell in love.” He sounded so sad when he said that, it broke my heart, I couldn’t help but to ask my next question.

     “you sound broken hearted, did it not end well?” he pursed his full lips and tried to smile, but it too was sad, he took his hand and placed it on mine when he spoke again.

      “does any love ever end well when its with some one that doesn’t live forever.” That’s when my heart broke and that tiny voice spoke up again, I started to rethink things over until he spoke again.

      “Boa don’t think too much into it, her death was a gift and a curse… she knew and I knew from the start that we weren’t meant to be forever, we just took what we could get and oh we took it for all it was. I still go visit her grave, I still see her in my dreams, but the pain isn’t like it was, I also found love after her.”

    “really?”

        “yeah, I loved others like us...” I pointed between us and went on. “ I loved them for many long years, but not like I did my first, some just knew my heart belonged to some one else still but took what love I did give, until they found their soul mate, or just fell out of love.” I couldn’t help but to chuckle at that, of all things he believed in soul mates.

        “what? You don’t believe in that?” he sounded shocked, but his words didn’t come out rude or smug, just a normal question.

        “it’s not that I don’t, but, what if our soul mate is like your first love?”

     “well that’s a good point, but don’t you think that even in our end or theirs our souls will meet again?”

      “Do WE even have an end? I don’t know about you but I’m well into my years, how long is our kind meant to live? Just more questions raise so I try not bringing up more questions that seem to never get an answer. And true love and soulmates is one of those, will mortals and immortals souls meet in another plane?”

        Fidelis looked at me with intense eyes, with a spark in them, it was hard to tell what he was thinking and confusing. But he broke into a chuckle and spoke. “Boa your thinking to hard, stop stressing yourself… for a water goddess you are pretty shity at ‘going with the flow’.” I bursted out in laughter and he only joined in.

       “well that’s a first, Fidelis, no one has ever said that to me. Nor have they had the balls to either… hmm I take that back Azazael is the only other one, at least with knowing my being a goddess and all. Others seem to think I might smite them or start a war or something, I don’t have time for wars. I think we are all past wars, leave that to the mortals.”

       “well goddess or not your still a living being and honestly you’re a woman and you have needs and wants as well, dreams and aspirations right?”

       “right, but why would I get my hopes up and let my guards down only to intentionally let myself get hurt.”

        “so then you know your alive, so you know you can feel something at all… so you know your not in hell.” He was right, he was much stronger than I though I couldn’t handle losing love over and over again. Losing the ones, I love the most once was enough.

         “so…. Are you not going to give you and Zan a chance then?” I jerked my attention to Fidelis, his words hurt, I know he didn’t mean for them to hurt, but the thought giving up on Zan was far from me ever doing or wanting. I just couldn’t, it was like I was dying on the inside every time I thought of him not being in my life.

         “I don’t think I could ever bring myself walking away now, I just need to ready myself for when he isn’t there, when our chance is over.” He nodded in understanding, he then stood and took both my hands and lead me to the back doors.

        “where are we going?”

         “to a shrine you need to see.” I followed, not scared or bothered, but I needed to see what ever he was going to show me, it felt important. I also already trusted him, strangely.

      We finally made it threw the woods to a stone cliff, I looked up to see the trees that rested on top of it, they looked like they were on fire, the leaves were such a bright orange, some were a deep red. The ground had blue flowers and grass that looked green with hints of blue, like the ocean almost, it was like the heavens were on fire and the world below was flooded. Breath taking.

       “why are we here, Fidelis?” he walked over to the stones that made up the shrine, a white and baby blue moss rested at the base, making the earths ground look like waves smashing into it.

     “this place was here when we first arrived to this area, there was a nymph that was very weak and old resting against it, watch at the night sky.” He touched the stone with his hands, already lost in his story, like he was reliving it. “I was one of the first to run over and try to help her, she looked up at me with the saddest smile. I asked if it was okay to pick her up, she gave me a nod with the same sad smile, a few of the female dryads came over with things for her to drink and eat, some even gave her a thick blanket to cover with. I took her over to our camp and rested her on a make shift bed in one of the tents that we used for gatherings.” Fidelis ran a hand over his face and around to his neck, where it rested while he went on. He seemed stressed as he talked about the nymph.

         “she began to panic and try to get up and leave, I sat next to her trying to hold her and calm her. She whimpered and pointed to the opening to the tent, I gave her a nod and helped her up. It seemed like being inside was almost painful for her, she had such mixed feelings, I only know because she made me feel them…. I saw her life, in a split second, after her eyes and face looked like her youthful version. She was stunning, her smile stays with me.”

         “you talk about her like you loved her…” he held such a sorrowful look, a look of loss.

        “believe it or not, I did love her, even before that day…… we use to see each other in the old lands…. Her father was the king of her tribe, her mother was the first nymph…… her family disappeared, like yours…..”

     “what?!...” I rushed to his side as he stood looking back at me, from the edge of the woods. He gave me a nod before he went on, I listened intently as possible, hoping something was a step closer or key to my past.

       “that is why she was there that day, she was trying to contact them, but no matter how many times she tried nothing. She spent years there….. finally, she gave up, and when one gives up, they fade into nothing, she wanted death, in hopes she would be reunited with her parents and other loved ones…. Her heart was to broken to feel our past love…. So, I kissed her and held her close to me, for hours…. Then days, then weeks, still in my arms, finally she said the stone was a key, but fire and water must love one another before it shows itself.”

         “that doesn’t make sense though… why would they, how could they love one another?”

      “I thought the same thing, but I went threw all I recalled from her memories she had shown me….. its not literal Boa, its metaphorical.”

     I gave him a confused look and tried to think of what he had meant by that. I even went as far as thinking scientific and chemical compound…..and then...

     “oh there ya go Boa, im assuming by that look you get it now.”

     “elemental… like as in two species that have those elemental factors as gifts….. still how is it a key..? and how will it…?”

       “hey I have no f*****g clue, I gave you what I got and I was going off a whim thought…. But boa, I think you’re the first half of this riddle, but I need you to take this and read it.” He handed me a very old tome and walked off yelling back at me. “get it done and then you should go head to the guys before its to late…. Good luck beautiful!”

        I opened the tome and it was old hieroglyphic’s, like very old, before my parents time old. I was lucky to know what it said due to the fact that I was obsessed with history and language. I am a goddess after all and I was only a matter of time I would need it in the diplomacy of dealing with other worlders and other immortal’s.

      The thing I didn’t understand was the fact that this tome was here on earth and why for so long. I began to read it and before I realized that it was a spell it was too late, the scene before me began to shutter and move….. backwards. So, everything that had happened here just moments ago with Fidelis and everything before that past before my eyes, I saw things I shouldn’t have seen, like very intimate moments of couple. I saw the murder of all sorts, humans slaughtered from war immortals side by side trying to keep the land whole from the humans destruction, I even went back farther the moments fidelis had shared with me, I was his love watching out over time…. She was truly breath taking.

       There was no end to this rewind button…. Until a huge bright light hit then went to a green mist, the mist swirled around to where I could hardly see a thing, it was thick and slow… maybe this was a sign that I was getting to where I needed to. I began to hear noises and let me tell you, they scared the crap out of me, it sounded like something was trying to communicate with something else in the mist, but it was hard to tell what the voices were saying because it was all backwards.

      Then the mist began to dissipate, I saw some exceptionally large figures floating around, but I still could not make anything clear. I felt the shift in the air, I trembled as the earth beneath me did as something very massive in size walked around somewhere on the earth’s surface somewhere. Pigments of red and orange began to glow threw the sky, even in the night, sounds of water rushed…. Before I knew it, I was succumbed by water, and earth then rushed to a very deep cavern. That is when time seemed to still, I felt like the rewind was over, but I could not see very much of anything.

    “are you f*****g kidding me?!” I blurted out, surely not expecting any one or anything to respond back to me.

     “nope…” I jumped and again damn near s**t my pants.

    “holy f*****g!!!! Who is there?” I heard some footsteps walking toward me and I quickly took steps back. I saw the cave slowly hum to life with a light glow of purple and blue, there was a mist like being walking my way, as my surroundings began to brighten the being became more solid to show a beyond any word for breath takingly beautiful. She stood nude as hell too.

     “well Boa Ann, it took you long enough… did you enjoy your trip.” I was in such shock I scrunched my face and placed a hand on my head as I shook it and answered her.

      “Wait who in the hell are you and where am i?”

     “well I have many names… Gia, Lilith, mother hydra… I’ve been given many names, some you may know as some lunatics rants of made up gods… but I think you knew better, didn’t you?”

       “wait your telling me that your one of the first higher beings?” she only gave me a smile and a nod before she turned and said “follow me.”

     “wait!” I shouted as she moved at an inhuman speed. “ you cant let me believe you’re an old one, that by for some strange and damned reason is hiding out in some pocket in the earth below Ireland?... oh and in some time capsule.” 

     “no I don’t think I would let you to believe that, but its partly true, this is earth, no im not hiding… I was imprisoned here by my children. They did so in fear id destroy them for being such vile creatures, in the end their children imprisoned them in another dimension. That’s not why you’re here Boa, you are here because you need me.”

     “wait why do I NEED you?.... hold on how far back did I go?”

      “well that isn’t important…. Nor is you needing know about your friends land right now what is important is that girl you promised to help.”

“wait how did you…”

“hmm, my dear girl you have a lot of questions. You will learn everything you need to in due time, for now I need you to see something, so please follow.”

        I was in no mood for games, and I felt like I was being pushed around like a pawn right now. But I did as I was asked and followed, also because I was hoping to find out where the hell I was and hopefully an exit. As she led me I eyed her, she was breath taking truly a real persona of a goddess, she put my true form to shame, hell every goddess I know actually.

        “listen, im not sure what to call you so im just gonna call you miss, kay?” she didn’t say a word just have one nod and kept walking, well if that’s what you call it. Her movement put any syfy creature to shame, even the best graphic design program couldn’t duplicate her, maybe ever.

        “Boa ann, I know there is a lot going on with you and you have a lot of questions, I will make sure to answer as much as I can but…..” she then turned to look at me with her galaxy like eyes. “not this time, that girl you agreed to help needs you to do this okay.”

“what do you mean?”

      “well there is a message for you, you need to hear, we are wasting time, your friend Azzy can only cover for so much longer.”

     “but didn’t I just rewind time?”

     “you did not, not exactly, that spell you used was created to take you back to this moment because its your present time.”

I had made a confused face and put a hand and my head trying to figure it out. I couldn’t my head just began to hurt, but like she had said we are wasting time.

“so whats the message?”

“follow me and quickly before the message passes again.”

I didn’t bother asking what she meant, im sure I wouldn’t be able to comprehend what she would tell me anyways. In fact I could hardly understand anything now a days, if anything im so left behind it’s a bad dad joke.

Finally, we made it in front of a silver door, I recognized it, it looked like the door to my parents room. I felt my heart clench in my chest, I wanted more then anything to burst through those doors but I couldn’t. I feared what was on the other side.

“Boa I know what your thinking, please don’t be afraid to go in. just know its like a memory, you cant interact with any one or thing on the other side…. But, I will give you something before you leave to send them a message.” I looked at her and all I could see was blurring, I hadn’t noticed I was crying. I gave her a nod and she motioned for me to enter. I walked slowly to the door and rested my hand on the knob. I must have stood there longer then I though, because I felt the hand of the first woman ever in existence touch my shoulder. I looked up at her, still in awe of her but now I see she knows what im feeling and I can tell by her unsaid words that I should go in.

“I wish I was as lucky as you, go see him.” I didn’t know what she meant, maybe ill have a chance to ask her later. Along with everything else I need to ask her.

     I opened the door and right away I smelt the flowers that grew just out side my parents room, as well as the scents of my parents. I closed my eyes and walked in, hand on the door and eyes still closed, I turns and shut the door, my back to the room I rested my head on the door and slowly opened my eyes. I heard moving behind me and I didn’t want to look back just yet, I wasn’t ready. I heard papers and glass veils being moved around then stones clutters against wood. Father! Im sure at work as always at his desk on the far wall behind me.

    Then his foot steps went towards my right towards the balcony, even after all these years I knew the could of his steps. I then stood straight and took a deep breath before turning to see his back. He stood just in the door way of his balcony, it was raining, I didn’t notice the sound before, but there it was raining away. I felt myself walking toward him, I saw him looking around outside, and he turned his head as if he sensed I was walking toward him, but I recalled the goddesses words and I pinch in my heart happened.

“I know you cant hear me daddy but im here.”

I watched as he sighed and turned to face out towards the rainy night, he took his hands from his sides and held them together, then he began to speak.

“Boa I know, I just know youll get this one day, I just hope you will listen….. there are so many things I want to tell you, so many apologies I owe you… so much love I want to give to you my dear girl…. Please know we did this for you.” He then dropped his head and sat on the floor looking out still, I walked over to his left and sat against the wall to watch him as he spoke. He looked so tired, so pained, but hadn’t changed much at all, I bit aged looking, but still my father that I missed horribly.

“when I first came to you about rebuilding earth…. I didn’t know I would have to leave you behind, there are forces out there that….I hope you understand that I never meant to hurt you, only protect you… I know you must hate me, I don’t blame you, I hate myself as well. I hope youre doing well my little dew drop.” I began to tear up at my fathers words, this was all I wanted, even if it isn’t everything, its f*****g something, I felt like I could breath again. My nick name sealed the deal.

“Boa please listen carefully, you need to go fourth and take care of humanity, even if you think they aren’t worth it, care for the planet and heal it, keep making it grow and flourish. We need that world more then you know, and you my beautiful baby girl are the only one who can do it. I know it’s a burden that I wish you didn’t have to bare, there are going to be a lot of hardships you’ll have to go through before we reunite…. But I know you can do it, you’re not a normal girl, even for a goddess, I’m sure you discovered some new gifts and I need you to master them baby girl….”

 He took a deep breath and rubbed his beard a bit before he went on.” There are things never got a chance to tell you and I now wish I weren’t a fool and told you when I had the chance… all I have time for right now is this….. your true journey will begin with gathering ones very close to you, when that happens things around you will begin to stir, follow and fix it, think of it all as jigsaw puzzle, things will fall into place and then another. Step by step things will come together, please stay strong, please solve this all. I wish I had more answers, I wish so damn bad that I was there for you.”

I watched as my father balled his fist and rested his face against them. I could tell he was being forced to hold things back, but I had a feeling that once I do as he said id be on the path to getting him and my mother back.

“Boa…. Know that your not alone, there are many others left behind as well, all over the world and the can aid you if you need them. I don’t know whom or where but look, in time youll find answers. I love you Boa Ann…”

I moved toward him and wished I could touch him and tell him I was here with him listening.

“I love you to daddy, I will get you and mom back… and I will get my answers.” I lowered my head and pinch my eyes close and took a shaky breath before I stood and walked off toward the door a came in. I was about to open it when my father spoke again, I turned to listen.

“Boa…. I feel like your near…. I hope its not just in my head…. Please watch for signs from me.”

my eyes widened and I went to rush to him but stopped, I will send him a message and let him know I got this one and let him know I have seen his signs. Again I went for the door and gave one last look at my father as he sat watching the rainy night.

“miss you daddy.” I said before leaving and closing the door behind me, I dropped to the floor letting out all my heart before me. I felt miss come up next to me and hold me. She didn’t say anything though.

Finally, I gathered myself and sat up from my spot. “how soon can I send my father a message?”

“as soon as you help your young student, in that place she speaks of is a temple and the energy there will help this stone gather and send your message.” She handed me a glowing black tone with a blue and red and green center, I almost missed the faint glow of the three colors at first, but I studies it because this will be my only way to reach my father.

“can we continue to send messages to each other? Or is it a one-time deal?”

“sadly it is a one time deal, but there is another way for you both to commune, you need to get stronger though, then travel to the sinking island just off of Ireland.” I looked up to her with stunned look.

“brasil?” she nodded

“that place is called that and similar names…. It’s a very sacred place and you have to be stronger, and…. Only one other can go with you there, do NOT go alone Boa, and do not bring others.”

“well ill do as you say, as long as I can talk with my parents again. I think its time to go now right.”

“yes, I promise we will meet again okay, and ill have more time to inform you of things, but please try not to go overboard with questions.” She gave me a smile and a wink. I chuckled, I can be a bit overwhelming at times, I like this lady and so I nodded and returned the smile.

      With that s**t got crazy, roars and whooshes began, s**t went dark to flashing colors and lights….. then so bright and quite… until I heard a crack of a branch.