Haruki I still can't believe that I am pregnant. It feels surreal to me, especially since I have not been able to share the news with Theo, Leo, and Neo. I miss them terribly, and it's challenging to keep this secret from them. On the other hand, I am also angry and resentful towards them for leaving me alone for so long. It's a mix of emotions that I am struggling to cope with right now. I am going through a tough time at the moment. My life is spinning out of control, and I struggle to keep everything together. One of my biggest challenges is my relationship with my mother. She is distraught with me for getting pregnant before getting married, which has caused a lot of tension between us. On top of that, I am also dealing with the anxiety and uncertainty that comes with being preg

