Have you ever felt disappointed after knowing that you aren't as special to them as you thought you were? I did.
Rather then being jealous of something great, being jealous of something normal is a sad feeling.
[ Heidie POV ]
I deeply sighed again as I looked away. I think my new hobby is spacing out. Just like before, filled with heavy yet complicated feelings. Again and again.
At sometimes, i also want turn back time. But it won't be same. It can't be same. It will never be. And I don't wanna live in fake pretendece. That might be mine everything in the past but I killed my old self. So, what it had or owed, it doesn't matter anymore. It's not possible, so I should stop daydreaming about it.
I no longer feel sad about it. Just a little bit bitter and blank. But much better then dis
