My Holiday Mate

First Time Losing Control

Daniel POV

I tried my best to fall asleep, tossing and turning in bed, but my eyes simply wouldn't close. My mind was restless, relentlessly replaying the unsettling scene of John’s actions toward Sarah, each detail vivid and invasive. Despite my exhaustion, I couldn't stop the thoughts from looping, leaving me wide awake in the dark.

I finally decided it was time to get out of bed and attempt to burn off some energy in order to calm my nerves and soothe my wolf. Luca spoke up, saying, "The best way for us to calm down is to embrace our mate. We need to claim her." I responded, explaining, "We can't claim or mark her right now. It's too soon. She isn't ready for another relationship, especially after seeing her ex cheat on her just yesterday. Besides, I still need to tell her about the world of werewolves and how we exist. I believe that, in time, Sarah will become ours fully."

For the moment, the most effective way I have found to soothe my nerves is to engage in an intense workout. I took off my shirt to expose my chest, feeling the cool air against my skin. I began with a vigorous set of 200 push-ups, pushing myself to complete them without a break and maintaining proper form throughout. Afterward, I held a plank position for ten minutes, feeling my core tighten and my muscles burn. Next, I did 200 squats, each one executed with controlled movement, followed by a series of situps designed to strengthen my abdominal muscles.

As I finished this rigorous routine, I started to feel more relaxed and at ease. I had worked up a significant amount of sweat, which made a shower seem necessary to cool down and refresh. As I exited the guest room, the warm aroma of food being cooked wafted through the air, adding a comforting touch to my post-workout calm.

It seems that Sarah has made herself comfortable in my place. However, I noticed she wasn't in the kitchen, as her scent was leading elsewhere. It was directed towards my bedroom, where I could hear the sound of the shower running. I went ahead to the bathroom to take my shower.

I decided to take my time, enjoying a warm shower that relaxed my muscles and helped me unwind. After finishing, I returned to the guestroom, drying my hair as I looked for something suitable to wear. Almost immediately, I sensed Sarah approaching. Before I had the chance to respond to her knock, she simply walked in, unannounced, which I wasn't complaining about.

Once I heard her speak, I instinctively turned to face her, but immediately regretted the action. The sight of her appearance stirred a strong, unexpected desire within me. She was dressed in short shorts and a tank top, clearly revealing that she wasn't wearing a bra. I struggled to suppress my urges, trying to divert my attention by asking Sarah a question. Yet, I couldn't help but notice her eyes roaming over my body, and she seemed unable to respond to my question.

As she bent her head down in embarrassment, I couldn’t help but notice the subtle reveal of her sensitive n*****s tightening and hardening in response to the sound of my voice. A sudden wave of primal instinct overwhelmed me, and I lost all control as my wolf, Luca, took charge of my actions. My body instinctively moved closer to Sarah with urgency, almost without thought. When she lifted her head, and our eyes unexpectedly met, I felt my body pushing me beyond my limits, unable to contain the intense desire that had been building.

We shared a deep, passionate kiss, and Luca eagerly wanted to continue with her. I was just beginning to regain control before things escalated further. After apologizing for my actions, Sarah looked disappointed. The moment was too brief, and the s****l tension between us remained palpable. "What did you need from me, Sarah?" I asked, trying to divert both of our urges. She took a steadying breath before replying. "I made dinner to express my gratitude for everything you've done for me. Since it's Christmas, I also wanted to prepare something extra special," she explained to me.

Sarah stepped out of the room to allow me to get dressed. Once I was ready, I made my way into the dining room and was immediately struck by the stunning display of food, elegantly spread across the table. The aroma was absolutely inviting, with each dish smelling delectable and freshly prepared. It was clear that Sarah had put a great deal of effort and care into preparing this meal for me, and I truly appreciated her thoughtfulness. Her dedication and attention to detail in creating such a beautiful and inviting setting demonstrated her genuine love and care. I have no doubt that Sarah will make a fantastic Luna and a caring, nurturing mother to our children.

I stepped further into the dining room and took a seat, feeling a sense of admiration for the arrangement before me. Turning to Sarah with a warm smile, I said, "This looks fantastic, Sarah. Just to be clear, you don't owe me anything for helping you out." She looked at me with a small, grateful smile and replied, "I know, Daniel. I really just want to show my appreciation."

As we were enjoying our meal, Luca continued to insist on telling Sarah about us so that we could finally be able to mate and mark her. Sometimes, Luca can be incredibly persistent and a bit of a nuisance. Nonetheless, I find myself curious to learn more about Sarah and what her next move might be, especially now that John isn't involved. Or perhaps I should gather the courage to be honest with her about my feelings. I suppose I'm overcomplicating things more than I need to.

So, Sarah, now that you're no longer with John, what are your plans moving forward? I asked sincerely, hoping to understand her perspective. She hesitated briefly before responding. "Honestly, I'm not entirely sure at the moment. I only found out yesterday that John has been unfaithful to me. I think I need some time to process everything before I decide what I want to do next. Maybe after the holidays are over, I'll have a clearer idea of my direction." She looked away for a moment, visibly thoughtful. I nodded sympathetically, understanding that she needed some space to figure things out. I then asked gently, "That’s understandable. Just be honest—how are you feeling right now? I’m genuinely curious to know."

Honestly, I don't feel as hurt as I had expected to be. Surprisingly, I mostly feel a sense of relief rather than pain. Isn't that strange? Shouldn't I be feeling upset or even angry right now about what John did to me and how he didn't care about our relationship after just a year? Because I don't feel hurt, does that mean I'm a terrible ex-girlfriend? Or does it simply indicate that I didn't care for John as much as I thought I did? she confessed.

"You are not a terrible person, Sarah. You simply trusted and had faith in the wrong person," I replied gently. "Being here with you has helped me heal and not feel so hurt," she explained softly. I understand that the only reason Sarah wasn't upset after ending things with John is because of our mate bond. Her being close to me now will help soothe any pain and bring comfort during any difficult time.

There's one thing I want to know, Daniel: how do you know me so well and feel comfortable having me in your home as if we've known each other for years? she asked, confusion evident in her voice. This was a question I wasn't ready to answer, mainly because I feared it might scare her off. "Just tell her already. She might not get scared," Luca urged. "Fine, you win, Luca, but I'll only tell her half the truth," I replied to Luca.

Honestly, I've noticed the times you've attended my parties and events. It was difficult not to see you, Sarah; you are a stunning woman who naturally stands out in the crowd. I also observed how John would often drag you around to greet various people. My chairman explained to me that your input and suggestions seemed intended to make John appear more impressive.

"He told me that he always wanted me to join him at events because he said I looked good on his arm, which helped him stand out even more. John believed that if I dressed up nicely, it would attract attention, giving him the opportunity to speak with someone higher up to pitch his ideas. She told me.

"John comes across as very controlling. I'm really glad you managed to get out of that relationship. You definitely deserve someone much better than him.' I shared my thoughts, saying, 'John really messed up, which gave another man the chance to sweep you off your feet.' As I finished, I noticed Sarah's smile widened in response to my honest confession.

We continued enjoying our dinner and engaging in light conversation until we finished eating. Afterwards, I helped Sarah wash any dishes that needed cleaning and carefully stored the leftovers in the refrigerator.

The following two days went by smoothly as we settled into a comfortable routine, carefully avoiding any disturbances to each other's space. Despite the quiet and ordinary pace of our days, the unspoken s****l tension between us remained clearly evident, lingering beneath the surface.

It was quite challenging to keep Luca at bay, especially since Sarah and I spent most of the day together due to the holidays. The fact that we have so many days off until after the New Year makes it even harder to maintain that distance around her. I only have four more days to be with Sarah alone before we both return to work. Luca's words echoed in my mind: "You need to make a move now before the holidays are over." I've been deliberately trying to keep my distance from Sarah, but I wonder if that's truly the right approach given the circumstances.