The Fabulous Flaming Moose

Awakened

Thank you God, all that hard work paid off, the races won, laps lead and the boss must have called in some one to drive the car the last 3 races to maintain that lead and we have the championship, please God I would love to celebrate with my teammates, wait that's it...it's got to be, God did I ask you earlier to help me wake up and out of this coma? 

I am sorry God if I haven't praised you enough for my life and the fact I am still alive, thank you for everything, please let me wake up and celebrate this victory.

The excitement of that news lingered and I could feel my heart race, my body tingling then I heard loud machine noises over the music Tony was playing, am I coding?

"What's going on?" Tony asks, "Not sure" said my dad, they both call for nurses.

" Hello sweetie, what's going on?" yes, that sweet angelic voice, it's nurse Darlene, will I finally see her, please tell me I am waking up, after all I am feeling thirsty and hungry when I wasn't feeling that before.

"If you two gentleman don't mind can you please step outside for me, us nurses have some work to do."  They both say yes at the same time.

"Vitals looking good" says a deep male voice, " I have some hand movement over here" says another nurse, yes please be true, I'm coming out of the coma, maybe I can even make it to the year end banquet.

"That's it sweetie, you can do it, open them eyes for us" her voice so enticing, " a month to the day exactly since you came through those emergency doors of ours"  wow a full month.

Am I suppose to feel like I am gagging? I want to sit up and cough, feeling a bit out of breath, that ringing in the ears is back, dizzy, and a wave of major pain, I take a deep breath, now aware my mouth and throat are dry and sore, feel out of shape, stiff and should I feel tired after a month in a coma?

I noticed the music was still on, no one had turned it off, they made the machines quiet and checked on me, still focused on me, I hear the fuss being made, should be happy but I am overwhelmed with feeling everything, like taking a little bit of everything on your plate at a buffet.

Unbelievable that song playing, it's Shut up and drive, I guess I made a cough but I was really laughing, so God has a sense of humor after all.

After a month of darkness, there is blurry light, seems really bright, I hear one of the nurses say "dim the lights please"  it feels slow, but yes I believe my eyes are open, the room is dim, blurry still but I sure hope that is normal under the circumstances.

I feel like I am spinning, didn't notice that for a while, not since the crash.

Starting to feel a little less aware, pain seems to be taking over, not sure what every one is saying or doing, hungry and thirsty, breathing hurts, I can't tell if I am moving, I think my head is going side to side, think they moved my bed up a little.

"Welcome back Mr Moose" Thank you my angel, no words come out, my eyes do feel fully open but it's still blurs, some outlines, " can you focus your eyes to the sound of my voice" I can try sweet nurse, but I just feel like I am blinking, then very bright like a light right in my eyes.

"His pupils are still dilated, mark in his chart to check again, he may need some eye drops" that is the male doc, a nurse replies "yes, sir".

This felt like a prerace inspection, checking my ears, reflexes, felt so out of it, tired, hungry, thirsty but couldn't seem to talk, just breathe, some head movement, wiggled my fingers a little, me the need for speed and here is one slow start, I guess I feel asleep part way through.

Next time I fully awoke I noticed myself scratch my nose, noticed the iv and yes I was correct it felt like it was my right hand and there it is, vision still blurry but could see enough to know. I try and look around the room, see if any room is here, or try and see a clock.

Radio seems to be on softly, machines are quietly beeping, the room is dim and not spinning, can't seem to  focus on any other details. The eye lids I opened already seem heavy maybe it's the pain meds in the iv but off again, I drift off to sleep.

 Wish I could stay more alert, a few days have passed and I am not awake very long, in and out, here and there, they keep checking everything, most of my outside cuts and bruises have healed prior to coming out of the coma, same with the swelling I guess I had, it went down, still not clear on all of my condition but some one will explain when I am more alert and can stay awake longer.

They still have me on a feeding tube, IV and catheter, guess I am not alert enough to try and eat or drink, range of movement seems very little, just my right arm to itch my nose or hold bedrail, left hasn't really moved, not even sure if I have moved my legs, they fell sore and stiff and heavy, haven't lifted my head just been side to side and my eyesight is still so blurry that the staff has been leaving the lights low, this way it isn't to blinding after my eyes closed for so long.

I feel like crap but I am alive and now awake and out of the coma, I guess the rest of the recovery process will be slow baby steps, right now my thoughts seem to be prepping me for this, from fast to a crawl, I can feel my self begin to fall asleep again, how can I be that tired, I just don't get it, but almost dying like that most take it's troll on the body and rest must be the key to healing, so off I go again.