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Chapter One

Every character has a story to tell may it be the female or male protagonist, the foils, and even the antagonists. Who is commonly known as the villainess or Villain. Everyone admires the protagonist and hates the antagonist just because they act a certain way. They compare black and white knowing that they are two different people with different personalities. They think that the antagonists are self-centered, arrogant, and selfish and describe them as unkind. While they have many magnificent words to praise the protagonist in all their glory, such as heroic, angelic, sweet, helpful, and kind. Whenever the protagonist makes a mistake, they just say “It's okay, it's not your fault, it's the (antagonist) fault” or “You have done your best. I'm sure you will do better next time”. Contrary to the antagonist, they drown them in their saliva with words of gloating and smugness. They say action speaks louder than words, but words cut deeper than a sword.

They think that the antagonist is less than humans, a mere jar that they can vent their dissatisfaction on them. They are deprived of being loved and making connections with friends due to isolation though it all still put a brave face to save themselves from further pain and heartache. They felt that the antagonist was born that way with a 'nasty' personality and haughtiness. Villains were made not born. They force them to change in order to save their fragility and not to be looked down upon or to be bullied. Here is the story of a misunderstood antagonist rather than villainess Olivia Lanchester or the icy witch that they refer to me as. Well, let's start off with my family. I have four older brothers and two sets of twins. Derrion and Erion are the older set, while Valerio and Aziel are the younger set.

I am the daughter of Duke Axion Lenchester, ruler of the east, I was an unwanted child my mother was ill when she had me and sacrifice her life to give birth to me. Thus I bore the hatred of my father and older siblings. I had to live up to certain things that were expected of me in etiquette, history, socializing, dancing, and arts. I remembered I would get punished for making a mistake in my lessons. Sometimes it's being locked up in a dark room or I would have received strokes palms. I had to prove my worth to my father thinking maybe he'll praise me for once and that maybe he'll be proud of my achievements. This all came crashing down at the age of twelve when my father introduced us to O'Leah his illegitimate daughter she was the same age as I was. I have never seen my father so gentle to anyone or my brothers' patient. I had to admit it I was angry. It didn't help I was starting to be compared to her she gradually took everything from me. From my teachers to seat at the dining table and even my personal maids. They treat her like a porcelain doll that would break if she cried or was dissatisfied all the while I was being ignored.

I never complain or showed my dissatisfaction with any of these yet I was constantly reprimanded by my father for being mean to my half-sister. I kept enduring it thinking that things would get better I wish I could have gone back and slapped the younger me for thinking so foolishly. It only got worst from being gossiped about behind my back some even did it in my face. I began to push myself into studies to get away from all the negativity my passing grades go unnoticed and my failing grades are countered with punishments. Sometimes I wondered if I was the illegitimate child rather than O’Leah.

I endured all this until I was fifteen, when I was accused of trying to poison O'Leah. I could help but pour out all the grievances I've suffered through the years and as soon as I spoke badly about O'Leah I earned a slap on my face with a nosebleed. It couldn't be more clearer that I was set up but they ignored the facts in front of their eyes. Those similar blue eyes stared at me with disgust and disappointment it was as if they forgot that I was their younger sister/daughter I was less than trash to them. I laughed at my stupidity for not realizing it early I was banned from entering the main building and I had to stay in the side building with the duke's personal maids and butler so they can keep their eyes on me so that I don't disturb their family lives. I have to admit it was peaceful I still had regular classes no more gossiping maids it was lonely but it was better than getting scrutinizing gazes at you all the time.

I started to take an interest in medicine and poisons alike, I developed poisons and medicines and made my own money in preparation to leave the duke's mansion forever. I even experimented with the medicine on my body but never poisons. I was poisoned by the chef after eating strawberry cake. Apparently, he got tired of serving me and preferred to serve the main building. I had a high fever that night the maids took care of me half-heartedly I took some medicines hoping they could neutralize the poison but it only reduced the high fever. I was left in agony to bare all the pain and suffering. I spent three years developing a positive that will neutralize the poison and it paid off. My silver hair had a couple of white hair anyone with an eye would notice it my left iris changed to red I didn't mind at all. My father and brothers never once visited me during those past three years I never expect them to by this time I have already forgotten.

I was out gathering some more herbs to stock up before I ran out it was there I found him poisoned he was submerged in the lake in early winter. At first, I internally struggled with whether to leave him be or ruin my reputation further but it was not like any other nobles were around so I had him fished out of the water by some passing villagers. He got to a doctor in time had it been any later he would have died from the cold. I checked up on him every week to see how he was fairing. Sometimes he was conscious and we had beif talks it was these little this that I looked forward to every week until he got better and had to leave I wasn't sure I would ever see him again.

I most definitely did not expect to see him at O'Leah's engagement party that I was invited to attend although I am sure I was the least welcomed by the Lanchesters so I don't see why I had to be involved in this celebration but that's all besides the point. Imagine my shock finding out that he was O'Leah's fiancée and the current crown prince. During our first official meeting help he gave me a tight slap that made me almost blocked out. No one came to stand in my defense everyone was either gloating or staring at me with interest like I was a play. I was pestering him with letters and claiming to have healed his injuries and I was demanding to marry him as compensation. The maids beside me even testified against me. At the corner of my eyes, I could see O'Leah's eyes with triumph, gloating and arrogance staring at me. At that moment my sanity broke. I laughed while everyone moved away from me in terror I demanded that the Duke that if he wanted to break off relations with me he have to give me the silver mana stone mines along with cash.

The Duke's sons looked embarrassed while the Duke had that indifferent expression on his face as if I was none existence even with my profanities when he didn't comply I started reeking avoke while saying why I did it. Some of the nobles gossiped while the others were either afraid or just watching the fun from afar. I took up a table knife and casually throw it at random people with different amounts of strength. O'Leah tried to play the good sister card but just jumped in the hole I dug for her it's a pity she was quick to notice. It was a pity else she would have dug a deeper pit herself. The crown prince wasn't having any of it he threatened me with a sword to my neck. I leaned my neck closer to the double-edged sword spilling blood from my neck.

I provoked him to kill me, I condemned him for being blind an incompetent crown prince that is weak and easily deceived by others. That he was walking on the road of a tyrant I told him if he killed me I would be the first kill of his upcoming truancy if he was not a poppet or a more outstanding sibling that would shine and take his place. The younger twins handed me the family book to cross out my manage from the family tree. Instead of crossing it out like others before me, I undid my name.

I went away without looking back with nowhere to go I went on a random carriage and planned to take the train in the next fief. Who knew that the carriage fell off the cliff the worst is that I didn't die. I was alive but in pain, my bad luck didn't end there I fell into the habitat of the black rose corcus. I watched in terror and horror as its vines pierced my skin devouring my flesh and bones I lost count of how many times I passed out. The last time I fainted I knew I died and would never wake up. After that I woke up to the day I was introduced to O'Leah at first I thought it was a dream but when I awoke the next day I realized it wasn't a dream. I just lived the way I did in my past life thinking that it would end. Another lifetime after another it continues and never stop. Sigh when will it end the continent should swallow me whole to put me out of this misery. I'm tired I want to rest…………eternally