Chapter 19: Real and Fake BallsI thought a lot about what Jude said over the next few days. I even journaled about it. It was a long entry. I went on about what he said and how it made me feel, then got to the options of what to do.
It’s so difficult to be seen so clearly by someone and then not be able to do anything about it. He likes me. I can feel it. And I like him. I wish we could be together. But with this whole investigation into him and I, maybe it’s best we don’t see each other except when we need to. Maybe I should distance myself to avoid getting him into more trouble.
That would be the selfless thing to do. The responsible thing to do.
So why don’t I want to do it? Am I really that selfish? That cowardly? I don’t want to be.
Monday rolled around and I attended my newest En
