CLANDESTINE

PROLOGUE

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Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Names, businesses, places, events, locales, and accidents are either a product of the author's imagination. If there is any resemblance, it is purely coincidental. The story contains mature contents pls. read at your own risk.

I woke up sweating because of a very bad dream, a dream that used to hunt me way back 5 years ago. I went to the kitchen and drink cold water. I never thought I would be dreaming again this time. I thought I was fully healed, I thought he was gone in my system and I thought I forget him. But now I'm certain that it was all just in my thoughts.

I hurriedly took a quick shower in hopes to relieve those blurry images that crept into my head. And my tears began to fall as water run through my body. Wishing that I could completely eradicate the dark past I have. As usual, I do my early routine and went to my company. The company was built for a purpose, 5 years ago.

Today, I choose to walk. Since the company is just a walking distance from my place. As I am walking through the cold street, I embrace myself and took a deep breath but suddenly, I saw a man approaching me.

“Am I just seeing things again?” “Am I dreaming?” I even tried to gently slapped my face to let me know that I’m awake. And I really am.

This man, the reason why I’m here is also here. Shocked enveloped my system. I feel the heaviness in my heart as I stared at his masculine feature. I suddenly averted my gaze when I noticed that he was also staring at me with no expression plastered on his face. Is he doing this on purpose? Or it was just a coincidence. Whatever it is, it’s up to him. After all, Im all done with my sweetest revenge. I walk as fast as I could, but my world suddenly stopped when he grabbed my hand. I felt that my body become frozen. This is it, this is what I’ve been waiting and now the time has come. We’ve crossed each other's path again. Will he kill me???

I stop imagining things when he started to spoke which made me convulsed. That voice, that baritone voice hits really different.

“It's cold, you shouldn’t be walking along this frozen street”

That was terrifying. After all what we’ve went through, that’s what he’s going to say? The nerve with this man. I composed myself and proudly looked into his eyes, that deep blue eyes.

“Excuse me, but I don’t talk to strangers!”

I saw him licked his lips in a seductive way and I want to strangle my own neck for I felt how my face heated. I simply coursed under my breath. One touched, and my system was distracted. I forcefully grabbed my hand and stepped away from him, gathering all my strength.

“If you want me gone, tell me you’ll be happy. And I will be at peace.”

That was the last conversation we’ve had. Because I suddenly take a leave and went to my biological mother’s hometown.

I am afraid. Not because he found my location but because of how my body reacted from his touched and those seductive smirked. I know myself better and I already have made a promise that no one can ever destroyed me again.

I am sitting under the tree while looking at various kinds of flowers dancing with the wind. How I wish life could be like these flowers, where we can just dance with life's rhythm. Nothing to worry about. But life's reality isn't. We have a lot of responsibility, we can't just sleep the whole day and woke up then eat. Everybody needs to worked hard to thrive in this world. Lucky for those who were born in luxury. I've been living surrounded with luxurious things. But I don't considered myself as a lucky one even though I have my own body guard. The house were full of servants. One snap and they'll give everything you need. All I need was my parents attention. Growing up, I did all my best to make them proud but my best isn't enough because they never appreciate all of those awards and recognition I got from various school competition. As I got back to my reality, I just noticed that my tears are falling down from my eyes. I just took a deep breath and smiled sadly cheering myself. The wind blows and I wish it will take away all the pain and sadness I've been feeling.

Peacefulness enveloped my system. I completely needed this peacefulness. Away from my past, away from the people who caused me too much pain, and away from him. But why am I not feeling the contentment I have been looking for?

He was a brother but turns to be my lover. I meet him at age 15, as the only child living with my parents I was spoiled by material things but not with attention. But when he came, Clyde Dave Nicholi or shall we call him CN, I found a brotherly love from him, at least that’s what I thought. But things turns out to be different. CN is my darkest secret, and me, Clandestine are my parents mistake. And now, I am making the same mistake, too.

He used to be my strength, but now an enemy. That was the hardest truth I needed to swallow. To stop believing and ignoring the man who used to be your constant source of happiness is the worst part.

Twenty two years of living in lies, pretending that I’m living but the truth is that, I feel like I’m already buried long time ago. Can someone bring me back to life?

“ CN, I thought you’re an ally, but why did you do this to me?”

You’re my serial code to my total self-destruction. One pressed, and I will explode.