Zane:
I hate her guts so much, and I hate myself even more for thinking I should be with her. My heart is stupid, and if there were a way to stop it from working, I’d be glad. I wish we were vampires; then I could control what I feel. But all I want right now is to hold and caress her. She’s hurt, and it’s my fault, but her people hurt me first.
But you hurt her yourself. What is this stupid debate in my mind? I storm into my room, slamming the door shut so hard the sound reverberates through the entire house.
I throw myself on the bed, trying to banish her stupid face from my mind. She saved my life, and without her, I’d be dead now. I owe her a lot, but I can’t let her go. Maybe I could let her go and seek revenge on her people alone, but I want her. I love her.
Shit! Did I just conf
