My Super Star

Disappointment

SEHER P.O.V

" Rehan stop " my mother screamed at my father as he was driving the car so roughly.

I held my toy tightly in fear as I saw my mother was crying and begging my father to stop the car , it was raining heavily outside .

" Rehan you are drunk , please stop the car .... I promise I will listen to you , I will do whatever you will say please stop " my mother begged.

My Father glared at her but when he look straight a bright light flash infront of us , the only thing I heard my mother screamed .

" AMMI ..." I screamed and woke up , I grip the bedsheet as I gasp for air .

I close my eyes as the tears fall from my cheeks ..

Again the same dream , same nightmare, same memories I am living every night for the past 20 years of my life .

I saw the time from my nightstand , it was the time of my Fajr prayer , I wiped my tears and got of my bed.

I prayed my namaz , I cried and cried , and ask Allah to give me strength to bear everything.

The only thing in my life keep me going was my Allah , my Allah saved me every single time.

Later that day I went to work .

I was giving medicine to one of my patient when Bashir walked toward me .

" Seher " he hold my arm which made me flinch in pain.

" Are you okay " He asked with a concern look .

" Yeah " I nodded and went away from him.

I didn't told him about my encounter with Mr. Rude .

Third person p.o.v

Moshina khan aka Rizwan mother enters Rizwan mansion looking for her son but as soon as she entered one of the house staff immediately came toward her .

" Mam Rizwan sir is not here" the staff inform her .

" I know , he is here and he asked you to lied to me " the staff who address her hung his head .

" I need to see my son " she announced and the staff member moved from her way .

I strode toward Rizwan's room .

She stood infront of his room and knock on his door but no response came from other side.

She again knocked on his door " GO AWAY" a voice boom from the other side of the door and his mother flinched.

She had tears in her eyes because she couldn't recognised her son's voice anymore.

She wiped her tears and turn the door knob with a poker face .

As soon as she open the door , she started coughing because smoke filled in his room.

" Rizwan what are you doing " her mother shouted and gasp as she saw Rizwan holding a syringe which he was about to take in his body which means he was taking drugs.

Rizwan eyes widen as he immediately throw the syringe on the other side .

" Ammi " he whisper as he immediately started walking toward her , his room was mess as alcohol bottles was thrown on the floor , he trip while coming toward her as her mother felt like someone ripped her heart from her chest .

" Ammi what are y- " but before Rizwan could say anything she slaped him , silent tears fell from her eyes. Rizwan didn't dared to look at his mother even though he dont care about others but he still love and respect his parents alot.

" Who are you " she asked him.

Rizwan didn't said anything he just lowered his eyes.

" Who are you " this time his mother voice raised in anger.

This time Rizwan look at his mother , he can see the disappointment in her eyes .

" I am your son " He whispered.

" No " she shook her head.

" No you are not , my son would never do such haram thing " she poke her finger on his chest .

" My son would never take drugs , so no you are not my son " she took a step back.

" Bahadur " she scream one of the staff .

Few seconds later a man came .

" Yes mam "

She didn't look at the man , her eyes was still on her son " Take these bottle and throw them away " she announced.

Rizwan didn't dared to say anything not because he was scared of his mother but because his respect for her won't allow him after all she was his mother and he can't disobey her , at least not infront of her .

" I know you won't go to hospital to get rid of your addiction , so I am hiring a nurse and a doctor who will check up on you in your home " she glared at him while announcing.

" but Ammi " Rizwan gritted his teeth but her mother raised her hand to stop him to talking .

" The conversation is over " she turned on her shoe and walk out of the room not before looking at him one last time , Rizwan eyes met her as he can clearly saw the disappointment in her eyes for him.

After she slammed the door at his face , Rizwan look himself infront of the mirror , hisbeyes were red as he even can't recognised himself.

disappointment....that what he felt and saw in himself.

Suddenly he felt like his body was on fire as he started feeling suffocated , immediately he started looking for the syringe which he has thrown when his mother entered , he look here and there .

He started throwing everything, in search of that injection which contain d**g .

He scream in furstation ... " Where the hell is that "

Suddenly his eye found it and he grab it like it was the only source of his living .

He injected himself with that injection and he felt relieved all the disappointment, all the pain was gone , he closed his eyes as he smile ..

It wasn't a happy smile , it was a smile which shows that he was done , he was done with everything.