MILES AWAY

I- Demure

I- Demure

demure

/dɪˈmjʊə,dɪˈmjɔː/adjective

reserved, modest, and shy 

28.11.2019                                                                                                                                                        

 9.49 PM

Gujarat, India

The light of the day has always been preferred by most. The way it glimmers, the way it lights up not only the mother nature but also the hearts and minds of many is unrealistic. It has always been man's way to success, as the saying goes--with a new day comes new strength and new thoughts.

I have also always preferred the day. The night, the darkness was not really my cup of tea. But I never knew that night would be start of a passionate journey where I would start to love the dark, the night, the memories it will bring with it.

Starting with the office in the morning, tending to people's needs all throughout the day, the day was as plain as most of the days. Socializing--nah, I'm not a big fan of it. Loneliness is what suits me the most. I like the way silence feels. It has its own way of healing people, and I desperately wanted to be healed. Staying away from family is hands down the most difficult thing I had experienced in my 24 years of life. But staying alone, I came to value the company of my amma, papa and my siblings that I once enjoyed every day. Foremost it made me aware of my own existence, what I am to myself and what I am to the outside world.

But those couple of nights, I didn't want to be alone. I wanted to talk to someone. Up until now, I never understood why I wanted to talk to someone who is a stranger to me, maybe because the person won't judge me even if I shared all my stories with them.

Anonymous chat—one to one

My phone screen lit up with thousands of search results. There were tons of options. I opened a few of them and settled on the one which was most convenient to me. I found a few decent persons there to be honest, but none of them appealed to me that much. Skip and skip is all I did most of the time in those couple of days. But that night wasn't like those previous nights. Unknowingly I came across someone who I never knew will unknowingly become everything to me in the days that followed.