IN LOVE WITH AN UNDER LORD ( MxM )

3. Secrets

             Lewis's p.o.v

It had been 5 weeks since I had let my subordinate hold me, all I knew was that I had passed out between the act. when I woke up I was in a hospital with my parents at my bed side, weirdly the doctors told them I was involved in a fight with an employee, the cops said the same too, I couldn't understand them at all.

When I got discharged I took no time in going back to work even though dad had told me to rest, everyone was acting normal and I found that strange, I continued my job as CEO but I stopped with the yelling and firing.

The most wiredest thing was that, ever since that day I couldn't c*m through the front every time I jerked off, I only did c*m when I used the back hole, I c*m hard mostly when I thought about that man, I tried looking for any information about him but I found nothing, it was like somehow someone had erased it from the company's computers.

I thought about the man who had held me almost all the time, he consumed my working, eating, bathing and sleeping hours, my body lusted for him, no matter how much I tried to tell my mind to forget, it was of no use, I really wanted him, sadly he was like a ghost, he was no where to be found or seen.

Ever since I was a teenager, I had secrets I made sure to keep in the dark and take to my grave, one of them was that I was gay and secondly I yearned for a guy who would treat me roughly in bed and yet make love to me at the same time.

I longed to submit and be devoured, as much as I wanted to come out, I feared my parents, they hated homosexuality with all their hearts, because of them I avoided dating, I also was ashamed of my d**k, I hated myself a lot and a few times I tried committing suicide and hurting myself, I felt Like I was a nobody, no one understood how much it hurt, I felt like I was hopeless and the weirdo of the family.

I wanted to fall in love and be loved, but no one would love me, when that man held me it was painful but he made me come alive, a part of me experienced what joy was and in that moment I felt loved, needed and useful.

I tried putting my focus at work to forget about him but I couldn't, so here I was outside S- hotel, I bought a VIP card, it was expensive but I wanted to try out their service, maybe I was just pure lonely.

I once over heard a rich spoiled cousin of mine praising this place, he said how gender was not an issue and how the place satisfied ones fantasy's, I knew it wouldn't fulfill mine but I was hoping to at least try and see were everything would lead me.

I walked in and went to the reception trying not to look around.

"Welcome sir" the receptionist said with a smile.

She was so pretty with big breasts, she was putting on bunny ears and wearing lingerie only.

"Thanks" I answered as I handed her the VIP card which was delivered to me, she looked at it then smiled.

"Whats your request?" She asked.

"Um..what?" I asked a bit confused.

"What is your preference, Men, women, virgins, Beasts in bed, Younger teenagers, Older ones, a slave, a master, Perhaps the owner which by the way is the most expensive of them all, the owner is rarely found but recently his been available" she said with a smile.

"The owner is a he?" I asked curiously.

"Yes" she answered.

All I knew was that I wanted the best service, be it s*x or chatting.

"I would love the owner, can I give you my black card as means of payment?" I asked then handed her my black card.

"Sure" she answered then took it, she swiped my card then gave it back.

She got the VIP card I had given her earlier and stamped something on it.

"Use the elevator, go to the last floor, there is the only biggest suite there, the door has a scanner, when it scans the VIP card it will automatically open" she said then handed me the VIP card.

I smiled then went in the elevator and pressed the last floor when the door closed.

I was feeling nervous when the elevator door opened, I stepped out and walked to the only door I could see, I put my card on the scanner I found and waited patiently while it scanned, when the door opened I stepped in the room.

The room was richly designed, twice better than my best bedroom in my house, I moved around admiring the leather couches and the big king size bed that had red rose petals on the covers, the champaign that was on the table was the finest.

Then it hit me, I needed to smell nice for who ever I was about to meet, I did take a bath but I felt like I needed another one, I quickly went into the bathroom and striped off my clothes, I was about to step into the shower when I heard the door open then close, my heart beat wildly.

This was a first, I wasn't planing to let him see my small d**k and laugh, although the place had guarantee of keeping secrets I just couldn't take the risk, if it was s*x we were going to have, then we were going to do it in the dark and he wasn't going to touch my d**k.

"Are You in the bathroom?, Listen customer, I know you paid a lot to have me for tonights company but I'm a bit tied up, as an apology I will refund you and give you one of my best men to spend the night with you for free" he said loudly.

His voice had me quickly putting on my shirt and running out of the room, when my eyes met his the smile I never knew I had slipped off.

His voice was really alike to that man but it wasn't him, the man that stood in front of me was very handsome and his dress code was so fashionable and expensive, his eyes were grey and his posture showed how manly, confident and rich he was.