My Heartbeats Rhymes Collection

DEATH BEFORE JUSTICE

A month passed after the nightmare,

My parents and friends gave everything they could share,

Just for the Justice that they couldn't find anywhere,

Mark and his family left the town, and left the scars that so hard to bear,

I stopped studying for a while and tried to find myself again,

I thought everything was ruined after what happened,

My parents blaming themselves and I couldn't help them out,

I was even numbed and full of self-doubt.

I managed to live my messy life after all,

Dave and Trisha visiting me after school,

The troma was there and bullies were around,

They were accusing me that I teased mark,

My father didn't stop to chased the justice for me,

My mother Yan didn't go anywhere and she took care of and watched me everyday,

She was always there no matter what I need,

Dad Karl spent his time to find mark, he didn't stop even he got sick.

Months passed by... there's nothing justice found,

With the income we had and left everything was getting blurred,

I was started accepting the tragic reality,

When before I got over it there's another tragedy.

“Trishia is gone, there's was a collision in the city.” He said,

Dave was shaking and crying, I couldn't stand to what I heard,

I was there in our front yard, I couldn't feel my feet,

Just to stop his emotion Dave covered his mouth with his hand.

I shook my head, “I don't believe you, is it a prank?”

He came near me and Dave gave me a tight hug,

I hugged him back and I started to cry,

“No! No! This is not happening, please tell me it's a lie.”

Trisha and her mother was driving home that time from the city's market,

They used to bought groceries that good for a week,

Base on the bad news, there was a drunk guy,

Who carelessly driving his car and beated the red light.

It was too late then, the collision happened,

Trishia and her mother Tin died on the spot,

During the funeral it was full of sadness, our world like fell a part,

When I saw her father and younger brothers I could feel my breaking heart.

Before... I really thought life was easy to live with,

I didn't know that there was emotion called sadness,

I didn't know what reality is,

I didn't know that there's a lot of things could changed.

So there we were, sitting on a rock, just him- Dave and me,

Watching and hearing the rhythm of the sea,

Wondering about...what else our life gonna be,

Who else gonna leave and who else gonna stay?

Dave just turned on his moving up for his fourth year at school,

So I decided to went back to study for the sick of Trisha's soul,

I tried my best to catched up to those leassons I missed,

It was hard but I had to be strong just to live.

We lost our contact to Pia and her family,

We even weren't able to tell her about Trisha's ended destiny.

It was so sad to think of how our friendships ended.

The memories remains, commitment fades, back to strangers like we didn't became friends.

“Let's go again to the forest? We had a lot of memories there.” Dave said.

We were walking on the street, I didn't answer him and I was just staring at the ground.

“I promise I won't leave you alone there so you don't have to be afraid.”

He touched my shoulder, I stopped, He'd been talking to me, I didn't understand what I heard.

“Not today Dave, we're just got out at school and I have a lot of homeworks to be done.” I just said.

He pulled away his hand, he looked at me dissapointedly and we walked again.

He tried to chill me up, he could read my actions and might be my mind.

Just like a blinked of an eye, I started to forget how to smile,

Mom and Dad were so worried but I didn't want to lie.

All I could do was to showed what I felt inside,

I wasn't good at faking smile or laugh when the truth I'm sad.

Every weekend Dave used to came by,

We used to see each other and he was trying hard to get back my smile,

He brought me somewhere far from the forest,

Sometimes we were in the beach, sometimes climbing the highest sycamore tree in town to watched the sunset.

“I hope we could go back to the past. I wonder if there's such thing like time machine.”

I looked at him and I could see that he also missing them.

“I don't know...or...even we could go back there...we might still end up the same...just you and me remain.”

He looked at me but my eyes were just at the sunset.

We were sitting in a strong trunk that from the ground estimated more than 20 feet.

Dave made a wooden ladder so I could climbed and I appreciated it.

As a favor back I said “We could go and visit the forest.” He was flattered...I knew he missed it.

Another weekends came... Dave and I visited that place,

It was hard for me at first but I did it for Dave,

The happy memories started to reminisced,

Bad the bad ones was took over it, which I couldn't take.

I couldn't hold back my tears, the fears was still there,

For face of the man I once wanted to kill,

I held Dave arms he knew then that I'm not moved on yet,

I told him “I'm sorry,” He said “No it's okay,” Then he hugged me tight.

The place became once our world was really look like abandoned now.

Time was really gone but past was still chasing me like my shadow,

The wooden chair and the bamboo floor were both perishing,

I hope there was really such thing like a time machine, to change everything.

Few months passed then, and few months to go for a sad reality,

Dave would be graduated and started a new in the city,

A new college life without me and new chapter of his life story,

But he promised that he would always visit me.

Months before his graduation, he spent his remaining time with me,

In a part of the forest he made a small house on the tree,

Not too far from the house not to near from that place,

The tree house was small but got bigger with memories.

We used to came by there after class and weekends,

We started a new chapter of a new level of friendships,

He was seventeen and I was turned fifteen that time,

We both knew then that we just didn't want to be friends and broke the limit line.

We were watching the sunset and eating some chips,

When he touched my hand and later then we kissed,

I could still remember the softness of his lips,

It wasn't my first but that one was the best.

We started treating each other like a couple one,

We date, we kissed and sometimes had naughty fun,

He was the man I learned to love and always be the one,

He was my King and I was his Queen to our small kingdom.

We made a promise that he would always be my King Davy,

And I would be his Queen Kym, his one and only,

He never failed to made me feel special everyday,

In every important ocations, he always had gifts for me.

The blue sky was always beautiful in my eyes,

Even the storm came and there's no stars at night,

I loved the feeling of what David Cruz could made me feel,

Every time I held his hand, I felt like dancing in the air.

Until Oneday...

Reality came...It made me sick...it was really does.

Graduation came and I felt so sad,

He became so busy after that especial day,

Weekends came and after few days of not seeing him he texted me,

He told me we would meet at 4:30 Pm in the tree house to celebrate,

I asked mom and dad if they could allow me...they said yes,

The were in the good mood that time, they even gave me kisses and hugs.

They weren't always like that but I left home with a happy heart,

I came to the tree house one hour before his call time so I wouldn't be late,

I fixed my hair and felt my confidence with my floral dress.

I was so excited to see him again and missed him so much,

I kept texting and asking if where he was but he didn't made a response,

I began to worry that he would not make it after few minutes he hadn't been there yet,

David Cruz would text me if he wouldn't come and he never been late.

After few hours of waiting I disappointedly walked back home,

I didn't know why but the blew of the air was strange and I felt like so alone,

I was walking on the street and few blocks more before hour house.

There's alot of people in our frontyard, police man and ambulance.

I ran with my life there's something bad happened playing in my mind,

What all I was thinking was my mom and dad,

I walked slowly, with a puzzled thoughts,

“Wha-whats going on?” I started to felt numbed when I saw alot of blood.

A policewoman held me when I tried to came in,

She was saying something but I couldn't hear anything.

“No! Mom...No! No! Please let me go, she's my mom! She's my mom!!!” I cried to death,

She was covered with blood, no traced of life but her eyes were opened.

She was on the floor but I couldn't go near, It made me sick,

“He didn't make it too.” A police man from behind said,

His words made me stopped, I started to wonder “who was he” he was talking about.

I stood up with all my strength and I faced him, I couldn't feel my heart.

“Who is she?” He asked to the woman officer,

“The daughter-”

“Wha-what did you say?...who-who didn't make it...you talking about?” I asked, I could feel my getting faster heartbeats.

“I'm sorry but Officer Karl Fer-”

I ran to the ambulance that was about to leave, “Stop!”

Mixed-emotions and hatred of life those were all I had,

When I saw a man In his favorite black suit that also covered with blood,

If it was a nightmare, I asked for Dave to wake me up,

If it wasn't I wish someone could kill me or better if it was God.

I fell to the ground, I lost my strength.

I was being crazy, there's lot of voice In my head,

I put my hands on my face, I was crying but there was no more tears,

My heart was breaking into pieces,

“I don't understand, I don't understand!” Is what all I said.