As we left Kingstown, my mind was in complete disarray once more. When I woke up this morning, my mind was already made up to abort the child. After speaking with Jonathan, however, it gave me hope that even after what happened to Nikolai and I, I would still be able to become a mother who could provide for this child in whatever means I can and by that, I meant relying on Jonathan for now until I find a decent job. His words were just reassuring, but it was the future that I was so afraid of.
“Are you nervous about your appointment?” he asked.
“N-Not really,” I stuttered. “I am more nervous with you around.”
A smirk crossed his lips.
“Why so?”
I looked out of the window and whispered to myself, “Because I cannot tell when and where you will soon abandon me.”
“What?” he questioned t
