He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not

The Final Charm

We silently walked through the forest that meets our back yard for about five minutes until we came to the clearing. Every year on my birthday, me and dad would come out here to talk to her. I stop at the edge of the clearing. I never liked coming here. I only come with dad on my birthday. I should enjoy coming here but I have always gotten an eerie feeling from this place. I always feel like my heart shatters alittle every birthday I come. But it's not because of anything other than my dad.

You see, this is where my mother is buried. I know that I should be sad or want to come talk to her. But the truth is that I dont even know her. She died giving birth to me so I never even laid eyes on her. And I dont know why but deep down inside I feel like I shouldn't be here. I have never told dad how I feel. He loves and misses her so much that I know I would break his heart if I expressed how I felt.

Dad walks up and takes out a dozen roses and sets them in the holder on the right side of the tombstone. He kisses his hand and touches the stone with his head held down. I stay back and watch my dad. "You know I dont like this place. It's wrong to be here." Silver whines in my head. "What do you expect me to do about it? Dad misses her so much and this is what he wants. Plus I still don't understand why we feel this way." Silver is on guard. She is every time I come here. It's like she senses something that I can't.

Dad stands straight and motions me forward. As I step up beside him he backs away and sits on the bench about five meters away. I walk up to the tombstone and open my box. Its filled with a dozen lilys. I do the same as my dad did and set them in the holder but on the left side. "Hi mom." I begin. "As you know today I'm 15. You would be so proud of dad for how he's been raising me. We are both doing great." I look at dad sitting there and when I speak next I keep my eyes on him as he's the one I really want to talk to.

"So today when I spent the morning with Kayden he official proposed." At that dad looks at me with a flash of sadness in his eye but he gives me a weak smile. "He gave me his mothers ring. And he also gave me the queens wedding dress. It's so pretty dad." He motions me over and I sit next to him on the bench. He reaches for my hand and runs his thumb over the ring.

"Pinky are you sure about this?" I tilt my head and give him a confused look as he continues. "I know that you think you love him. But your not even of age yet. What happens when you are not mates?" "You dont have to worry about that." I say as I'm trying to figure out why he feels like this. "You heard the queen when she told us she saw us as mates ruling side by side and that we would be the most powerful mates." He puts his hand up to signal that he wants to speak. "I know but what if shes wrong? I just want you to be happy." "Dad, I am happy. Me and Kayden have been best friends for as long as I can remember. I love him more than anybody. Don't worry. Everything will work out as it should." With that he kisses my forehead and drops the subject. "Alright, I'll stand by your decision, but if for any reason you change your mind I will be there for you."

With that he hands me the black box he's been fidgeting with. "Here it is. The last final piece." Silver is just as excited as me. It's like she knows what this all means but she wont tell me. I'll figure it out eventually. I open the box and inside is a silver wolf head charm in front of a blue moon. "Its me!" Silver says jumping in joy. I hook it to my bracelet next to the others. I look at it bewildered as all the charms start to glow as soon as I clamp it on.

"Wow. What is happening?" I look at dad who just has a look of pride on his face. "They are intertwining. Once all the pieces are together there energies intertwine." He states matter of factly. "So what does that mean?" I question him as the glowing dims down and goes out. "It means that you are special, as me and your mother thought, and that one day you will understand and be able to do great things." Silver smiles a goofy wolf grin as she is proud to be special. "You ready to head back Pinky Pie?" Dad asks standing up. I take his hand and stand up.

We walk back to the house and spend the rest of the night as we do every birthday. Dad made my favorite dinner, lasagna and garlic bread. Well the garlic bread is Silvers favorite so we ended up eating five pieces. Dad just chuckled as he goes on about how he never saw a girl eat so much. Lol. He always liked to joke. Then we spent the rest of the evening playing board games and ended it with watching my favorite movie. And I know this sounds weird since I'm a 15 year old girl now but I absolutely love the cartoon Anastasia. It's my absolute favorite. Dad always says that the day I pick a new favorite movie is the day his little girl has grown up. Lol. I always tell him that will never happen.

We said our goodnights as dad retires to his room and I just got out of the shower and into my pajamas for bed. I sit at my desk looking at my charm bracelet. I still don't understand exactly what he is trying to tell me with it though. I think it has something to do with the fact that Kayden will be the king of kings overseeing all the supernatural but that idea doesn't feel right. Not with they way he keeps asking me to be sure. The charm bracelet looks so magical.

The charm I got when I was 12 is a shiny gold rose that symbolizes the fae. The fae have powers of healing and the power of growth. Dad told me when he gave me this charm that every flower that ever blooms is the work of the fae.

Next to that is a green star that symbolizes the witches. The witches are so powerful that they can do any spell and mix potions for almost everything. The only thing they cant do is make somebody fall in love or bring somebody back from the dead. I remember I once asked dad why their symbol is a star. He told me that most spells and potions must be cast while inside a star that's drawn around them. I thought that was interesting.

Last year I got a red heart with silver thorns wrapped around it. This one I knew instantly. It is for the vampire. It represents their immortality. Vampires can live thousands of years, as long as they dont get beheaded that is. I gulp and place a hand on my throat at that thought.

And today, the silver wolf and blue moon. It is for the werewolves. It is made to show the love that the mood goddess has for these creatures. It is well known that the wolves are her favorite supernatural beings. And I'm so proud to be part of the species she adores so much. They are all connected by the pure silver chain. Actually it looks more like a rope. Which makes more sense to me now that dad said that they intertwined.

And if your wondering, no silver doesn't hurt me. Dad said its because I'm part vampire so I dont have the same weaknesses that other werewolves have. Actually now that I think of it I cant think of any weakness I share with either the vampire or werewolves. Interesting. I set the bracelet down and head to bed. I start to think of the fun me and Cameron will have tomorrow starting to plan for the wedding when I find my eyes growing heavy and drift off to sleep.

I know I'm dreaming but I can't help the weird feelings that I'm having. I'm in the woods running. I'm searching for something but I don't know what. I'm weaving in and out of trees and suddenly I slam into something as hard as a wall. I shake my head thinking I ran straight into a tree but when I look up my heart stops.

Standing in front of me is the most handsome man I have ever seen. His chest is bare and he has on only a pair of basketball shorts. His body is amazing. It's like he was sculpted by the moon goddess herself. He reaches his hand down to help me to my feet. When I accept and our hands touch its like a fire starts to burn within me. My hand has sparks shooting up my arm. And it feels amazing. When I stand up I look up into his eyes and I'm mesmerized. I have never seen eyes like those. They are the most perfect gray color and it's as if I can see a storm brewing in his eyes.

Without saying a word he leans down and attacks my lips with his. The burning feeling explodes in me and I feel electric tingles in every part of my body. Oh it feels so good. I close my eyes enjoying the feeling that is coursing through me. When all of a sudden his lips are gone and the intense feeling that was just there is gone. I whimper and my eyes shoot open.

Only for me to find myself laying in my bed. Sweat covering my body and my heart beating fast. What in the goddess name was that. I know it was a dream but inside I find myself longing for that feeling and longing to look into those eyes. I lay restlessly trying to get back to sleep. It takes awhile but I finally drift off into a not so peaceful slumber.