Her knock the third time brought him back from his thoughts and he just knew that at the time he knocked again, he was going to eat her head off.
Why could she not get the clear message and ignore that he obviously did not want to see her or talk to her.
He was not always like this to her and she had to be grateful that most times when she needed someone to talk to, he gave her the attention even when he was nauseated by her presence.
It was not her in fact that got him so angry and irritated all the time, she was a tall, slender and indeed beautiful lady with brown eyes that told a lot about how intelligent she was, but it was not just it for her.
That was the way he loves his woman to be coincidentally, or maybe because his parents knew that, they planned it for her to come to him, but he did not buy into this at all.
At this point, he would prefer a shorter lady who was robust and a lot of weight to carry than Claire and he meant it, only if they would not get married immediately.
He remembered going on his kneels to beg his parents to let him get to know her a little more and see if she could be the one for him first before getting married to her, but they vehemently said no.
His father especially claimed that he did not know his mother enough even after they had been friends for many years and he just knew her better when they got married.
Not only that, but he also added that till this point, they did not still know 100% about themselves and that was said to shut him up so he gave up on that point.
She spoke very well to him and was very respectful when his parents were there, but when they were alone, she was used to hovering around him like a bee and making him feel uncomfortable with the way she was gumming on his body.
It was weird and he felt like vomiting anytime she did something sexy to him and when he reacted she claimed that it was a normal thing to be done with fiancés.
If only he knew that his life would move so fast in his eyes and he would not be able to hold on to it to stop and put him off the pressure, he would have felt a whole lot better about this development.
She knew what his feelings for her were, and she had been mature enough to address it when he asked her to politely leave him and the marriage alone.
After he had been angry at her and bursted, telling her that he had tried his best to love her but there was nothing in his heart for her, she softly tried to make him calm down to his utter surprise.
She told him that she understood all he was feeling towards her but she reaffirmed her love for him and she was willing to wait till whenever he came around and he just wanted to cry.
It was obvious that she was very much interested in this marriage as well and maybe she was the reason behind his pain, so he would ask her again what his parents did to her or her parents.
If she did not know anything about it, then it could be that her parents used her feelings for him as bait, and this was his last chance to unfold this truth.
It was the day of their wedding and there was no doubt that if he did not pressure her to talk and give her a higher offer, there is every chance that he would be stuck with this error for life.
He knew that his parents loved him and wanted the best for him and since did not look anything like the best they might just also be blind to seeing the truth on what to do.
Maybe he could get them freed from every shackle they were in.
He checked the time and saw that it was almost noon, he had laid on one spot for hours.
At this time, he missed going to the office as he would have found solace there, but no one would let him go since it was a day to his wedding.
He closed and opened his eyes again and started to feel the environment he was in, the room suddenly came alive and it was another pain to see that every instrument that could help him in committing suicide has been taken away from the room.
It was taken away even before this matter became more perplexing and difficult to handle for him so he knew that they also went a step ahead of him in that aspect.
He decided then to embrace the beautiful white room he was in as a sign of peace and hope that things would definitely get better.
If marriage to Claire was what was the best thing for him, then he would as well do it and wait for love to come in, maybe he was never meant to get the one thing he had always longed for, love before marriage.
He stood up and wore his fluffy slippers, adjusting his head and feeling bad that his breath stank but at the same time not doing anything about it as he walked to the door.
One thing was certain and it was that he would make it clear to Claire that he did not want her coming to his room anyhow because he was preparing and he would rather she text him no matter how important it was.
She would say yes to his requests because obviously she was the one head over heels for him and would try anything she could to get into his good book, but he was amazed at who he saw.