Take a chance on me

chapter 4: Afraid

That night in bed, I felt like being with Zane was so perfect. It's like maybe a little too perfect. I am so attracted to him when he touches me. I get literal goosebumps.

And all I've done since meeting him is think about him, even dirty ones.

But I still am on fend about why a sexy goddess would want a girl like me? I can't think of a reason. And it's making me think my father is setting me up. What person 10/10 goes for a waitress

who wasn't even wearing makeup or looking her best? Okay, okay, I tell myself to stop being so hard on myself. I mean lots of men like me. I have bright blue eyes and thick natural eye lashes, and gorgeous hair, plump pink lips, and since we were just in summer season although trying to switch to autumn I have a light tan and perfect teeth. But even if he's attracted my features and may be serious, I can't fight off the feeling my father is using him. And that sends terror through my body. And then I felt hurt. Would Zane hurt me? He said he doesn't intend to in front of everyone. People say things all the time. UGH, why am I so complicated? Just be happy a sexy beat is interested. I rolled over at 2 AM. f**k I'm gonna be exhausted for work tomorrow. I have to turn my thoughts off from him.•••

Zanes pov

After seeing Faye, it felt like she ignited a fire in my soul that was cold,wet, and dark for a long time. She made me want to pick her up, take her to the tribe and show her off, then f**k her slow making sure my scent of marking stayed on her. To make her mine. My wolf ached since we left her. I kept trying to control myself because I wanted her to text me tonight like most girls did after a date. I was wondering why she wasn't so hooked. I've seen the effects I've had on her, the anxious, the goosebumps, the blushing, I have heard her heart race. It's all signs she wants me. But what is holding her back? And when we said goodbye, she didn't even give me eye contact. Are human girls really this tough? I understand they don't get the same intense attachment as a wolf does right away, where I want to do anything in power for her, to see her smile, to hear a laugh, I want to protect her. Wait a second, protect? I think she has secrets she's not ready for me, and that's why she's being invasive.

But what secrets? Who is she protecting? Or what is she protecting? That's probably why she's trying to distance herself from me. I want her to know she can trust me. I'll be on her side. Nothing will change my love for her.•••

Alpha Wick POV

Kane is one of my messenger wolves. He knocked on my door. "Pardon me, alpha Wick, but I have some news."

I turned my head towards him. "Alright, tell me." Kane came in and kneeled before showing his respect for my authority. "It seems one of your higher ranks, a bodyguard of yours, has claimed a human is his mate." I raised my eyebrows. "Couldn't be true, my fortune telling is 90% accurate. He's a fool, and what is his name?" Kane said in a shiver, knowing when I can get irritated, I can become snappy, "Zane." My eyes widened. I knew this shewolf I saw in my prediction was an outsider. But she was a wolf for sure and not some weak human. Stupid Zane thinks a human can be compatible with us strong and better beings? I started laughing, 'hahahahaha' intrigued. I told Kane, "Send Zane to me. I need to hear this from him."

Kane got up gracefully, his long black hair falling down his sides. "Yes, Alpha Wick."

And he showed himself out. I turned to the window, wondering if he was persistent on keeping this mere lowly human on how to handle this. A human with ancestor wolf genes can become a wolf's mate. But in my 50 years of being the new pack leader, I have never seen it. I was taught about how human girls are emotional. They can't fight unless they take classes. My shewolves know how to by instincts and know how to hunt. They are fiesty beings, gorgeous and territorial. Human girls were more jealous than territorial, and our cultures are far too different. And if she denies him, this could break his heart to break, causing him to near death from rejection. We've had stories about pack valuable pack members dying from human rejections. I already knew if they were mated, I couldn't keep him away from her either. I had a mate once she was killed by an outsider, another pack of wolves called Redhook, and they were called the raiders who came to destroy things to make themselves feel better. She was trying to protect one of the children in this pack who are now grown up. Alive because of her. The ache was still there bringing tears to my eyes, Alyssa I miss you, I thought to myself. When she died it nearly killed myself too. Our Paramedics said it took 6 times Recessitating me. They said between each one I responded and was alive between 10-20 Mins before my wolf would cry and I would loose my heart beat again.

I don't wish death on anyone's mate. Rejection is almost as bad but you have a better chance on surviving the heart break. As to were mated and then one dies, you've already sealed the bond fully and made many memories. Everyday I have felt hollow without Alyssa. I yearned her.

*Knock, knock, knock*

interrupting my thoughts.

"Alpha Wick, you have a guest outside."

knowing it was Zane I said "Come in."