Loving you back

a glimpse of my past

In the middle of the night   Daniel couldn't fall asleep..

Due to the constant tossing around, he accidentally dropped the bedside lamp which caused Jennie to wake up. She thought he was in trouble so immediately ran towards his room when she entered his room she saw him wide awake.

  Jennie's POV

"What's wrong?" I asked, yawning.

"I can't sleep in new places can you help me" he replied.

"yeah, wait i will bring you medicines it will help you in sleeping" i replied and was leaving when his words stopped me.

"Medicines don't help me why don't you sleep with me" he said and shocked me, I glared at him for the words he just said when he said again:

"Not what you are thinking you can just sleep here" he said again pointing towards the other side of the bed I felt ashamed for what I was thinking I thought for a while and decided to do as he said just because he is a patient right now and this way I will be able to look after him from time to time too.

"O..okay" When i laid back on the bed i wasn't much comfortable but he slept after a while, my heartbeat was so fast all due to the face lying next to me not knowing what he is doing to me. I have never slept like this with any boy before, not even my boyfriend.

Yeah i had only one boyfriend in my entire life and that experience was enough for me to live through this life without wanting another one.

So the only boyfriend I ever had, had gone abroad on the scholarship i was given due to MY hard work but after some days i got to know that he will now enjoy a new relationship with my rival in the medical college there.

How stupid I am I gave my only opportunity to him thinking this is love and all people in love take care of each other by sacrificing their lives and in my case they were just my dreams I was sacrificing so I dropped out because I didn't have any money to continue.

Ironic it is isn't it? As soon as that bastard got my scholarship he left me, he left our two years relationship just because of that bitch.. how much i want to see them and break their faces but deep down i know i can never do that considering my situation. He left me to be with the b***h who had money and everything. Thinking back to our days together I realized that he was always the selfish one he usually missed our dates saying he was busy when i used to wait for him for a whole day and now i got to know that he was always having fun with the b***h. He was cheating me behind my back while i thought he loved me and is working for our better future… You must be thinking how i got to know all this well the day Michael (my ex-boyfriend) was leaving for abroad i went to see him off but instead i saw him kissing Julie passionately. I was devastated.. with tears in my eyes i went to them and asked Michael only one question

"Why?" before he could reply Julie slapped me and said

"Come on girl you think you are someone special he just used you and now that you are of no use to him it’s over.” and after that she told me everything. I just looked at Michael praying he would say something.. something that will make my heart bloom again..i thought he will shut Julie up saying she was lying but no he stood there silently like a dummy.. he never spoke.. I couldn't do anything else so i just left and that day i cried so much praying to God that He kills me

"Why people have everything they want but i have nothing.. why did He make my life so miserable.. took my parents, my family I said nothing I tolerated everything even though I knew i have nothing ..then He gave me that boy who cheated on me.. don't I deserve happiness? don't i deserve to have someone as the ray of my light..? Why God why.. Why only me"

I remember correctly how much painful it was to live from that day... i prayed to die, I cried saying  "Mom Dad please come back and take me with you.. your angel can't take it anymore" even thinking about it today breaks my heart...

I slept with tears flowing through my eyes. i had my back to him so he wouldn't know anything.. In the morning when i woke up he had already left.. i don't know when he left but as i saw the time it was 8am

"Oh my God! i am late for college" i shouted..

i ran towards the washroom and changed my clothes.. and without eating breakfast i ran towards the street hoping i make it on time when i already knew i was too late to reach on time ..