I’ve tried not to think about it because Aoife will always be a part of Punky’s life, but I can’t shift this heaviness in my chest. It’s only been a few hours since he dropped me off, but it feels much longer than that.
I know it’s because a small part of me continues whispering doubts into my ear; that Aoife and Punky will always share something I won’t. They have a child together, an amazing child, and no matter what happens in the future for Punky and me, Shay will always be Punky’s firstborn son.
I’ve tried to keep busy. I walked to a local store to buy some necessities as I only have the clothes on my back. I don’t know how long I’m staying, so I bought the essentials. I’d hoped dressing up and applying some makeup would help me feel remotely better.
I no longer look like the livin
