I wish that I could say that as the weeks passed that things got better but the truth is that they did not, in fact they got worse.
I would wake up at random times, screaming while trying to claw out my heart and each time it would take an army to hold me down so that they could tranquilize me.
The doctor maintained that I was trying to claw out the bond but I believed that, that was not the case at all.
The bond is invisible just like spirits so it did not make sense whatsoever. I believed that I was trying to literally claw out my heart.
in other word I was trying to end my own life since dying was the only sure bet that the bond would be destroyed and therefore I would be totally free from it.
I hated what I was going through but there was no cure for it. My physical and mental
