Chapter 4
There’s something about rooftops at night that makes people tell the truth.
Maybe it’s the altitude the feeling of being slightly removed from the world, where the noise fades and you can finally hear your own thoughts. Or maybe it’s just that when you’re staring at the endless stretch of sky, your problems start to look small enough to say out loud.
Either way, that’s where Eli and I found ourselves one night in late April on the roof of my building, sitting side by side with a half-empty thermos of tea and a blanket we were sharing because the wind refused to mind its business.
It started as a simple hangout. We’d both had long days I’d bombed a music theory test, and he’d spent twelve hours working on an architecture project that apparently collapsed in theory before it ever stood in reality. His words, not mine.
So I’d texted him which was a big deal, because until then, I’d always waited for him to reach out first. I didn’t even think before typing:
Me: rooftop tea?
Eli: I’ll bring biscuits.
And that was that.
He showed up around 9:30, hair still damp from a shower, sketchbook tucked under his arm like always. We climbed the narrow stairwell to the top floor, our footsteps echoing in the hollow space. The building was old the kind that groaned a little when the wind blew but the rooftop had become my favorite spot. You could see the city lights spread out like a constellation trying to mimic the stars above.
We sat on the edge of the roof, feet dangling over nothing. It should’ve been scary, but it wasn’t. Not with him there.
For a while, we didn’t say much. The city below hummed with the usual Friday night noise distant laughter, traffic, and the faint thump of music from a bar two streets over. I sipped my tea and leaned back against the rough concrete, letting the breeze brush against my face.
Eli broke the silence first.
Do you ever think about what makes something worth keeping?
I turned to look at him. Like what?
He shrugged. People. Places. Things. How we decide what stays and what goes.
I thought for a moment. I think we don’t get to decide that all the time. Some things stay because they want to. Some things leave even when we beg them not to.
He nodded slowly, eyes fixed somewhere on the horizon. My mom used to say that.
It was the first time he’d mentioned her. His tone was steady, but there was a quiet ache underneath it.
What was she like? I asked softly.
He smiled with a small, almost nostalgic curve of his lips. Loud. The kind of person who fills the whole room just by walking in. She used to paint. Not professionally she just loved color.
And your dad?
The smile faded a little. He doesn’t really talk about her. I think he buried her by pretending she never existed.
I didn’t know what to say. So I didn’t say anything. I just reached out and touched his hand light, barely there. He didn’t pull away.
For a long while, we just sat there. The wind carried small sounds a siren in the distance, a door slamming somewhere below. But up there, it all felt far away.
After a while, he opened his sketchbook and started to draw again. I tilted my head toward him. “What are you drawing tonight?”
He smiled faintly. Not sure yet. Maybe the city. Maybe you.
I laughed. You always say that.
Because you’re always here, he said simply.
Something about the way he said it quietly, made my heart skip.
Not in the movie kind of way. More like in the
This is real and it’s scaring me in me kind of way.
To break the tension, I started humming. The song had become almost a ritual between us my way of speaking when words felt too heavy. He looked up from the page, eyes soft, like he was trying to memorize the sound.
You know, he said after a minute, you should perform that song somewhere. The one you wrote The Missed Bus. It’s good
Maybe, I said, playing with the rim of my cup. But it’s too personal. It feels weird to sing it in front of strangers.
Maybe that’s why you should, he replied. Honesty’s uncomfortable. But that’s how people recognize it.
I stared at him for a moment, half annoyed, half in awe. Do you practice saying profound things or does it just happen accidentally?
He grinned one of his rare, unguarded smiles. Mostly by accident.
I don’t know what shifted then, but the air felt different. I could feel the distance between us not in space, but in everything unsaid. There was so much I wanted to tell him. That he made the world feel slower, easier. That he’d unknowingly changed the way I looked at everything music, silence, even rain.
But I didn’t say any of that. I just said, Thanks for the biscuits.
He laughed again, that quiet kind of laugh that always sounded like it came from somewhere deep. You’re welcome, Maya.
When he said my name, it sounded like something sacred. Like he was holding it carefully.
We stayed until midnight. The city quieted down, one light at a time. I leaned against him eventually, head resting on his shoulder. He didn’t move, just breathed, slow and steady. For a while, I thought he’d fallen asleep.
Then he said, barely above a whisper, I’m glad I missed that bus.
I felt something tighten in my throat. I wanted to tell him too, but the words caught on their way out. So instead, I said nothing. Just closed my eyes and let the sound of the city mix with the sound of our breathing.
Later, when the wind got colder, we packed up and headed downstairs.
Before leaving, he tore another page from his sketchbook and handed it to me. It wasn’t of me this time. It was the skyline
but not the real one. It was how he saw it: slightly crooked, soft around the edges, with two small figures sitting on the edge of a roof.
At the bottom, he’d written:
The city is quieter when you’re here
I didn’t frame that sketch. I kept it folded in my guitar case, tucked between sheets of unfinished lyrics. Maybe because it didn’t feel like something meant for the wall. It felt like something to carry.
I don’t think I realized it then, but that night marked a shift. Not dramatic, not cinematic, just subtle. Like how dawn doesn’t announce itself, it just happinesses.
We were still friends, yes. But the kind of friends who’d started crossing unspoken boundaries without even noticing.
And somewhere in the back of my mind, I knew the story was moving toward something neither of us could control, something that would test how much silence could really hold.