The water was too hot.
Scrubbing my right hand under it anyway. The brush dragged over my knuckles until they went red. The soap wasn't touching the smell of gunpowder and chemicals baked right into my skin from the range. The kind of smell that lived there for days no matter what you did.
The brush dropped.
Sharp crack against the sink.
That finger kept twitching. The pull of the trigger still living in the tip of it like the message hadn't arrived yet that it was over.
One step back from the sink.
And the body moved on its own again.
Hips dropping. Arms coming up. Wrists locking into that position that hadn't been known until an hour ago.
Standing there in the bathroom looking at myself in the mirror doing it.
Not recognizing the girl doing it.
Arms fell.
That was the part that sat wrong. Not the stance itself. Not even the fact that it came from nowhere traceable. It was the face in the mirror while doing it. Calm. Settled. Like something in the body had been waiting a long time to be asked to do exactly this and was quietly relieved that the question had finally come. That face didn't belong to a mechanic from the outer rim. That face belonged to someone who had been built for something and was only now starting to understand what.
Let the arms fall and walk out.
Out in the hall Tor was pacing. Same route every time. Four minutes exactly between passes, counted without meaning to. Since Varek left with three cars an hour ago.
Then the bathroom light died.
Half a second later red lights came on along the bottom of the walls. Slow and flashing. No alarm. No sound. Just that red pulse that made the white marble look like something bad had happened in here.
Something had breached the gate.
The brass towel bar came with me on the way out.
Tor was already in the hall with his rifle up. Speaking into his radio without moving his lips much. "South gate. Hold. Check for anything they might have left behind."
Stepping into the corridor. "What kind of thing?"
Tor's head snapped over. "Room. Now."
"If someone left a bomb at the gate, this room is the worst place I can be." Past him toward the stairs before he could answer.
His boots hit the floor right behind me.
The front of the house was empty. Staff already went wherever they went when things went wrong. Through the thick glass of the front doors the fog had rolled in heavily over the driveway. Torch lights from the guard towers cut through it in red lines, three of them all pointed at the same spot.
A man came out of the trees.
Dragging his left leg. Boots digging deep lines in the wet stone. Not putting his hands up. Not looking for cover. Just walking straight toward the lights like he couldn't see them.
"He's wired," Tor said. Rifle coming up.
"He's not," I said.
Hand pressed to the cold glass, looking at the man's face.
Every tiny blood vessel in the whites of his eyes had burst. Pink foam running from his mouth down his chin. The body was shutting down from the inside.
Already dead.
Just hadn't caught up yet.
A small black box held tight against his chest.
Tor kicked the front doors open. Cold wet air rushed in. Underneath the smell of rain and fog something else... faint, bitter, like almonds left out too long.
"Drop the box!" Tor shouted.
The man didn't hear. Dropped to his knees on the wet stone. Back arching. Mouth opening. No sound came out.
"Maevia," he wheezed.
Just my name.
Then face down on the driveway. The black box rolled free and stopped just before a puddle of his own blood.
The red lights from the towers stayed on his back.
"Stay inside," Tor said. Rubber gloves going on. "It's not safe out there."
Already walking through the doors.
The stone cut through my boot soles. That bitter almond smell got stronger the closer I got. But growing up in the outer rim meant breathing worse than this and knowing the difference between enough to hurt you and enough to kill you.
Tor grabbed my collar.
Down to my knees beside the box before he reached me.
No number pad. No fancy lock. Just a piece of heavy copper wire twisted twice over the lid and tucked under itself in a very specific way.
Throat tight.
That knot.
My father had tied that exact knot every time he hid something important. Same twist. Same tuck. A hundred times watched under the floorboards in Sector Four.
Tor reached for the box. "Give it to me. It could be"
"It's mine," I said.
"Maevia"
"It's Mine." His hand went away. Thumb under the wire. The copper edge cuts straight into the skin. The loop snapped.
The lid fell open.
Tor threw his arm up waiting for something bad to happen.
Nothing did.
Just cold fog rolling over an open box.
Inside was a square of old blue cloth. On top of it a piece of thick paper.
I picked it up.
Hands shaking so badly the paper moved.
No message. Just numbers in neat careful rows.
4-12-7. 9-2-1. 14-8-3.
Tor shone his light on it. "Coordinates?"
"No," I said.
Voice coming out flat and far away.
This was known.
My father used to make me memorize number grids in the dark when the power went out in Sector Four. Look at the numbers not the letters, Maevia. Count from the front. Never write it down.
The answer came without trying.
4-12-7. Varek.
9-2-1. Is hiding.
14-8-3. What you are.
Couldn't breathe.
The last line.
Come to the Neon Wards tonight.
Staring at the dead man bleeding into the stone.
Not Syris. Syris didn't know my father's knots. Nobody knew my father's knots except people from before. People from the life buried in Sector Four ten years ago. People who should not have existed anymore.
Someone from before the fire was still alive.
And they knew where I was.
The weight of that took a moment to fully land. Varek is hiding what you are. Three words decoded from a dead man's hands on a foggy driveway. Three words that meant everything Syris had said in that gala was true. That Varek had known from the beginning. That the contract and the debt and all of it had been constructed around one thing he hadn't told me yet. And somewhere in the Neon Wards tonight someone was waiting who had known my father long enough to learn his knots and had trusted me enough to use them.
That was either the most dangerous thing that had happened all week.
Or the only honest one.
Tor reached for the paper. "Give that to me. Varek needs to see it."
Folded in half and pushed deep into my jacket pocket.
"It's nothing," I said. Looking Tor dead in the eye. "Fake numbers. Doesn't mean anything."
Tor's jaw went tight. Not a single word of it was believed. Visible all over his face.
Up and walking back to the house.
Fingers pressing the folded paper flat against my ribs through the fabric. Counting the folds. Holding onto them.
Varek had been keeping something from me.
Tonight I was going to find out what.
The Neon Wards were three kilometers from the estate wall. I had clocked them on the drive in. I had no car, no weapon, and no idea what was waiting for me there.
I had been in worse positions before breakfast.