Cheating Boyfriend Book I: Nothing is Perfect

Chapter 55 - Memory Lanes part I

Quote of the day: “ Sometimes a short walk down to memory lane is all it takes to appreciate where you are today “ ——- Susan Gale

I continue to walk down memory lane. I think that’s what it’s called. I think it was a part of me that my mind remembers. The part that sleeps deep within my consciousness. It was tight in a box with countless locks, cages, and chains. The kind that was hard to open no matter how tragic it has become. I think this when I don't want to remember everything. When I didn’t want to remember, it created blurs and holes in my mind. So, I end up having relapses or more like blackouts here and there. The more I try to remember the more my brain starts to ache. It was telling me not to open those boxes full of those memory lanes. I know some are good memories. 

But, there are a lot of bad ones. The kind I want to forget. Which leads me to have either a semi-amnesia to a full blown amnesia. It depends on how bad it was. Anyways, I start to continue walking down those memory lanes. Every time I was on the fork of the road; there would be signs and scenery that would follow. The further I go; the further the light disappears. And it leads me to another eerie path. A path that tells me to run away from. But, no matter how much I try to; my feet just pull me to that direction. It keeps telling me that I must know about it. Like there was some strong connection leading me to it. It was like someone was calling me to look at it. 

So, I could move on with my life. Every time I try to look more into it; I end up having nightmares. Nightmares that felt so realistic that it happened. Or I would end up having migraines or my nose would gush out of blood. Like having a bloody nose. As I continued to walk further down; I was led into another place. A place that was further deep into my consciousness. A place that I wasn’t aware of. It was labelled dangerous. It was written in cold red blood. It felt fresh and new. Like it came out from a horror movie. Red, the color of the human blood. I was next to a metal door when I saw it up close. It was covered in chains, thorns and locks.

I could feel my heart rising high in a crescendo peak. My body was sweating like a water fountain. When I step away as well as me being deep in thought; I didn’t realize I was being pulled by countless hands. It was pulling me deeper to the door. I could hear my body being crushed by the door. The kinds that make your skin burn when thorns are pierced into it. My blood was leaking out from it. At that moment, that ‘ forbidden ‘ door. The ones that were labelled ‘ dangerous ‘ in red start to open slowly. Like the doorknob was about to open. I closed my eyes to see how long it would take. As I opened my eyes again; I was again surrounded by another darkness. 

But, this darkness was completely deep blackness. The kinds you could see when you turn off your life in the room. And you don’t have a nightlight. Or when you get a blackout at home. Those kinds of darkness. But deeper into that. There was no light at the end of the tunnel. It was a horrible kind of feeling. The same kind of feeling when you get nightmares. I could hear voices appearing through the darkness.

“ You don’t deserve to be here “

“ I should be the one dating him. Not you “

“ If you’re out of the picture than I would be the one as his girlfriend “

A female voice spoke. The voice was laced with venom. It belongs to a female.

“ What did he see in you that I don’t have ? “

“ You’re just fat, ugly and short, while I’m small and cute  “

The same female voice spoke out. As the voice grew loud; a shadowy figure appeared out of the darkness. There was no face to the shadow. As the figure stepped close, so did the voice become loud. It feels familiar to me. Like I heard this voice somewhere. The female voice echoes through the darkness. I follow the voice where it came from. And it leads me to another path that I didn’t know existed. As I followed the female voice, it became louder and more familiar to me.

“ I should thank you for introducing me to him “

“ I would gladly take him off your shoulder “

“ You’re so pathetic and naive “

“ You believe every word I say. And you didn’t notice anything around me and your boyfriend “

The female’s voice grew louder. It started to pound in my mind. It was telling me to stop following it. But, a part of me wanted to know who it was. It was the biggest mistake of my life. I would one day regret it.

“ I had to make you believe that I hated him “

“ So you would let your guard down and you being blinded as a fool “

“ It was easy for met to have your boyfriend to trust me “

“ It was easy picking. Because, every time you hang out with your boyfriend; I would take that chance to hangout with you guys also “

The same female voice spoke to me with envy. I continue following the female voice. It was leading me to a deep darkness. There wasn’t any light to guide me. I continue to run towards the voice. As I followed it, there was another fork in the road. I place my right hand near my ear. I wanted to hear where the female voice was louder. She turned in every corner every time there was a fork in the road. When I followed, the ache I felt was through my whole body. As well as the ache of my heart starts to swell up. And my headache starts to appear. The voice stopped talking to me. But, it continues to echo through the dark air. It looms overhead. 

I follow it. And it leads me into another door. It was like very deep into the pit of darkness. Where it was all dark and gloomy clouds lingering in the air. Lightning and thunderstorms appear everywhere. This part of the area was locked deeper into my consciousness. I didn’t know that it would exist. I was blinded. I was a fool. The voice sounded so familiar to me. It led me into a humongous door. This was labelled in bright red color in big letters.

DANGEROUS, BEWARE !!

I reach my hand out to touch it. I could tell the coldness I could feel when I stood five feet apart from it. I could tell right away there wasn’t any doorknob that could open it. The door was covered in metal bars. A metal bar that reminds me of being in a cage. It was also covered in chains, thorns and keys.  It seems like it doesn’t want to be open. I could hear the venom ooze at the voices behind that door. I came closer to catch my breath. As I did, the door opened slowly. A gust of wind pulled me inside. Then, it darkened before I opened my eyes.There standing right before me was a different scenery. A part of me that I didn’t want to remember. 

It came crashing down deep into my mind. I crunch down and curl up like a ball. I covered my ears and closed my eyes. I didn’t want to see nor hear anything. But, I was forced to watch it all happen to me in a blink of an eye.

DIFFERENT KINDS OF SCENERY POV

‘ DANGEROUS ‘ #1 

“ I get this inkling feeling telling me something doesn’t feel right “ as the girl felt a sharp pain from her chest. 

That feeling tells me that I should get away from the crowd. In the distance, I could hear a faint sound of a voice in her mind. 

“ Don't go. You should stay..”. as the unknown voice spoke to her through her mind. 

An unknown number called you on your phone. As you picked it up, it was a sound of heavy breathing and a static sound of moaning. A voice appeared in the background from the phone. They weren’t aware that they answered the phone by mistake on their end. 

A voice sounds like a man. 

“ You’re so beautiful. You have a nice figure. I’m sure any man would want you “ as the man spoke.

He wasn’t aware that his phone was on dial. The voice sounds familiar to you. 

“ Your boobs are big. I love them. I wonder what it would taste like when I taste you “ as the man’s voice sounds playful. 

The woman's voice moans. The voice sounds familiar to you too. The girl noticed the woman's voice sounded like your best friend. And the man’s voice you heard on the phone sounds like your boyfriend. You had an inkling feeling that they are doing things behind your back. 

** Flashback **

30 minutes to two hours ago (memories flashing instantly)

“Come on, I want you to meet my boyfriend” as an average girl wearing eye glasses says to her best friend. 

“ It’s really surprising you have a boyfriend. You didn’t tell me anything until now “ as the girl’s best friend says to her. 

(inside the girl’s mind 1: of course I don’t tell you about my boyfriend. Because, I know how you act around the guy I’ve dated. So I wanted to test you to see if you are still the same bestfriend I know.)

The girl’s best friend looks at her as she starts to giggle. 

The girl looked at her best friend. The girl noticed that her best friend is very beautiful. She has a slender yet petite body. She has a defined heart head shape. Her hair was naturally black but straight. Her eyes were naturally brown. And her height is as short as four feet and nine inches. Her boobs were boobs and she had a great shape of a butt. She got her beauty and height from her mother. As for personalities, her best friend hides it. She and he have been friends since childhood.  For her, her best friend was quiet and not very talkative, just like her father. But when it comes to talking about boys, her best friend is an expert on it. 

Any guy would stare at her beauty and want to date her. As for her, she is the type of girl who is picky on the guys. The girl knows everything about her best friend. She's been friends since they were young. As if she was nine-years-old and her best friend was eight-years-old. They became fast friends from the day her father and her mother introduced themselves and us when my parents had to buy some phone cards. The girl can tell she’s her first female childhood best friend. If she had a male childhood best friend then she does. But, the girl and him haven’t talked for a long time. Not until her mother cut off ties with her friend after her dad passed away.  

At this point, the girl is a college student. She looks like a ten-year-old kid because of her physical appearance. People think she had a baby face because of her young face. But that is partially true. However, there is a secret that the girl didn’t tell her best friend. And that secret is that she could hear the thoughts of anyone. The thoughts that are well hidden it’s like when someone speaks and there is a little voice that speaks the truth. It started right after the girl’s father passed away. The hidden feeling that swells up in her heart has re-awaken. And the hatred that kept building over the years that she had up till now are still in the girl’s heart. 

The darkness was overbearing as well as overwhelming for the girl’s on good. But she’s been trying to control it by sealing it. She seals such evil thoughts in the back of her mind. For her to seal it, she had to place such evil thoughts in a box sealed with a key and chained it up tightly.  She didn’t want the slight darkness to overcome her. There was still a slight bit of light. And that light belongs to her female childhood best friend and her boyfriend. Those lights are the only keys to ever break the seal that she locked up herself in the back of her mind. It didn’t bother her when her boyfriend and her female childhood best friend became closer to each other. 

She just thought they were just being friendly. The same day out of the blue, her boyfriend wanted to spend time with her. He felt it right after he heard that his girlfriend will be introducing him to her female childhood best friend. The girl didn’t think there was anything wrong with it. So, she shook that bad feeling off. And so the day came. When the girl picks her best friend up from the location that they promised to meet up. However, the girl took a sneaky glance at her best friend. Her hair was messy. Her clothes were slightly messy. And she had a slight cologne scent that smells exactly like the ones her boyfriend uses. 

But, she can’t start accusing her. Any guy would use the same cologne smell.  As the girl and her best friend came over to meet her boyfriend, they both were surprised that he brought his two guy friends over. The guys were talking among each other when the girl’s best friend shouted and waved at them. They both respond to her. The girl, on the other hand, was wearing casual clothing that people mistake for a boy. And she was wearing eyeglasses. The girl stopped midway when she heard the sound of someone crying. And the voice did sound like a little girl who got lost and can’t find her mommy. As the girl stops and listens to the voice, she slowly sneaks a glance at her boyfriend. 

She too noticed he had a scent of a girly fragrance coming from him. And that his clothes were also slightly messy. As well as, the girl noticed a red lipstick mark in the shape of a kiss on her boyfriend’s collar of his clothes. It was slightly the same lipstick color that her best friend was using. It was the first time her best friend sang to dress up nicely. The girl didn’t take notice of why her best friend suddenly changed her style. The girl came back with the little girl. She had no choice but to bring her with her to meet with her boyfriend and friends. When she came back, she took notice of her boyfriend and her best friend missing. And one of his friends approached the girl. 

He said to the girl, “ Hey you must be the girl our friend talked about “ as he looked at her. 

He could tell the girl was her own personal charm even when he saw the girl wearing a sweater and Jean pants. The girl giggled softly and he started to feel warm inside. The boy next to him smiled at the girl. 

The girl says to them, “ where’s my boyfriend? Isn’t he supposed to be here with you guys?” as the girl starts to worry. 

“ Wait, you have a boyfriend?! I thought the girl we met was his girlfriend “ as one of the guys said without any hint of sarcasm. 

The girl shook his head and she showed them proof of what her boyfriend looked like. And one of them looked shocked and had a wary face. The girl didn’t need to ask where her boyfriend had gone since she could hear their thoughts. 

Then something happened, the girl could for some reason hear these guy’s thoughts.

(Guy 1’s thought: Oh mine what have we done. I thought the beautiful girl we met earlier was our guy friend’s girlfriend.)

(Guy 2’s thought: This is not good. We force them to kiss each other and it seems like the girl likes him. And our guy didn’t resist when she came over to him). 

The girl heard it. She felt sick to her stomach. She didn’t want to hear their thoughts. But, she doesn’t know how to stop it. Their thoughts continued. And it didn’t seem like she liked to hear it. It made her feel sick to her stomach. Like there was an anger volcano erupting early.

The girl looked up and said to them, “ Let’s go find my boyfriends and best friend. They should still be in the park”. 

The guys looked at each other and nodded towards the girl in agreement. The little girl is afraid of men. So, she approached the girl gently. She placed her hand on top of the little girl’s head. She slowly patted her head to show a reassuring sign. The little girl spoke to her, but the guys couldn’t understand what the little girl was saying. It was spoken in native language. The girl was surprised at how odd it was for her to understand what the little girl said. The little girl told her that she lost her mommy and daddy and that she couldn’t find them. And then the girl and her continue to talk while walking around the park. 

The little girl looked at her smiling. And she said to her “ you look like that beautiful girl who could sing and dance “.