I love how darkness can be my friend sleep is what crave most of the time, But how can I sleep when my life is falling apart? It seems like the right thing to do. When the world isn't on your side, You just take it and lay there.
Some will say no right? I feel like that's the answer most will give. how would one come back from this?
How would my family want me to come back from this? My father would tell me
“Take a second … and make it quick you can’t show anybody your weak “
But am I being weak for just hiding here? I don’t wanna deal with what the outside has to offer.
“ I knew I’d find you in here ? “
How can her voice be so calm at a time like this? “ Why are you sulking Kai ?”.
“You know, I should drag out out of here”
Oh that’s right she’s the only one I’m practically linked to other than Noah and that man. But for some strange reason, they're giving me my space or do they not know how to reach me here? It’s weird not hearing Zen Zander or Zayvier.
I’m sure if Zander could he would’ve found me.
Am I sulking? Am I drowning in my sorrows?
“ Why aren’t you ? There’s nothing we can do right now “
She scoffs under her breath “You are so stubborn
We take it a day at a time. We got this we have always gotten past stuff. Being sisters now doesn’t change anything.”
"Not like this"
I have nothing else to say, what can she say that can make me come out “You know i have to face Liam soon ”
I’m shocked, She never willingly brings up Liam what is going through her mind? Is she scared to face Liam? “ I heard what happened to you and Noah he’s waiting for you to wake up. don’t keep him waiting too long he looks exhausted “ Hearing Noah waiting for me made me feel reassured and comforted. “Then we’ll be even. I’m not coming out right now..” I can imagine the eye roll she will me.
Ice is my other half her abilities are the opposite of mine so teaming up in fights always worked in our favor. Even off the field
“there are a number of moving parts, me and you aren’t the only ones affected right now. One big family has been affected and we are just as upset as you. You’re the best of us stop sulking and get out of here.”
So I am sulking? Running from the world and hiding because I’m scared of the possibilities that face me on the outside. A new father, a new mate, a new sister, Wondering if my brothers resent me will my mother reject me? These are the things I’m scared of.
“You want me to lay here with you u til you come out that’s what I’ll do lay right beside your man “
I can feel myself getting annoyed “ when did this happen though I’m surprised as much as you don’t like him “
I didn’t always dislike him I was quite fond of him he had a special place in my heart “ it happened 3 days ago “ she started to laugh
“ on your birthday that’s nuts “ If I was awake id roll my eyes “tell me about it I smacked him after he kissed me” she burst out in laughter it was loud my eyes shot open trying to catch my breath I stared at the ceiling of a place that looks like my basement.
It's quiet I look over to see my brothers Zen and Zander sleeping on the loveseat I turn the other way to see Noah sleeping I feel a tap on my shoulder Icey with her finger over her mouth telling me to be quiet she looks different her eyes are now a dark blue her eyes where brown before and she looks a little darker he helps me up slowly off Noah so he won’t wake up.
Finally out of the basement ice pulls me into the bathroom to look in the mirror I can’t believe what I’m seeing my hair matches my eyes a Dark blue my skin is pretty much the same only thing that changed is my hair and eyes I look at Icey and she looks identical to me the only difference is she not as melanated as me she’s a shade lighter her hair is shorter.
Well, this is different I reach to touch the mirror I look at my hand to see markings going all the way up my arm I look at Ice and she holds her hand up to see some markings but hers isn’t as long as mine.
“ what the hell is that? “
" Its a mated mark love "
I rolled my eyes and turned in disgust there stood the man that has ruined my life. I can feel the anger sitting in the pit of my stomach, Ready to come out "Chill Kai " Icey put her hand on my back.
" Love? What are you from England or something." I snap at Santana he smirks at me and chuckles " Yes actually your grandmother was friends with the queen." I roll my eyes " Would you like me to explain or are you going to keep acting like a child ?" and turn back around to look in the mirror and play in my hair " Please explain " I wasn't going to ask him it best if she did.
" Well the mated mark that's on your hand, If you even touched your mate they would show the stronger the bond the longer the mark as you can tell on Kairos hers goes up her arm where yours is on your wrist that means she has a stronger bond with Noah than you do with Liam, That will change once you to get closer. "
" How do you know about Liam ?" she sounds confused I look over to see it written on her face.
"Just cause you wasnt aware of my existance dosnt mean i wasnt around."
" So that would make you a creep right? " Santana turned and faced me with disappointment on his face "What did you say you brat?" I shrugged my shoulders and pointed my brush in his direction " You said, Just because we weren't aware of your existence doesn't mean that you weren't around. Sounds like creep behavior to me " Ice standing between me and Santana our eyes piercing each other not moving an inch.
I don't have an inch of kindness to give somebody like him. He's done nothing but come in my lie and ruin everything.
"Let's make one thing clear Kairo everything you say I've taken from you, Just remember I also gave you." he shoots me a sadistic smile and I'm seething.
" Let me make this clear I'm not scared of you nor do i want to stand in your face. " I walk past Ice bumping him to leave out of the basement to head upstairs.
" Kai, wait where are you going?"
"Away from here!"
I open the front door to see my mother, she looks exhausted, defeated, and hurt. Her eyes are telling me everything I need to know, How I look now versus seeing how I used to look is heartbreaking. Those are the eyes I've always recognized as mine, but now that's not the case. I drop my head to look down and walk past her. Tears running down my face I start to walk past her so I can leave and get away. I feel a hand grabbing my wrist pulling me backward " What kind of mother would I be if I denied my child?" she pulled me into the tightest hug I've ever experienced from her before.
" It's ok " she whispered to me.
Those are the words I wanted to hear from her, Her hugs haven't changed I was worried that she wouldn't love me anymore after she found out I was her child. tears pour from my eyes this is what I needed.