A Feminine Flirty Dozen

London Lark-2

There was only one thing left to do, once Miss Pandora had been fixed up and made perfect, and that was to wind her up and set her going. I couldn’t bear to do it that night, for the sooner she was going, the sooner she would be going, so I laid my hand upon her perfect cheek and told her, “Sleep well, Miss Pandora, and I’ll wake you in the morning.” I’d have sneaked a kiss, too, but it ain’t right to take advantage of them as can’t speak for themselves.

It must have been the motion of my hand that made her eyelids flutter once more.

The next day I bit that bullet, took out the silver key I’d fashioned for her windings, and set it into the concealed socket at the nape of her graceful neck. I turned it quick, before I could talk myself out of it. Then I took out the key, covered up the socket and stood back, as her eyes flicked open for the first time since we’d met.

I had on my spectacles with the loupe attached, all the better to see you with, my dear, as my old mum would say, and Miss Pandora gasped when her eyes first focussed on me. Pretty eyes they were too, deep violet, rare as hens’ teeth in nature. “Don’t you fret, Miss,” I said, my voice not half as soothing as old Arthur’s nor half as gin-rough, neither. I took off my spectacles and laid them on the worktop.

Didn’t seem to matter to her one way or the other. She smiled, her pretty lips plump as ripe cherries, and blinked a few times. “You mended me?”

Her voice…Well, if you’ve seen Miss Pandora Piper conquer the boards at the Cri, you’ll know what her voice is like. A lark what’s been fed on pure golden honey all its life, is how I’ve heard it described, and it may be a fancy-arse way of talking but I wouldn’t say it was wrong, neither. Reminded me of music, but not the gaudy tones of a barrel organ, nor yet the strident notes of a pub piano. Posh music, like I heard once when I sneaked into the opera house by the back door, before some git with brass buttons sent me packing with a ringing ear and a boot in the seat of my pants. Like the tunes played by the old blind bloke who stood with his violin on the street corner when I was little, till one winter it got so cold they found him frozen to death, his bow still in his hand and half a crown he’d never spend in his hat. I can still remember how I felt, to find out people broke and couldn’t never be fixed.

Didn’t seem right, me speaking back with my commonplace voice to someone what sounded like that. I muttered something—I think it was, “Would’ve been a crying shame not to,”—and she smiled even brighter.

“Thank you so much. I don’t know how I can ever repay you.”

My heart dropped like a counterweight, right into my very boots, rough and ill-heeled as they were, because I was going to have to tell her just how old Arthur was planning she’d repay us. And that was by selling her on to some toff just like the one what abused her so dreadfully.

I didn’t know how to say it. And then I saw I didn’t need to, as her face softened, even as the sadness hit her pretty eyes, and she reached out a hand to me, her touch feather-soft on my cheek. “It’s quite all right. I understand. You have a living to make.”

“But it ain’t all right!” Lord help me, it flew out of my mouth like a cuckoo from a clock. “It ain’t fair, you getting sold on to someone what won’t care for you. Like…like a piece of meat.”

“But that’s the thing. If I were a piece of meat, it would be different. But I’m made of cogs and springs, and my heart doesn’t beat, it ticks.”

“Don’t make you less of a person,” I told her, fierce as I’d ever been. Fiercer even than when I was a nipper and young Tom Colly told me I’d no call to be wearing trousers, and he’d have ‘em off me, so he would. I sent him packing with a flea in his ear, right enough. And without his trousers, his bare arse pale and pimpled in the fierce winter cold. Even with all that was going on, I still smiled at the memory.

“You’re very handsome when you smile,” she said, and I snapped back to the present as if I’d been pulled by a wire.

“You don’t know what you’re saying. I ain’t ‘andsome.” I muttered it, my face burning and pointed at my boots.

“I would have said, beautiful, but I wasn’t sure if you’d like me to call you that.”

And that was when I realised old Arthur was in the workshop, because he heaved a huge sigh that made him cough, and said, “Lord love a duck. I thought you’d fixed her?”

I spun on my heel. “Mr Tunstall?”

He shook his grizzled head, slow like, for effect. “Gor blimey, Hodgkins, don’t you go losing your wits and all.”

“I ain’t lost me wits!”

“Good. Glad to hear it. Then maybe you can tell me where this one’s wits have gone?” He waved a gnarled hand. “Cos my back may be bent, and my hair—what’s left of it—may be whiter than a country lass before her first trip to town, but there ain’t nothing wrong with my ears, and I just heard her call you a beauty. You!” He let out a wheezing cackle.

Miss Pandora stood up, and put her dainty hands upon her well-shaped hips. “You may be of an age that, of itself, commands respect, Mr Tunstall, but I must beg to take exception to your attitude.”

“Oh, must you, indeed?” Old Arthur gave her the side-eye, and I could tell a “La-di-dah!” wasn’t far off from tripping from his cracked and reddened lips.

I stepped forward, quick like. “You see what I done? I gave her an attitude, and…and a spark, like. So’s she’ll seem like she ain’t made, but born.” And Lord help me, I ain’t never lied so fast in my life, not even about what’s inside these trousers of mine nor how a lad with such narrow shoulders comes to have such a fine, manly chest.

Old Arthur fixed his beady eye on me. “And what’s the point of that, then? You can’t go sellin’ natural born people. It’s a sin.”

“No, but you can put them to work,” Miss Pandora jumped in, sprightly like.

“And won’t it be grand, knowing as how you’ve fooled ‘em all?” I added, shoving both hands behind my back so’s he wouldn’t see I’d crossed my fingers.

Old Arthur stroked his stubble. “Don’t need no more tinkerers, not here we don’t, and who’d respect a man in our trade as took on a girl apprentice?” He gave me the eye at that, and I got all cold and hot at once.

“I’ve got other talents,” Miss Pandora says, pert as you please.

“I ain’t denying that, girl, but I’m a respectable tradesman.”

“I can dance. And I can sing.” Then she stilled, and her smile faltered, and she shot me a look as if to say, At least, I used to be able to.

Lord love the curmudgeonly bastard, but Arthur wasn’t having none of that. “Now then, now then. No doubting young Hodgkins here. Trained him up meself, I did. So let’s hear you.”

I could have kissed the old git, right on his whiskers, yellow with baccy as they were. And then I couldn’t do nothing but stare, mouth hanging open like its hinges were broke, as Miss Pandora let out a pure, low note that hit me right where I lived. Slowly, so slowly I almost couldn’t tell it was happening, her voice rose, until it soared like a nightingale old Arthur had in for fixing the first month I was ‘prenticed. He told me it was based on a real bird, but I ain’t never seen one, nor heard it neither, so you’ll have to take his word on that.

That mechanical nightingale gave the sweetest song I’d ever heard, back then, but listening to Miss Pandora now made it sound like the croaking of an old crow what’s been picking at a dead rat in the gutter. Miss Pandora’s voice was music itself, and there weren’t nothing in the world that weren’t a pale imitation.

And then she stopped singing, and laid a hand on her throat, and I swear her eyes was shining as if they was full of tears, and she looked at me. “Did you do that? Because I’ve never sounded like that before. You must truly be a master of your craft.”

Old Arthur puffed out his chest. “Taught the lad all he knows. And I don’t mind saying, he’s coming close to equalling his old gaffer, ain’tcha, lad?” He cuffed me on the shoulder, and his eyes were moist and all, so I bit back the comment about him being a windbag and a sot who’d not done a full day’s work since the moment I’d grasped which end of a screwdriver was which.

“So we’re going to keep her, Mr Tunstall?” I said, hopeful like. “Get her onto the stage?”

Arthur nodded. “And she can sing for our supper. I like it. I like it. When a man gets to my advanced age”—for he’d never see forty again—”he likes to know as he’ll have a reliable form of income for when he’s in his dotage, and this young lady—”

“Miss Pandora Piper,” I puts in, and she smiles at me, like it’s the best name she ever had.

“—looks set to be the comfort of my old age. Not in any indecorous sense, mind,” he added quickly, no doubt seeing our widened eyes. “I’m a man of morals.”

And flexible ones they are and all, I thought but didn’t say.

“I’m glad to hear it, Mr Tunstall,” Miss Pandora says, all gracious like, and bobs a fine curtsey. “And I promise I shan’t let you down.”

Old Arthur’s face got redder, and he turned away, muttering, Naow, naow.

I put on my best coat, the one without the grease stains, borrowed a bowler from my old dad, and took Miss Pandora straight round to the Criterion. The manager sniffed, but let her step up on the stage, and she trod them boards like she was born to it, her figure poised and graceful like one of them Greek statues and the limelight catching the perfection of her skin. Her hair glowed like a halo, putting the golden curlicues on the fittings to shame, and her violet eyes flashed, richer than the velvet stage curtains.

Then she opened her mouth, and a pure, clear note rang out, filling the theatre all the way up to the gods. The manager’s eyes lit up and his jaw dropped open, as if preparing to catch all the coins that’d surely fly his way once he got a performer like her on the bill.

Miss Pandora carried on singing, a heart-breaking ballad about roses and a lost love. The sound of hammering and the whistles of the stage-hands faded and stopped, until all the men were standing still, staring wide-eyed at the stage, more than one of them with a tear in his jaded eye. The girls from the chorus, who’d been shuffling and gossiping in their sequins and their feathers as they waited to practice their dance, hugged each other. And I grabbed hold of a pillar for support, my knees turned to water and my heart fit to burst, because it felt as how she was singing just for me.

At the end of the last verse, the final note rang in our ears and then faded away, to leave a hush so profound and reverent it didn’t seem as how anyone would ever dare to make a sound again.

Blow me if Miss Pandora doesn’t launch straight into another song, a jaunty one this time, all about a girl what’s gone farther than she ought. Tears turned to smiles, and I spied a bearded old gent with his hands full of sheet music, shaking his head and muttering, like a prayer of thanksgiving, “Perfect pitch! Perfect pitch!”

When she finished this time, there was such a thunder of applause you’d have thought the world was ending. We was all still clapping when the manager staggered forward, right to the edge of the stage, and looked Miss Pandora in the eye as if she was his long-lost daughter, turned up on his doorstep carrying a golden goose in one hand and the keys to a distillery in the other. “You’re hired,” he croaked. “Starting tonight.”

“But you haven’t seen me dance yet,” Miss Pandora protested.

“With a voice like that, coming out of that face? I don’t give a monkey’s if you can dance or if you stomp round like an elephant what’s got two wooden legs and an ague. You’re hired.”

I grinned so wide my ears ached, and offered Miss Pandora my arm for the walk back to Tunstall’s. And didn’t we get a few stares, promenading around the streets, her looking like a society miss what’s run off from her mother and picked up a bit of rough?

Old Arthur, Lord love him, had showed his confidence in our success by celebrating early, and was passed out in his chair by the fire, the gin bottle still dangling from limp fingers. I rescued it, put up the fire guard so’s he wouldn’t go up like a Roman candle should sparks fall on the rug, and led Miss Pandora upstairs.

“We’ll clear out a room for you,” I said. “There’s one next to mine that’s full of bits and bobs and gewgaws, but we can shift them easy, and then I’ll find you bed linen.”

“Am I not to sleep in the workshop, then?” She sounded surprised, as though she’d taken if for granted that the workbench was her bed.

I raised a brow. “A fine lady like you? Miss Pandora, the very idea!”

She stepped closer. “And am I not to sleep with you? For we both know I’m not really a fine lady, but you, my dear Hodgkins, are the truest gentleman I’ve ever met.”

I stepped back, and nearly fell downstairs. “M-miss Pandora? There’s something you don’t know about me. I ain’t a man.”

“No? I know your body is female, for my eyesight is quite extraordinarily fine, for which I thank you. But I did wonder if perhaps you’d been made…not quite to your liking? That perhaps Mother Nature had intended you for a man, but by some mischance had only the parts for a woman in her workshop?”

I shook my head. “I know there’s some like that, but I ain’t never felt wrong in my body, and if it weren’t that no one would trust a woman to be a tinkerer, I’d own up to being a girl all right.” I frowned. “Well, that and the trousers. I never did get on with petticoats—too apt to get caught in the gears.”

“I can see they would be a hazard in your profession. But does Mr Tunstall know?”

“That I’m a lass, not a lad?” I pursed my lips and shook my head. “I never know what that old bugger knows and what he don’t, nor what he’s guessed and what he’s told himself so often he thinks it’s true. But I reckon if I don’t make it so he has to know, then he’ll be happy in his ignorance and no harm done.”

“And your…family?”

“Mum’s got Lily to talk fripperies with. And Dad says he don’t care if I’m a man or a woman or something in between, a proper profession like tinkering ain’t nothing to be sniffed at.”

“Then I’m glad. And I’m glad, too, you don’t feel wrong in your body. Because”—and here she looked to her toes, darting out from beneath her petticoats—”I happen to be of the opinion that you are quite perfectly crafted, and I should hate for us to disagree on anything.”

Now I was looking at her toes, them being prettier than my own, and my face was hot like I’d been soldering with a mouth-blown lamp all day. “I ain’t nothing special. ‘Sides, you ain’t never seen me without my clothes.”

Miss Pandora took my broad, rough hands in her dainty white ones. “Now you come to mention it, that doesn’t seem fair. After all, you’ve seen me without clothes.”

Without skin, neither, and a prettier set of pistons and gears I’d wager has never graced this earth. Lord, I worshipped the very ground she trod upon. “Would you want to see me?”

“I would. Very much, dear Hodgkins.”

“Harry,” I croaked. “My given name’s Harriet, but call me Harry.”

“Harry. I think it’s the loveliest of names.” As God is my witness, when she said it, all gentle and low, you’d have believed it to be true. Then she kissed me, my hot face in her cool hands.

Her lips were soft, as I’d fashioned them to be, and eager, as I’d never dared to hope for. She pushed at my coat, slipping it from my shoulders, and I let it fall upon the floorboards as we worked at each other’s’ fastenings.

I was unclothed faster than she was, on account of men’s clothes consisting of vastly fewer layers and a deal less buttons. My fingers trembled as I unlaced her stays—not that she needed any such thing with her trim figure, but ‘twouldn’t be decent for her to go without—and I laid a kiss upon her bare white shoulder to cover my confusion.

“So gentle,” she breathed, standing there in her chemise like a spirit of the city or a goddess of the forge, and Lord, I wanted to take my hammer to all who’d been rough with her in the past, who’d treated her as less than a person.

Miss Pandora smiled as she ran her hands over my breasts, newly freed and still reddened from their bindings. Her cool touch made my n*****s harden and sent a jolt of animal galvanism to my very core. “The left, I fancy, is larger, is it not?”

“It is.” My voice trembled, and I ached for her to touch me all over, inside and out. To know me, as I knew her.

“Such perfect imperfection.”

I almost wept, then, because she understood. She understood.