Hardened

F*ck Hospitals

A f*cking Iv, no I escaped it was not a dream. No. NO! No! I was home, I saw Harven, I felt the pain of falling on my a$$. I know it was real and I escaped. Then I  heard beep-beep-beep, it sounds like that machine in hospitals.  I hear people talking and saying my name. I feel warm around my hand.  I was relaxed. Then someone put heavy something on me and it started to crawl. I slowly open my eyes to see Harlin on my chest crawling toward me. She gets close to my face putting her hand on my face holding it.  I turn my head and kiss her hand, then she moved her hand back and slap me hard in the face. It hurt but at the same time it didn't hurt, it kind of stung without much pain it was lightly there.  I shouted " What the fu. . .um ...fudge?" and looked around to see if anyone was in the room. I see Harven in the corner holding in a laugh, so I lift  Harlin toward him, and he came to get her. After she left I turn my head toward the window and closed my eyes. Mad that Harlin hit me,  I pull the cover closer to me thinking about it.

I asked Harven " Why did you put her on me?"  

Harven simply answered "Because she reached for you" and shrug his shoulder. 

 I said, "Ugh, your  so annoying." 

 "Wow, you really know how to hurt my feels," Harven said sarcastically place his hand over his heart while holding Harven in the other arm. 

I mumble "As$hole." 

Harven said, " I heard that." 

I respond "And? " 

He said, "And there a child present." 

" Really, dad swears like a sailor, we have learned so many cuss words from him," I respond.

"Ughh,  you and fallen angel(Harlin) are so annoying."

Harven responds sadly, "Uhhhh...Dad doesn't cuss anymore... but nice nickname for Harlin."

 " ... uh. Can you leave I'm still tired." my voice meek whisper.

He walks over and kisses my forehead, "get some rest."  

Harlin squirm in Harlin's arms," You want a kiss, too?" He kisses her forehead making a muah sound.   

I smiled and he walks out the door.

I sighed and let out a breath. I sit up and swing my legs over the bed, my feet touching the ground. I  walk over to the window and I pull it open. I heard a sound as the window slide,  I am pretty sure windows in hospitals are not supposed to open.  I instantly felt worse than before I did. I sit on the window sill and taking in the fresh air. I sat there thinking then I suddenly got this thought to myself why not escaped?  I shook my head of that thought because it would ruin my family. Think about it they just got you back, then you went miss again. It same as all the others talks. All I wanted to do was die, even before I was kidn*pped. I scoff at how thought I would be healed by now, but I am worse. I was supposed to be in my last year of college, I was a new me, a better me.  I laugh, at my plan, my trauma.  

Feeling too much, I stopped thinking about what the future was to be supposed, the past, and just focused on the view. Looking for I don't know, something new. While searching I leaned forward unconsciously. I heard a growl. Someone was watching me, I couldn't help but think about that place, all the screams, growls, all the pain. I got off the window sill and slammed the window shut.  I shout "HARVEN!" Harven came rushing, looking around the room. Only to see me standing in front of the window. He rushes toward me giving me a hug, and wiping away tears, I didn't know I shed. 

He whispers in my ear" It going to be okay, I'm here," rubbing my back. I just sob in his embrace, holding on to him for dear life.