TRAIN THE GIRL CHILD

FIVE DAYS OF HEART BREAK

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I know we already said our goodbyes but sometimes my heart aches for you. It's painful to know that you lost that person who knew your depths, someone who understood your rage and still loved you anyway. How I wish it was as easy for me to move on from us as it was for you. The universe has a funny way of breaking your heart, sometimes it sends you everything you've ever wanted but just for temporary days. Sometimes all I think about is you, and if you ever stumble upon this, I hope you're happy with whoever you're with. I hope your heart is full, your sadness is replaced by joy. I hope the person knows how to handle your feelings and hold you better than I used to do. I hope that person makes you the happiest in ways I couldn't do.

They say, I should stop mentioning your name, that I should stop thinking of you but your memories hit hard when I see the sky in beautiful colours, when the sun hits my skin, when the wind brushes on my cheeks. How can I forget the way your kisses felt, how can I forget the way I used to hold on to you while we slept, how can I forget everything we ever did/planned for us. I will always remember how you made me feel and for that I'll always love you. But it won't be the kind of love that makes you crazy and yearn for someone to love you back. This time I'll love you through my prayers, I'l love you even when I know we don't belong on the same page. I'll love you enough to let you go. I'll love you enough to be happy for you even when your happiness is with someone else.

Wherever you are, I will always wish you well. I think a part of me will always be with you and that's okay.