Sugar Love | 18+

the mistake

I’m the king of the world… is what I’m feeling right now.

I’ve only drunk a few shots and maaaaan, I am stoked.

Dumadagundong ang paligid dahil sa musika sa loob ng bar. It’s so crowded in here. But I don’t mind. The music is good, my life is f*****g awesome and I got my girls with me, what more can I ask for?

Oh, and SCHOOL IS OUT!

End of the school year celebration namin ito. WALA KAMING BAGSAK, and this bad b***h is graduating next year! Syempre magpaparty talaga kami. Pambawi naman sa lahat ng stress, dugo at pawis na inilaan namin para sa engineering school.

Sa mga kilos ko ngayon, hindi mo aakalain na napakaistrikto ng pamilya ko.

“I’M THE KING OF THE WOOOOORLD!” sigaw ko at sabay hiyaw naman ng mga kasama ko. No thoughts, just vibes.

At dahil nga istrikto ang mga magulang ko, hindi ako pinapayagan sa mga ganitong party-party. They think I’m still a baby to be even going out with my friends even though I’m twenty f*****g years old already. Kaya sinusulit ko na ito.

Besides, when school starts again, I’ll never be able go out like this again. Baka sa graduation ko pa maranasan ang ganito uli. Or maybe baka kapag nakamove out na ako at may trabaho na. And goddamn! That’s too far into the future! Life will pass me by kapag hindi ko susubukan ang mga ganito ngayon!

I’ve been drinking way too much vodka now. I mean, nakakainom naman ako noon (though patago) pero I’m usually very cautious kasi I don’t wanna be curing a hangover the next day (syempre ayaw ko ring mahuli!) pero b***h! Today is my day and I’m gonna get f*****g WASTED!

Everyone’s dancing, everyone’s drinking. Everyone’s talking to people they don’t really know, I feel like my age. THIS IS WHAT LIFE SHOULD BE LIKE! Hindi iyong bente pa lang ako e sobrang pagod na ko!

“Kaaaaaaat,” napatingin ako sa tawag sa akin ng kaibigan ko. “Come’re!”

By the looks of it, Shen’s already drunk. Lumapit ako sa kanya at napansin agad ang katabi nya.

And boy oh boy. Hallelujah, praise the Lord. IS THAT WHO I THINK IT IS?

Whiskey-coloured almond eyes that look you straight to your soul. That boyish look that contradicts his not-so-boyish body? Good Lord.

“This is Rhys Castillo,” pakilala ni Shenna sa akin. Rhys is very tall and built like an Olympic swimmer. Broad shoulders, slim waist and man, those thighs could choke a bear. He’s wearing a white shirt and dark denim jeans. Nakaakbay sya sa kaibigan ko at saka ko narealize, welp…..

BUT THEN IS HE HERE WITH HIS PRETENTIOUS GROUP OF FRIENDS?

I mean, they’re obnoxious pero man, they are HOT AF. I’ve heard so much stories about them and I can’t believe I’m meeting them here. Kung hindi lang strict and parents ko ay dadalas ako sa mga ganito para naman makabingwit ako ng mayaman at gwapong boyfriend. But then again, these assholes don’t really “date” or so I’ve heard.

Nginitian ko sya at saka nag-abot ng kamay. “I’m Kat Salvatorre.”

Pero bago nya pa matanggap ang kamay ko, may humawak na doon.

“I’m Albrecht Sigrid.”

I almost froze. Aba aba, jackpot.

Nginitian ko na lamang sya at nagkunyaring hindi interesado. Hindi ba kasi’t ganoon daw dapat para maging interesado sayo? I’m usually more straight-forward than that but for today, why not?

Albrecht unlike Rhys has a lot more muscles on him. Siguro ay mas matangkad sila sa six feet. Hanggang sa baba lang ako ni Albrecht kahit pa nakaboots ako na may heels na nasa three inches ata. I bit my lip while taking a good look at him. He’s looking at me playfully with his ash-colored eyes.

I smirked at him and mirrored his aura. “Nice meeting you, pero balik na ko sa table namin, dumating na kasi ang ibang friends namin e.” At kumaway na ako, not even waiting for his answer, saka umalis.

Di naman dumating ang friends namin e. I’m just trying the push-pull thingy one of my friends told me about. Ni hindi ko nga kilala mga nasa table namin e.

So dito sa bar na ito pala tumatambay ang mga iyon. Kung sabagay, katatapos lang din ng school year ng Isengard University, iyong school nila. It’s one of the big four universities here in the metro, namely Isengard University, Leviathan Academy for the Arts, Colegio del Talisman de Casteria and my school, Magnus Institute of Technology, the absolute best engineering school in the country.

The guys I just met, mga anak mayayaman ‘yon. Iyong tipo ng heredero ng mga kompanya nila and I’m not even exaggerating. They’re the real deal. Hindi ‘yung tipo ng ‘rIcH kID’ na feeling lang. They’re sons of billion-peso company owners. Big deal talaga sila. Bukod sa mayaman e gwapo pa. I’m not a gold digger but it would be really nice if one of them falls for me. Teehee~

Hay. I wish I could be here whenever I want. But I can’t.

So I just started downing shots again. This is not the time for an existential crisis, Kat!

Hindi sa pag-aano pero kanina ko pa ‘to nafifeel. May nakatitig sa akin. You know that feeling like someone’s drilling holes into your body with their eyes?

I mean, not that I’m surprised someone would pay attention to me right now. Maayos itsura ko ngayon, not the usual oversized shirt, skinny jeans and combat boots that I usually wear to school. Duh, nagmake up kaya ako. And I’m wearing night out clothes kaya mukha akong tao ngayon. See even rich guys approached me nga e. Naduling sila.

I looked around to search for the one who’s burning holes on my back. My eyes caught a couple of people staring at me. But my eyes focused on someone. And damn.

I’m just gonna say it right away. I’m queer as f**k. I don’t have a real preference kasi I’m honestly just open for possibilities. I usually identify as pansexual pero minsan hindi ko alam kung baka bi ako or what. So I just say I’m queer. If you’re hot and my type, then I’d definitely want you.

And hmm hmm hmm, this girl staring at me right now, man, I like her. I smiled suggestively at her, and that became her cue to approach me.

She introduced herself, we talked, we flirted and the action began.

“I’m new to this,” panguna ko, because it’s true naman. Although, this isn’t my first kiss naman so I have a bit of experience. And god do I really need to wash away the memories of that awful experience with new ones!

She’s a heck of a lot taller than me. Well, maliit naman kasi talaga ako. And I thought that she’s definitely a top. I don’t really have experience with girls pero I’m pretty sure I’m a switch.

“I can tell.”I blushed at the sensuality of her voice. Damn.

Unti-unti nyang nilapit ang mukha nya sa akin at hinalikan nya na ako. It was nice and gentle. More lips, less tongue.

I opened my eyes a bit kasi parang may nanunuod and true enough when I looked on my left, someone’s watching.

It was Albrecht. He licked his lips and I felt more… pleasure? I guess I need to add voyeurism to the list now.

Relax, just enjoy your night.

I smirked and listen to my inner goddess. I deepened the kiss with the girl and she started moaning while I kept my eyes on Albrecht as if to ask if he’s enjoying it.

Namungay ang mga mata nya, and it’s confirmed. I felt the rush, I felt power. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the kiss.

The girl I was kissing was out of breath when I broke away. She squeezed my waist and smirked. We talked a bit, and she slowly went away.

I downed another shot.

“OH MY GOD, KAAAT!” halos mabingi ako nang tilian ako ni Shenna sa tainga. “Ang hot noooon! Sabi ko na maeenjoy mo ‘yung ganito e,” sya kasi itong nagpumilit sa akin na sumama.

Natawa ako doon. “Perv mo, nanunuod ka huh?” biro ko.

“Ay girl, di ako interesado. I just saw kasi napansin namin ‘yung titig ni Albrecht sayo.” I shook my head slowly, trying to look around for him.

Kinikilig sya. Lasing na nga.

“So ano? Mambibiktima ka pa ba?” Natawa ako doon.

Nang napansin ko ang paglapit ni Albrecht sa amin, I said, “Maybe.” She laughed at that.

“Heyyy,” he’s giving me his evil smile. Man, I know what you want. He’s so gwapo under all the fancy neon lights.

Kaya ibinalik ko sa kanya ang “Heyyy” nya sabay paghawak sa braso nya dahil nagkunwari akong naaout balance. This is what they call ‘para-paraan,’ I think.

“Dance with me?” He asked me while wrapping his arms on my body.

Aayaw pa ba ko? Choosy pa ko? Syempre hindi no! Kapag natipuhan ako nito edi instant sugar daddy, di ba? Joke. (Not really.) He’s the same age as us, I think. Hindi naman talaga ganoon ang mga tipo ko pero dahil nga mayaman e hindi naman na ako tatanggi. A girl has needs.

We danced and we ended up making out. I chickened out a little when his hands started roaming all over my body. Medyo natigilan ako doon dahil sa tingin ko ay hindi pa rin ako ready na humigit muli sa first base.

“What? New target?” Napasabi sya nang napansin nyang may iba akong tinitingnan. He sounded disappointed. And I smirked at that.

“What? Bawal ba?” I said.

He chuckled. “Damn. Didn’t expect you to be a man-eater, baby.”

I smirked. “Well, I wouldn’t expect you to be the possessive type.” I raised my brow. “So, we done?”

He groaned and placed his face on my exposed neck. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang hininga nya sa tainga ko. “Can I meet you some other time?”

I laughed out loud. “Sorry, babe, this is a one-time thing e. Walang encore.” I winked and went away. Though kung ipapahanap nya ang number ko or i-DM nya ko sa IG, papansinin ko rin naman sya. I hope that’s enough para makascore sa kanya.

I laughed evilly as I went back to my friends. We drank some more, met more people,. Danced some more, ground on strangers until I was tired as f**k and needed to go to the loo.

After that, medyo nahimasmasan ako at naibalik medyo ang katinuan. I looked in the mirror and saw the wild girl on the reflection. I smiled as I look at her, thinking to myself, so that’s me when I’m being true to myself.

It’s not everyday that you can just let go of your inhibitions. Sa mga kasama ko ngayon, I know they’re my friends, pero alam ko din na after nito, baka mag-iba ang tingin nila sa akin. Sa dami ba naman na nakamake out ko ngayon. Sa dami ng mga kaschoolmates namin na nandito at nakakakilala sa akin, alam kong meron sa kanilang magsasabing ang trashy ko. Na kung sino sino lang ang hinahalikan ko.

Pero alam mo ‘yon, what does it matter? I’m happy, I feel pretty today, they wanna flirt with me, I want to make out with them, ano naman?

Also it’s not everyday that I get to explore my own sexuality! I wish I have more freedom to be who I actually am.

When I went out again, I started dancing again. I danced until I felt satisfied. Edi i-judge nila ko if they want, wala naman akong magagawa. They can watch me all they want.

I was making out with some foreigner when I met familiar eyes again. It wasn’t Albrecht. Nakamove on na iyon siguro at baka may inuwi na rin syang iba.

This man has been watching me since kanina pa. He’s looking lazily at me like I’m a movie he’d seen a thousand times. That did not sit well with me.

He’s wearing a bluish-black suit, his dress shirt opened until the third button, showing a bit of his pecs and man, I’d be lying if I say that he’s not my type. His tanned skin looked golden, and his eyes are the colour of fiery embers. He clenched his jaw when I didn’t move my eyes away from him. He looked like he’s in his late 20s already or early 30s.

And at that moment I felt guilty. I don’t know why.

Tinigilan ko ang paghalik sa foreigner na kasama ko at itinuloy ang pagsayaw.

UGH! Bakit ba ako papaapekto? Ano naman kung nakita nya kong nakatitig sa kanya? Why would I feel guilty when I feel so good? There’s nothing wrong with enjoying yourself! I mean, surely iyon din ang pinunta nya dito!

When I looked his way again, he’s still staring. Staring is rude kaya. His lips slowly formed a menacing smile, chills crept on me.

What is this man?

He licked his lips sensually. I felt my neck warm up a little. The warmth spread through my whole body and especially on one part of it.

Ah, so you wanna play this game, huh? Inikot ko ang mata ko sa kanya at nang nagsimula ang panibagong tugtog, sinabayan ko iyon ng sayaw. I started doing something I never had confidence to do. Sexy dance.

I grabbed one of my friends and ground my ass on her while maintaining eye contact with the man. Sumama pa sa pagsayaw namin ang iba pang kasamang nagpunta. I’m having the time of my life but it still feels incomplete.

Bumalik sa parang bored and ekspresyon noong lalaki. Ang choosy naman. Akala ko lalapitan na ako. Bakit di nya ako lapitan?

I rolled my eyes again and danced some more. He smirked.

So I mouthed to him, “Come here, daddy.”

His demeanour suddenly changed and his eyes looked like the eyes of a predator before hunting its prey. I smirked. He clenched his jaw, stood up and started walking towards me.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang narealize kung anong nangyayari sa mundo.

This man….. so men his age really like that?

“Oh my god, Kat, ang gwapo!” Shenna exclaimed.

“s**t s**t, papalapit sayo!” tili naman ni Karylle samantalang ako, pakurap-kurap pa rin.

I did not see this coming.

Nang malapit na sya sa akin ay tumalikod ako at sinubukang umalis kahit na tinatawag ng mga kaibigan. Nang maramdaman ko ang pagpulupot ng makakapal na braso sa akin. Ramdam ko ang hininga nya sa tainga ko at ang labi nya sa malapit sa batok ko. Mabilis na mabilis ang t***k ng puso ko at namumula ako na parang walang bukas.

“So Kat, huh?” Hinigit nya ako papalapit sa kanya hanggang tumama ang likod ko sa dibdib nya.

Doon ko rin naramadaman ang kung anong tumutusok sa likod ko. s**t. Oh my god. Now I’m regretting that I chickened out. The warmth I felt earlier intensified as he pushed himself on me. f**k!

“You’re such a tease, aren’t you? Kissing that guy while looking at me? Dancing like that for me? Calling me over like that? You need to take responsibility for your actions, little girl,” his voice is so deep and husky that it simultaneously makes me calm and so f*****g horny!

I almost melted when I heard him say “little girl.”

Nakahanap ka ng katapat mo, ‘no?

“Hm, I didn’t really expect you to approach me.” I almost can’t recognize my voice. It was girly and sensual. Anong nangyayari sa akin?

“Hmm. Say, did you call everyone you made out with, daddy? You don’t know the power of your words, do you?” I gasped when his hand moved somewhere below my boobs. I’m wearing a crop too and my heightened senses just can’t let that go.

“Ikaw lang ang tinawag kong ganoon,” pag-uumpisa kong magpaliwanag na parang bata.

“You’re so innocent that you don’t know the effect of that, huh?” He asked as if

Kinagat ko ang labi ko dahil nag-uumpisa na akong mainis. “Syempre, I know,” I pushed my butt on his hard on and as he groaned I said, “Kaya ko nga ginawa, di ba?”

“Then, why did you run away from me, huh?” He ground his hard-on on me like a dog in heat. f**k. Hindi ako makapagconcentrate. My n*****s start to harden and I can feel the wetness down under. “You’re just gonna leave after teasing me like that, right, Kat?”

God, he’s so hot. Napaliyad ako sa kanya. “Hmm.”

My brain isn’t functioning anymore. I can’t even string a straight sentence with sense anymore. God! I just want him!

“When I turn you around, you’re gonna be a good little girl and apologize to me and you’re gonna make it up to me, won’t you, baby?” He started stroking my bare waist up and down.

“Yes.” I nodded.

“Yes, what? Let me hear you say it,” he kissed my neck.

Oh my god. He’s not asking me to say that, is he?

“Yes, daddy,” I whispered.

He moaned. “Good girl. Now turn around for me.” I obeyed and as soon as I turned around, he attacked my mouth with hungry kisses.

His tongue dominated every inch of my mouth. My tongue trying to fight his dominance but f**k, he feels so good. I moaned as he sucked my tongue. My hand on his arms tightened as he licks my lip and my knees start to give out as he deepens the kiss.

I feel like I would melt right there and then. My hands wandered from his chest to his hair to his jaw down to his neck to his abs and stopped as my hand clutched on his belt.

He groaned and started to move his hand to places I wanted to feel them. My breasts, my butt and everywhere else.

I was out of breath when he stopped kissing me.

“Good little girl.” I bit my lip.