Always

Chapter Seventeen: Words

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   Have you ever wondered what you say could hurt the other person, no matter how much you sound like? 

   I have a way of saying things in the wrong tone without meaning to, making me fully realize afterwards for what I’ve done. But that’s exactly what I just did. And I hate myself for sounding so heartless. 

   I look back to my mom, seeing the hurt in her eyes. “I didn’t mean to say that the way I did…”

   But I knew it was a lie. In a way I wanted to sound cruel, just not that heartless. 

   “Why would you ever say something like that to me? I’m your mother.” 

   “I know you are.” 

   “Then why say something like that?” 

   I don’t say a word. I ball my hands up into fists, trying not to cry. I have my own right to say how I feel. I’m almost eighteen, I’m not that far away from getting away from this place. Only...I sigh. 

   “I just want to leave.” 

   “But you-.” 

   “Right now.” I grab my car keys off the kitchen counter, then open the front door without a glance back towards my mom. I fumble with the keys as I try to put them in, feeling tears burn my eyes. 

   I can’t cry. I just can’t. 

   I finally get my car running, through blurry eyes I drive away from my house. And the one true best friend that I’ve ever had, and just probably ended this friendship all over again with the same exact words that ruined everything.

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