Always You

Present day

Episode 1

"OK! OK! I'll go! I promise!" I answered my two girl bestfriends who has been pestering me about our high school reunion. I was so firm at not going as soon as I heard my ex has confirmed he'll be there too. It will just create drama.

I am currently in an open relationship as John and I call it, but we both know that he is seriously committed to me right now. He's a man too good to be true. He understands why I still don't want to commit to a relationship but has been patiently waiting for more than 2 years now.

"That's our baby! No need to worry about Lucas going there! We knew he's the reason you don't wanna go!", Pia said with teasing eyes.

"Stop it Pia!", said Samantha. "We are just going to have fun! Alright?! We'll have beers and bonfire under the stars! Drink until we drop and sleep in the sand! Just like old times! Ok? No more teasing!"

"I'd really love that, I just hope our girl, Isadora, can keep it in her pants!" Pia laughing hardly. "You all seen Lucas in f*******: right? He's become hotter, way waaaay hotter than high school! We should keep an eye on you, Issa!," Pia continued teasing.

"I'm a grow up now, Pia!" Issa rebutted but I can't even hide my smile as I remember Lucas. He has always been charming and sexy. I waived my thoughts as I don't want to go back to the old times. I already decided to be done with him. "Ok I got to go now, I need to finish my presentation so I can actually go to the reunion this weekend, alright?! See you on weekend ladies!", waving my hand and sending virtual kisses to my two bestfriends. They are just the perfect balance of crazy and rational. I love them to bones! We were classmates in high school and became inseparable bestfriends since then.

"Okay, see you on first Saturday of March ladies! Wohoo! ", Pia shouted as I put down the call.

It's Wednesday night, I need to finish my presentation for Friday and I'm not even done with research yet. I currently work as an sales analyst which foresees and analyzes the sales movements of our company.

John comes to my apartment and stays in every Thursday night thru Saturdays, so I really need to double my time.

The day at the office passed by too fast, it's already 6pm.

My phone rang and saw it's John.

"Hi baby! I just finished, are you near?" I still get butterflies every time he picks me up. But right now, I'm not so sure if it's butterflies or anxiety that's messing up my stomach. I've been up all night not just because of my presentation but was thinking ways how to tell John that I'll be seeing Lucas during the weekend, that I can't just bail out as I already promised Pia and Sam that I'll be there.

"Hi babe! I'm almost there, see you at the lobby". I can feel John is smiling from the way he said it. Which made me more anxious.

I logged out and hurriedly went to the elevator. I waited at the lobby for only 5minutes and saw John's car approaching.

"Hi baby, I missed you!" John hugged me and pecked me a kiss on my cheek as soon as I entered the car.

"I missed you, too, babe! Now what are we getting for dinner? I'm so famished and I don't want to decide what to eat tonight!", I told John.

"You always say that every Thursday, don't you?", John laughed. "I actually ordered Chinese on my way here. They're going to leave it at the lobby. I hope that's ok with you?"

"You can never go wrong with Chinese!" I answered.

We arrived at my apartment and had our dinner. We freshened up and got ready to watch a movie. I had some wine and beer set in the table and some chips.

I saw John coming out from the bedroom with only his pajamas on. He's so edible! Sometimes, I question myself, do I really like John for the person he is, or do I really like him because he keeps me happy in bed?

I did question myself with it many times but even until now I'm not so sure of the answer, but what I only know is I appreciate everything he does for me.

He's a medium tan, six foot and 4 inches tall. He's got the six-pack abs every woman drools over and muscle enough to make you feel safe and protected. Don't even get me started on what he got down there. I'd bet you'll never sleep a night without feeling and tasting it.

John came to me kissing me on my lips, to my ears and to my neck. Every touch he made just made me shiver and hot. I got goosebumps and feeling his abs I easily got wet, he knows what to do to put me on to the game. He cupped my breasts with his hands and pushed me to the wall. Oh God, how can I resist this?

I grabbed his hair and let out a sigh. I feel John smirked and moved his lips from my neck to my lips. He's moving so slowly again to my neck and now his mouth and tongue is toying my n****e. I just feel like I'll c*m right there and then when he stopped.

"Not yet", John whispered to my ears. I was only wearing his old t-shirt without a bra on and only short short. He slid his hand to in between my legs and smiled. "I knew it, you weren't wearing any. Why didn't you wear your undies? Did you do it on purpose, leaving it in the bed to give me a hint?"

I smirked, "glad you caught on so fast. I did! Now can we finish this? Oh my God, I'm so hot, please be rough and hard with me tonight. Forget the foreplay and give it to me now, babe."

"Okay baby", that's all he responded and started kissing me again.

I broke off the kiss and pushed John's pajama down and held his manhood and gave him a quick blow. Before standing up I took off my shorts and my loose t-shirt. John pushed me back to the wall, holding my two legs, he entered his manhood and banged me against the wall. He's so big, I needed a minute to adjust. He kissed my neck and then my ears and now I'm floating in heaven. He started pumping, roughly and hardly I just wanted to cry and shout in pleasure. He's so big I feel like I can't take it but I don't want him just stop. He's so good at what he does. He keeps on pumping, hard...until I had my release.

He then took me, holding my legs in the same position to the couch. He sat down with him still inside me. "I know you like controlling things, how about you pump for me babe." I really like it how he gets dirty when we're having s*x.

"Kiss my boobs babe, cup it and kiss it hard." I moaned as he did and I started driving and humping him. He pulled my hair back with his right hand while the other hand harassing and cupping my breast. I humped so hard and fast nearing to my second release. My legs are already shaking but John has to finish yet.

He made me bend over the couch and took the lead. He inserted his manhood, and I felt like I'm going to go again with one push. He's so big and hard!

"c*m with me baby, I'm almost there."

"Oh yes!" was all that I can answer. "Come on John, harder! Give it to me! Ahh! Ahhh!! Ohh..my...God! Push it! Harder! Ahhhh!"

I wanted him fully, I stopped him from pumping and I lied down, he hurriedly inserted his manhood inside me and I screamed for all the pleasure it all gave me.

"Oh my, give it to me! Haarrrder!!" John's pumping so fast and hard that we came together. We were both catching our breaths. John stayed on top of me and inside me for a few more minutes.

He kissed my temple before he got up, cleaned himself and came back with a hot towel. He wiped my face, neck, boobs and things. He gently caressed my womanhood while wiping the hot towel. He then started massaging my legs and my back. He's such a gift. A gift I like to have but struggling to love. Ever since we had our first hard f**k, he saw how sore and drained I was, starting then, he always does this every time we do it. He's a gentle guy, he has always been except for the times I want him rough in bed

This is what I always look up to every Thursday night, for 2 years now. Aside from the emotional support and all the care I receive from him, this must be one of the things I liked from him the most.

He comes and stays in, but we are not committed. We tell each other things, we are free to do all things outside our relationship but no one has really done it. I guess we were just contented with each other. And with the way things are.

"Ok, so you always do this, you keep staring at me when there's something on your mind. Spill it Issa" John commanded.

I did not realize what I have been doing. John is beautiful inside and out. He has this brown eyes and thick brows , pointed nose and fully defined jaw. He's just, handsome in all edges. And what makes him more beautiful is his kind soul. I surely wonder what is it that doesn't make me succumb to his goodness.

"Issa, come on, tell me" It's not gonna hurt me or anything.

It's as if he heard my mind. Or does he really know me this much? I really don't know where to start about the possibility of seeing Lucas on the weekend.

"Ok, so Sam has already told me, if that's what's you've been thinking. I'm ok. It won't hurt me you seeing Lucas but it does worry me, ok?" John blurted out.

"Sam told you?? And here I am overthinking how to....".

"She called me late last night and she said you might me bothered and go overthinking what to do or say again. I won't hide it. I'm a bit worried but I trust you, so I know we'll be okay." John smiled.

Lucas is one the main reason why I have been having a hard time to finally move on in this state of our relationship.

"I have nothing to say. I was just really worried you might say no or not talk to me after this. Thank you, John, for being so understanding", I hugged him tight.

"Ok so now that's settled, how about we watch our movie now?", John suggested.

"Actually, I just want to cuddle more. How about that?", I asked John with my puppy eyes!

John laughed, "Ok Isadora, but first, put some clothes on if you don't want me getting more of you tonight".

"But what if I want too?" I winked at John.

"I surely gonna punish you, you naughty one!"

He lifted me up in bridal style and put me to bed. He got his red neck tie, which he used earlier and tied my arms to the headboard. I have nothing on and I feel so naked in front of him. He spread my legs and kissed my right thigh. I was biting my lip out of anticipation, he slowly moved to between my thighs and devoured me. I let out a moan. He kissed my ears and slowly entered me. I moaned in pleasure calling out his name. We had s*x that night more intensely and passionately more than the other nights.

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It's Friday and I just finished my presentation and it's already 3pm. Everything was good except my co-worker Clarizze. I'm not really sure what happened in between but since last year's Christmas Party she has been so distant, and If I may say, angry at me? She was questioning almost everything that I presented, she did not even said a word when I asked the team before the presentation to management if there's anything I need to fix from my presentation.

I messaged John if we can have dinner in our favorite restaurant 2 blocks away from our office. I told him I'll just meet him there as I wanted to walk a bit. He agreed to meet me at 6:30pm.

I wanted to leave early so I got out at 5pm and did some last-minute shopping for our reunion, I thought a new bikini won't hurt. Me and my girls reserved a room for Sunday night and got a go signal from my boss to have a vacation leave for Monday.

I got everything I need, 2 new sets of sexy bikinis, sunscreen and cover ups and a new hat. And while walking my way to the restaurant, I keep on thinking what I'm gonna do, If I can just act naturally once I see Lucas. Hoping I won't stutter and smile confidently just like the normal days. I pushed this thoughts aside as I am being unfair to John.

As I was near the restaurant, I can see two familiar faces arguing by the door. I came to check and get a closer look to know what's happening. Just when I was a meter away. The girl slapped the guy and was crying.

"f**k you, John! That's for playing and f*****g me for your pleasure!" Clarizze shouted and slapped him again. "And this is me saying goodbye to his bullshit!"

"Oh wow", was all John responded.

Clarizze walked out and I was too shocked to even say a word. John has finally noticed me and can't even say anything. And so, is this how an open relationship should be like?

I thought honesty comes first before playing with others?

A tear poured from my eye and I can't believe what I just heard and witnessed.

"Let me explain", John held my arms.

"No, go away" was all I said and I walked out.

"Issa, please stop, hear me out." John was pleading.

I can't even take one more step. I was just shaking. Everything I believed about him is turning into a lie. He hugged me and told me to get in his car. As I don't have any more energy to fight, I rode his car and asked me to bring me home.

We arrived at the apartment got me some water and he started talking.

"It all started last Christmas, you remember you asked me to take you home first since you were wasted and instructed me to bring Clarizze to her apartment. I did not comeback and said I was too sleepy and tipsy to drive. The truth is, something happened to me and Clarizze. She just broke up with her boyfriend that time and I don't know, everything happened so fast."

"She got too clingy since then and it happened two more times. The new year's, and Valentine's when you went to spend it with Pia and Sam."

"I'm so sorry, Issa. You know how much I love you. I know we are in an open relationship,right? Please forgive me this once, I really wanted to end it with Clarizze it just happened you found out before I can even say a thing to you."

I was flabbergasted. "Wow, open relationship, huh? I thought it's these things that we should be open to our partner about? Did you enjoy Clarizze then? Wow, the thought of you and Clarizze......" I said.

"Was I not enough in bed? And it happened all three times?" tears flowed down from my eyes.

"Issa, I'm so sorry. I really am."

"I should start packing, I need to leave early tom." I cut him out.

As soon as I'm done packing, I went to bed and suppressed everything I'm feeling. I tried not to cry. But as soon as John started spooning me, I only felt anger. The betrayal and how he has lost all my trust. I fell asleep with all those things in my mind.

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It's 4am and John dropped me off at Pia's house. Pia and Samantha are already at the garage waiting for me when we arrived. John kissed me on my cheek and said his goobyes.

Us girls will be travelling to our location, which is 3hours up North with Pia's pick up truck. Our reunion starts at 1pm but since the owner of the resort is one of our batchmate's relatives, all those who booked rooms were allowed for early check-in.

We arrived at the resort in no time and checked-in ourselves. As we finally settled, we went to get some breakfast at the resort's cafe.

"So, I've been meaning to ask this in the car but since it was too early, I've let it slide. What happened to you and John?", Samantha asked.

I only looked at her and was not able to say a word.

"Come on Isadora, just say it! I'm as curious as hell!", Pia commented.

"It's just that, you know things happen!", I smiled forcefully.

"Damn it Issa, just spill it! We can tell it's serious!" Pia angrily said.

"Okay, so here's the thing. You all know Clarizze, right?"

"We do."

"John slept with her three times, I just found out yesterday."

"And?" Pia questioned. "You're in an open relationship. That's what I was always telling you, he can do that anytime and you can't do anythina about it."

"It's just that it hurt when he actually was plainly honest about it and did not even try to deny it."

"Oh, no no no Issa! Don't start! Don't even try start comparing him to Lucas."Samantha reminded Issa. "Of course he won't try deny anything. John knows of all things, it's what you hate most! Don't try making an issue about it. You know of all people, that's how Lucas made you a fool! Don't you ever forget that."

"I know, it's just that right now, I'm not sure If I'm angry or happy that I actually have a reason to finally let him go. I have always been guilty of not giving him my all. I do like him but not to the extent I can give all the love there is." I sighed.

"I even hate myself right now for thinking this way. I'm happy having John in my life but this happiness has always been tied with guilt. I don't even know if I make sense to you guys right now."

"You still haven't moved on from Lucas, we understand. But that doesn't mean you can get back with him."

A tear fell from my eyes, I'm not even sure what is it for.