“I can’t… I just can’t anymore.”
“Did I hurt you?”
Yes. “No. It’s…” I sniffled and tried to compose myself. My breath came out in pants, and I couldn’t rein in my tears. I pushed him away when he tried to wipe my face again and I sat up, looking down into those beautiful brown eyes of his.
I took a deep breath and shuddered as I released the air. This was all wrong, not how I’d ever pictured it, but it didn’t matter. I couldn’t hide anymore. “I love you, Edi.”
He smiled and tried to reach for me. I caught his hand and held it between mine. “I don’t mean it the way you think I do. I’m in love with you. Have been since I was thirteen.”
Edi opened his mouth to say something but I shook my head. I wasn’t done yet. “I can’t do this anymore. Have s*x with you and pretend I’m not dying insid
