My Secret Tears

Our First Chat

I couldn’t let go off the thought of the hug so I picked up my phone to call him. The phone rang at first he didn’t pick up the call, then I tried it again. Finally, he picked up the call. “hello, sorry who am I speaking with?” I flipped up to lay on my back, an horrified thought run through my mind, how come he didn’t have my number? Though he couldn’t wait to get my number then I had a second thought maybe it was too much to ask of. It’s me Jasmine, I thought I should give you a call since you didn’t wait to get my number and also to check on you, how are you doing tonight? Check on me he said laughing out loud like the word check on him sounds awful to him. Am cool you? For a while I paused to think of the reason why he laughed out so loud, was he hinting on me or trying to taunt me?

A cat in gloves catches no mice, I thought of letting him know how I feel thinking it was a foot in the door, but something stopped me. What’s making you laugh so loud? Was I sounding that funny? He cleared his throat. No I didn’t mean that just glad you call. The sound of that was comfortable but I was not, was he trying to make me feel comfortable or what? Then I fought all thought in my head. Is this your w******p number, let’s chat instead so I ended the call. Covered with sweat and my heart pounding so fast like it was going to burst, I held my chest trying to stop the fast beat of my heart then my phone sounded. My head flew in shock I was unable to catch my breath but what can I do? I sluggishly picked up my phone to check the message.

Wow, I was able to catch my breath. Johnson just Hi me on w******p then I turned to lay on my chest pulling my pillow towards my chest to feel more comfortable. Hello what’s up(? I replied immediately. The way you sounded lately and then ended the call kept me on suspense, I was feeling terrible holding unto the fact that you’re mad at me(. Now this sounds more comfortable and interesting, my excited mood got control of my rooms atmosphere so I screamed so loud out of excitement. Suddenly Abby and my Mum opened the door, echoed at the same time “what is the problem?” but when they saw me with my phone laughing Mum hissed and went back to her room but Abby stood by the door asking “ was that the alert?” like he was expecting one. What alert is that? Better leave now to your room. Then he also left hissing continuously. No, I wasn’t mad at you just feeling kind of shy while speaking over the phone(. Maybe it’s easy for me to talk to you like this.

Really, but sounded angry already then. I thought I pissed you off by my words. Seems I got more of him, I could have acted high and mighty but I couldn’t instead I was more humble than I use to be, smiling lavishly at my phone, I rolled off the pillow I kept under my chest laying on my back.

Happiness grips my heart, never thought I could get so much of his attention, then I asked for his picture without hesitating he sent one. Wow so cute, why are you sending just one don’t you have more? Sure I do……(. He sent five more, now your turn? Immediately I sent twenty one pictures of mine to him like I have already selected them earlier already.

Don’t know if I was the one operating my phone or someone else, wow they are so cute then he sent some smilies(((. Thank you so much dear I was overwhelmed with happiness seeing his compliment on my pictures. Goodnight dear, I want to go offline I need to go to bed already. Will you come play tennis tomorrow? Was the only question I could ask. Yes I will(. Now I can finally say a goodnight. Goodnight, lovely rest and make sure you dream about me, I typed hugging my pillow so tight. He went offline, but I was still online busy with my phone. Mawkish thought morass all over me, like a neophyte I became so serious like one who will sit for an exam the next morning.

Brushing up on our chat not missing a single text, I started imagining him saying every text physically. The way you sounded lately and then ended the call kept me on suspense, I was feeling terrible holding unto the fact that you’re mad at me be he said reaching out to me on the chair I was sitting feeling the soft breeze caress through me , every expression on his face could tell how sorry his heart is feeling at the moment. Feeling so happy and carried away by my thought, I slept off.