Her human Mate

4.Casey

4.Casey

"FUCK." I shouted as I hit the brick wall hard feeling the bones in my hand break.

"FUCK." I shouted rubbing my broken hand, "What are you doing Cass? No no no you are smarter than this." The worst thing was I honestly was smart, smart enough to know what I should do had to do. I saw the way this was going, and I knew I couldn't allow that but f**k If Noah didn't just rob me of my logic.

Fuck, I know people act all gooey over their mates but I had known people rejected them too. I mean in effect that's what I was doing right so why couldn't I do that, why after he ignored my calls did I go to his dorm what did I think that would achieve?

I knew it would achieve nothing good but I honestly just wanted to see him. I wanted to see his eyes light up, to see him smile, to feel his fingers running through my hair. The worst thing was even after what had just happened I wanted more.

That was why I had to get out of there. Things were getting intense, and I knew a few more minutes and my panties would have been on the floor, and that wow there would be hell to pay if that happened.

Shifters can have Casual s*x as much as they like but the second you have s*x with your mate that's it, that action creates a sort of bond a link between the two of you. One that will last your entire life. Of course if I bonded with Noah and anyone found out, my life wouldn't be much longer.

I took a deep breath as I got in my car still rubbing my broken hand. "You can do this. I am in charge. I can master my hormones. He may be my mate But I don't have to act on that. I can't have a human mate, I am re...re" I couldn't bring myself to say it, even though I knew saying it out loud would mean nothing.

I couldn't reject him. I couldn't say it even to myself.

My phone buzzed I pulled it out of my pocket and growled in irritation as I hit reject and threw it on the passenger seat. "Okay calm Casey you haven't done anything that can't be undone. We just don't see him again, and let's face it after this there is no way he will want to see us again anyway."

That thought made something inside hurt but I know it was probably true. I mean after all this was the second time I'd run off. The second make out session had got too intense, both times leaving Noah with an enormous erection and a confused expression. The Phone buzzed again, knowing it wasn't going to stop I answered it,

"What?" I growled.

"Well hello too you too Casey. Where have you been?" Gareth said brightly.

"None of your business." I snapped.

"Well hopefully it's at work. Aiden is pissed and the rent is due."

"Well maybe you guys should get off your asses and work."

"Wrong location princess you know that, we follow where we have to go. Sometimes locations and seasons don't tally up, but there always seem to be Horney perverts so park your f*****g attitude and go to work."

I growled but began digging out my make up bag.

"Don't worry look we're nearly done here, a few more days and we'll be sorted. We nearly have them."

I sighed, "Why do we still do this Gareth?"

There was a long silence and when he spoke he sounded honestly confused, "You know why."

"No I don't. I know why we started but what are we now, how are we any different?"

"We are different because we believe in something."

"Not anymore." I whispered sadly realising that this was honest, more honest than I had been in a long time.

"Go to work." Gareth said simply and hung up. I sighed as I put the car in gear, to work it was after all this was the life I had chosen. I knew there would be consequences, shame I was a f*****g i***t when I made those choices.

I walked outside the cold night air instantly biting at my exposed skin. The music from down below was making my rib cage vibrate. I pulled a cigarette from my bag and lit it. I didn't actually smoke but as long as you had a cigarette nobody hassled you about needing to take five. I heard footsteps behind me and didn't even bother to look around. I knew who it was by the simple fact that the roof terrace was closed to everyone except the girls, and this wasn't a girl, so there was only one person who would be here.

"I can take a break by myself Aiden." I said calmly.

"I am aware of that. Where were you today?"

"Does it matter?" I said calmly not wanting to remember how many hours I had sat in that dorm hallway waiting for Noah. It hadn't been a sensible choice.

"Yes because I want to know." he said stalking towards me slowly, seeming to flit from shadow to shadow.

"Look I'm here now aren't I. working like you wanted."

"I want to know where you were earlier." he was still perfectly calm of course, but I wasn't. My temper was a lot closer to the surface.

I turned to face him. "Why do you care? I just needed some time out ok. I'm doing what you said now. You might be our Alpha but I'm not your property." I didn't see him move this time but a second later his body had pinned me up against the wall a hand around my throat like an iron bar.

"Yes you are. You are my f*****g wife." he snarled eyes locked on mine.

I refused to blink and met his gaze flatly. I was his wife, yes but that didn't make me his property. f**k it I am the daughter of an Alpha, the closet thing we had to a princess, I would not be bullied.

"I am more than aware of that."I said calmly though my voice was soft. I was now struggling to breathe.

"That means I get to ask and you tell me, and Casey honey you push me, think you can make a fool out of me. " his hand gripped a little tighter, but still I didn't move, "I will end you. I give you more freedom than a lot of men would. This ...us it was a good deal for you too. Remember you are my Wife my chosen mate and you would do well to remember that."

I gave a tiny nod refusing to let the tears fall down my cheeks.

"Good." he said letting go of my neck, "now back to work princess. We need to get our work done so we can be out of this hole sooner."

I nodded smoothing my hair with my fingers and fighting to regain my composure.

"And princess," he said as he lingered by the doorway leading off the roof. "Don't abuse my trust."

I nodded as he silently slipped off the roof. I took several slow deep breaths trying to calm my racing heart. I have known Aiden my entire life. He shouldn't scare me and for the most part he doesn't, but there are times where the way he behaves just totally throws me off. This attitude was one of those.

Granted I get he doesn't want me f*****g around with other guys, but it wasn't exactly like our marriage was exactly fairytale. We were chosen mates, we had made the choice go. Be together and married. But that was more due to circumstances than any real relationship. Fated mates are different they are soul mates I guess is the term meant to be. My marriage well it seemed to make sense at the time, like he said it was a good deal for both of us but now I'm starting to believe he actually got the better end of it.

I pulled my phone out of my bag and felt a sudden swoop in my stomach as I saw the missed calls from Noah. I dialled my voice mail, something inside me ached as I heard his nervous voice tremble as he apologised even though he clearly didn't know what he was apologising for.

"Hey Cass." a loud voice cut across the roof, "tea break is over your on in 5."

I nodded as I pulled on my fake smile and headed towards the stairs, putting Noah away in a safe little box in my mind. He didn't exist here the rest of the world didn't exist here, I was just acting. I put the extra sway in my hips as I walked down the stairs getting into character.

I pulled my coat tighter around myself as the bouncer opened the locked door for me. Most of the girls scuttled past into waiting cabs but I never bothered. I was scarier than the perverts who might be hanging around, if any of them tried it on with me they would soon regret it. I pulled my phone out and scrolled to Noah's number, my thumb hovering over the button knowing I should not call him, I should leave it alone this was for the best.

"Hey ." a voice made me jump.

"Stan." I said trying not to sound as startled as I felt.

He smiled, "Came to walk you to your car milady." He said offering me his arm. I took it and smiled. He Glanced at my hand. It was black with bruises and honestly still hurt but it would be fine in a day or two. Stan sensibly chose not to comment on it, "so how was work?"

"Seriously? "I said, "I dance around on stage in a pair of pants that resemble dental floss while a lot of Horney dickheads oogle me, it was great."

"Well there isn't a lot of choice sweet, nobody wants to pay to see Gareth on stage wind milling, so you need to flash the assets god gave you."

"Well thank you for that wisdom." I said dryly. Stan was only seventeen he had been far too young but hadn't we all been, he was my youngest brother but somehow seemed to think of himself as clearly older and wiser than me. I was clearly in for one of his talks,

"Aiden is pissed," he said plainly, "something happen between you two."

"None of your business," I said simply.

"He's just stressed and you go wandering off for hours alone and won't say where you've been."

"Why did you ask if you know what he's pissed off about," I said simply.

"I was being polite." he said honestly looking baffled that I hadn't figured that out myself. "so what's going on? Something has been different with you since we got here."

"That was five days ago." I said defensively.

"Well five days is still long enough for it to be weird. Are you seeing someone or something?"

"What?" I snapped suddenly.

"Well you know you and Aiden it's not exactly a loving relationship. It would make sense if you wanted a little... company."

"Just say s*x you prude," I said as we arrived at the car. We both climbed in, "I am not off f*****g randoms ok. Me and Aiden may not have been made for each other but here we are."

"O...k" Stan said slowly, "look me in the eyes and say that again."

I snort in an attempt to laugh, but the lack of mirth is blindingly obvious.

"Casey." he said taking my hand. I turned to look at him and honest concern in radiating out from those young features. His eyes speckled with gold. "I am worried about you. This is totally off the record you know I won't tell anyone, I just thought I should be there tonight as Aiden... I was worried he might push you into making a bad decision. I'm not worried about you out there f*****g randoms. I'm just worried you might find one who becomes something else. You might not have a happy marriage Casey but it is not an open one. You cannot let yourself fall in love because you're lonely. He will kill you if you betray him."

"I know." I whispered, though inside I knew I would make a phone call because I knew which fate looked bleaker to me and it was the one in which I lived longer.