His touch

Blessing in disguise

Feeling of being loved or loving someone is most original and special feeling but in my case I went through a worse situation where I was being molested by my own grandpa and by my neighbour. I was not loved by them I was just a victim of their lustiness. But the best part is that now I can differentiate between good and bad touch.Bad touches never leave my hand. Though those touches was minor but still I knew that Thier intention is not good. One day I decided to just stop been afraid and try to protect yourself instead. I made my mind that after this day no one never ever will let me touch until my permission. I not going to suffer this pain anymore now I gonna resist it as hard as I can. I ll protect myself. Lucky I haven't lose my vergenity.Thank god that those two asshole didn't have that much s****l appetite. From that day I only allowed those to enter my life who really deserves to be with me. Those two make me understand the world is so deceptive,those who are family to you can kill you like enemy.Those whom you trust can break down you hard in a manner that it will become impossible for you to pick up all the shattered pieces of your heart. Your own image in your eyes will become so poor. I was lucky to know the reality of world so fast.Now every thing heals with time but when it becomes really difficult when you have to face those people again and again who have given you those scars. But to keep myself motivated I regularly tell myself " it will take time but it will heal, I am gonna be a successful lady and gonna take my revenge in that way". I have made my mind to adopt a girl child and would give her a good, healthy and beautiful life.My mum is my greatest motivation, like me she has suffered a lot. Her wish us be a Charted accountant but she was married when she was 19 and then my mother really seen her books again. When I was Born she decided that she will teach me and make me independent. One day I m gonna make her proud. Everything that happens because of some reasons and I realised that why this happens to me because God want me to understand world bit quickly. That's the I keep myself motivated. I often complain that why me??? And drop some tears from my eyes not for me but for them because one day they have to pay for their sins; and I m gonna make sure that the paying should be high.