~Isabella POV~
The high I was feeling from killing Nicolai had worn off. It’s funny that all that hatred I had towards him was still there and the f****d-up thing about it was the emotions I felt were not for him but me. That is something my dad didn’t tell me. Once you kill, it’s not like the feelings are magically gone, it’s just finds a new focal point. So, with Nicolai being gone, there I was facing my own guilt and hatred about my betrayal and the train wreck that was now my life. I had not slept for days and now each time I close my eyes I see Nicolai. I replay the events of the night over and over again. I wasn’t feeling guilt, but I suppose that will come in time.
I was also very anxious as I was expecting Victor any minute and know my husband… correction, my ex-husband as I d
