Chapter 15
The worst thing about guilt and stress-induced insomnia was the need to get to the studio by four-thirty so they could do something about the bags under his eyes before shooting started. Paul always loved the first day of a shoot. He didn’t just like being an actor, he adored the actual process of filming. Other actors hated it. It was hard. It was hot. It was stressful. It was exhausting. It was chaotic. But Paul didn’t care about any of those things once the cameras were rolling and he could lose himself in the role, in the dancing. He could always leave his problems behind and be somebody else.
Except this time. He didn’t want to shoot. He didn’t want to drag himself into makeup, and then into wardrobe. He didn’t want to have to face Jack and pretend everything was just gre
