Imprisoned Love

Disagreements

Jade's POV:

Ugh. Why do I keep messing things up with Tori. I didn't even mean to this time. I mean, she did ask for the truth, and it is one of the main reasons why I picked her to be my fake girlfriend. Besides, I can't lie to her when she's looking deeply into my eyes. She can tell when I'm lying..

But she looked so f*****g hurt. I could literally see the light and sparkle in her eyes disappear. And I wanted to tell her so bad, that it's not true anymore, and that I am falling for her.. but I can't. What if she laughs at me? What if she tells the whole school? What if she leaves me for good and never talk to me again?

Ughh.

I tried to talk to her afterwards as well, but she's clearly avoiding me. I ran around the whole house looking for her, but she wasn't there. When I finally saw her outside with my mom and Tyler, I ran up to her, only to be ignored. She did however, call me babe and act as if we're still together, probably because Crystal and Tyler were there. Smart move, but it was so f*****g frustrating. I didn't wanna beg for her to talk to me, so I just walked upstairs to my room, slamming the door shut.

I'm alone for about an hour, thinking about how it's always so complicated with Vega. With Beck it was so easy. Whatever I say goes, type of thing. Of course I'd listen to Beck every now and then, but he would never dare tell me what to do. And that's what I like about him. I'm kinda like the boss in our relationship.

And then there's Vega. She can be so f*****g stubborn at times, like right now, and it makes me so f*****g annoyed. She makes me feel like I'm a demon every time she gives me that sad look of hers. And Jade West does not feel bad for anyone. But how come I feel bad right now, for upsetting her? Ugh. I'm changing.. and it's all because of her. It's all Tori's fault. Why the hell am I crushing so bad?

As I'm thinking, I hear a small knock on the door. My family barely ever come up to my room, so I know it's Vega. Right now, I don't know what I'm feeling anymore. I feel angry at myself for hurting her again. I feel sad that she's ignoring me. I feel annoyed at her for not listening to me. And I feel confused and torn between Beck and her..

Vega doesn't say anything, and comes up to sit beside me on the bed. I know I should speak up, but I don't even know where to start. Vega's the one who usually talks first anyways..

After about 5 minutes, she finally speaks up, telling me we should probably be going to the restaurant.

For f**k's sake. I'm taking her out on a date and she's f*****g pissed at me. Again.

I sigh, and get up grabbing my bag, and I hear Vega do the same. I don't even turn around to look at her and we both go downstairs.

"We're going out." I simply mutter to Crystal, as she's in the kitchen making food. She notices my sour behaviour and looks between Tori and I cautiously. Vega isn't even looking up anymore, instead she's looking down at her feet.

"Okay.. have fun" Crystal says, confused, and Vega mumbles a thanks. I walk past her to the front door, and when I turn around I see Vega say bye to Tyler in the living room. He gives her a quick hug, and she starts walking back towards me. I smile at the fact that she got along so well with my family in only a weekend.

I open the door, and we both get in the car in silence. The car ride to the restaurant is a 15 minute drive and I just know that I have to talk to her before we get there. If I don't, then our date will probably be worse than our first one.

I drive for about 5 minutes, and look over to my left. Vega's looking out her window the whole time, and it reminds me an awful lot like the first time I took her out on a date. She refused to look at me, let alone talk to me.

Just talk to her, Jade.

"You know, you look really good in that dress" I say awkwardly, as I look ahead at the road.

She turns to look at me, and I do the same.

"Thanks.. you do too" she says back, equally full of awkwardness.

Ugh this is stupid. It's like when Sikowitz made us go on that stupid date when Vega and I had to play a married couple. I said she was pretty, and she said I was pretty and the we just went into an awkward silence. I don't want it to be like that..

I decide to pull the car over, and I hit the brakes. Vega just looks at me confused, and she raises and eyebrow. I look into her beautiful brown eyes, and sigh.

"Tori, I hate it when we're like this.." I start, and she rolls her eyes at me, making me even more annoyed.

Seriously? I'm trying to fix things, and she won't even listen to me properly. I didn't even do anything wrong!

"For f**k's sake Vega, just listen to me!" I shout, a little louder than I was intending to. She blinks at me, shocked at my sudden loud tone. "Why does it have to be so complicated with you all the time? Can't we just go on a normal f*****g date like girlfriends would!?"

She stays quiet for a second, with a blank face. "We're not really a couple Jade. It's just pretend" Vega says, and I feel two very strong emotions. One, my blood boils in anger that she even had the balls to say that so casually when I'm giving out to her. And two, sadness and hurt. As much as I don't want to feel it, I'm hurt that Vega only sees this as pretend. A small part of me really thought that she liked me a bit. But I guess I was wrong.

"Fine then!" I shout, and start the car again. She's just too much to f*****g handle sometimes, and I'm glad I got to see that. It just proves to me that Vega and I would never make a cute couple. I absentmindedly start speeding coz I'm so angry, and I see Vega starting to get a little nervous out of the corner of my eye.

Good. This is what she gets for being a smartass.

"Um, Jade. Can you slow down a bit?" she says nervously, and I drive even faster. I see Vega clutch onto her seat, which only causes me to smirk evilly.

"Jade!" she shouts, and I speed up even more. There's not many cars around us anyways, so it's not that dangerous. Vega's such a buzzkill at times.

"Please" she begs softly, and my brain's nagging for me to slow down, but my body doesn't cooperate with it.

"Okay! I'm sorry! Just p-please.. s-slow down.. Please" Vega stutters, and I know that she's really scared right now, so I finally slow down. I don't get why she's so freaked. It's not like I was planning on killing her.

We arrive at the restaurant about 5 minutes later, and Vega practically jumps out of the car in the speed of lightning. She must really hate it when I speed. Point noted. I have to jog up to catch up with her as she's speed walking away from me.

"Table for Jade West" I tell the man at the front, and he briefly looks down at his clipboard and then shows us to our table. Vega hesitantly sits down opposite me, refusing to meet my eyes the whole time we've been here. Ugh what is it with this chick and always being mad at me.

The waiter puts down a jug of water in front of us along with our menus. We both order our food, and he goes back, taking the menus from us. I stare at Vega for a while, getting more frustrated by the minute when she doesn't look back at me. This date is a disaster.

"Are we like not gonna talk throughout the whole date?" I spit out at her, getting mad. She doesn't respond and I clench my fists.

Calm down, Jade.

She's just so.. ughh.

"Excuse me. I need to use the restroom" Vega politely says, as if I'm some eighty year old woman. I roll my eyes at her, and she gets up to leave. She comes back in a few minutes, but she's.. different. She struts over to our table confidently, with her head up high and a fake ass smile on her face.

Huh?

"This place is amazing babe. Thanks for reserving it" she says in a forced chirpy tone, and I raise a pierced eyebrow at her.

What the f**k happened while she was in that bathroom?

"You okay babe?" she says 'babe' through gritted teeth, and I realise what she's doing instantly. She's acting as if she's happy on our date. She's forcing herself to be my fake girlfriend. I feel kind of hurt that this isn't how she truly feels inside, but I guess it's better than her not talking to me at all. I give her back a sorta smile, and she holds my hand on the table. Thankfully, our food arrives and Vega talks about how great this place is.

This.. doesn't feel right.

It feels so fake. To others, we look like a happy couple.. but the tension is practically bouncing off of every word that leaves Vega's mouth. She's been blabbering on for ages and I've barely even said a word during this whole date, mostly just studying Vega's face. Her eyes look so blank and pissed, but her mouth's saying a total different thing. It looks like she's trying really hard to not lash out at me, and she's doing a pretty good job at it. Ugh, why do I feel so f*****g guilty?

Okay, I've had enough of this..

"Okay stop!" I whisper shout so nobody hears me. Vega shuts up about the food, and looks into my eyes. "Come to the bathroom with me" I say, and grab her arm, pulling her towards the ladies'. She stumbles a little but she clutches onto my arm for balance. When we get to the bathroom, I silently thank God for it being empty.

I sigh. "What do I have to do, to get you to be happy again?" I ask, and she raises an eyebrow at me.

"I am happy babe" she says. Ugh I hate the way she says it as if it's poisonous. I'm not that hard to be around.. am I?'

"You're clearly not Vega, so just tell me. Do I need to apologise? Beg for your forgiveness? Buy you f*****g Rocky Road ice cream? Anything.. just stop acting like you're happy when you're f*****g not!" I say in an exasperated tone. She looks pretty surprised as she blinks at me.

"You knew?" she asks, and I roll my eyes at her as I lean against a sink, and pinch the bridge of my nose.

"Yes Vega. It's pretty easy to tell when you're actually happy, and when you're forcing yourself to be. Your eyes don't have that little sparkle anymore, and it's making me f*****g sick to my stomach for some reason." I say in an annoyed tone. Suddenly, her face breaks into a tiny smile. It's barely evident but that's all it takes for my scowl to disappear. That's all it takes for the butterflies to erupt in my stomach. That tiny smile is all it takes for me to forget about our argument altogether.

I sigh take a few steps towards her, and cup her cheek, looking deeply into her eyes. She looks confused at my sudden change in behaviour for a second, so I speak up in a soft tone.

"I missed your beautiful smile" I whisper, and she grins widely. One that isn't fake. A real Vega smile. And before I know it, we're both grinning like maniacs, looking into each other's eyes. I pull her into a tight hug, and she wraps her arms around my shoulder, holding me close. No words are needed in this very moment. Just being in each other's embrace is enough for us, and I smile at how easy it is for Vega to bring me out of a bad mood. A few seconds ago I wanted to punch a tree so badly, but now I've got a huge smile on my face.. all because of that tiny little smile Vega gave me. And that's something Beck was never able to do, and can't do in fact.

Hmm..

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Jade's POV:

After our hug, I pulled away and looked into Vega's eyes. I really don't understand how this girl is so forgiving. She just can't seem to hold a grudge unlike me, and it's really sweet.

"So, wanna go back and finish our date?" I ask.

"I'd love to, babe" she says, and I smile widely when she doesn't say babe in a fake tone. She actually meant it.

We go back inside, and finish up our food. It's a lot more easy going this time around. Vega and I laugh about the memories we've made when we used to hate each other, and how silly our little feud was. We keep talking until we realise that we should probably be heading back as it's almost 3pm. I pay for the food, despite Vega's protest, and we grab our purses to head out.

We walk back to the car, hand-in-hand, and I can't help but to feel really complete when I'm around Vega. I'm not one to smile much, but when I'm around Vega, I do it a lot more than often. As we get in the car, I hear Vega's sweet voice.

"You're not gonna speed again, are you?" she jokes, as we put on our seatbelts. I chuckle at her.

"I wasn't even going that fast!" I defended, shooting my hands up in the air, while laughing at her cute glare.

"Suure you weren't" she says, and I back up the car. The car ride home is a thousand times better than the car ride to the restaurant. Vega and I sing to our favourite songs at the top of our lungs, and I'm pretty sure the people in the cars next to us thought we were high. I didn't care though. Being with Vega makes me feel all goofy and giddy inside, and I'm not scared to be like that in front of her because I just feel so comfortable around her.

I pull into my driveway and we're giggling the whole time as we walk in the house. Crystal smiles as she comes to greet us.

"You two look like you had fun on your date" she says happily, and for once I don't scowl at her.

"We did" Vega says, in her chirpy tone like usual, and she looks at me happily.

"Wanna go up to my room?" I ask her, and she nods. As we're walking up the stairs, I hear my mom shout as us playfully.

"And no funny business!"I blush, and Vega just laughs it off. I shut the door behind me, and start taking off my earrings. Vega kicks off her heels, and falls backwards onto my bed.

"This bed is like heaven!" she says enthusiastically, and I chuckle as I walk up to her.

"Yup, it is. It's a lot more comfy when you're in it." I say, and she shakes her head with a smile at my cheesiness.

Wow Jade. You're going so soft.

"Thanks for the date, Jade. It was really sweet." she says, standing up to kiss me on my cheek. However, I turn around and kiss her lips instead to which she responds. It's a short kiss to end the date, and it's pretty much perfect.

"Will you zip me down?" she asks, and I almost choke on thin air.

"S-sure" I reply nervously, all of a sudden.

Pull yourself together Jade. You've already seen her naked.

Vega turns around, and swipes her hair over her shoulder. I lift a shaky hand up and grasp the zipper at the top of her dress. I slowly drag it down and admire my girlfriend's perfectly tanned back. I take a hell of a lot more time than necessary, as my eyes linger on her backside the whole time. When she's finally zipped down, she turns around a plants a small kiss on my cheek.

"Thanks babe" she says, and walks towards her bag to grab some clothes to change into. I'm still standing here shocked, as she's about to walk into the bathroom.

"You know I've seen you naked before, right?" I call out to her, and she simply turns around and pokes out her tongue along with a wink, before continuing to the bathroom.

Ugh, focus on Beck. Beck's the guy for me..

I change into comfortable clothes myself, and plop onto the bed, thinking about how life would be if Vega were to be my actual girlfriend. She's always so bubbly and happy all the time.. but will she be the same if I deleted that screenshot? Is she only acting to be happy, so that I don't scream at her? How do I get her to trust me?

"I'm back" Vega announces, as she jumps into the bed next to me, lying on her stomach and resting her chin on her hands. I raise an eyebrow at her happiness, and she simply smirks.

"You look like you're in deep thought" she states, and I roll my eyes at her.

"Whatever." I say, before getting under the covers of my bed.

Seriously though, what am I gonna do with this whole Beck and Vega situation? Maybe if I see Beck, my feelings will rekindle..

"Jadee. I'm bored" Vega whines, and I ignore her, turning to my side so that I'm facing away from her.

Does she not get that I'm thinking here?

So yeah, maybe I just need to remember all of the sweet things Beck's done for me. He took me out to see the real set of my favourite movie 'The Scissoring' before. It was so cool and he was flashing his bright smile the entire time. He hates the things that I like, but he told me that he loves seeing me smile, and it was really sweet..

My thoughts are interrupted when Vega places her hand on my shoulder, and pushes me down onto the bed, so that I'm lying on my back. Then, she straddles my thighs and pins my hands beside my head.

Uggghh. All I want is for some peace and quiet!

"Can't we just talk or something?" she complains, and I glare at her, making her a little nervous.

"Vega, I'm f*****g tired. Those heels were killing my feet. So just let me take a f*****g nap." I spit at her, and she furrows her eyebrows at my tone. She gets off of me, and I quickly turn around again. I hear her huff, and plop onto the bed, turning her side away from me as well so that we're sleeping back-to-back.

Finally.

So where was I? Oh yeah.. Beck. What other sweet things has he done? He seems to always know when I'm in a grouchy mood because he always shows up with a coffee in his hand, and I usually don't even thank him.. Ugh. Why did I have to ruin such a perfect relationship?

But then again, if it weren't for my break up with Beck, I would never have been able to be this close with Vega. She's so pretty and she makes me want to be a better person.. for her. And no one's ever been able to do that before. And I guess, that's what frightens me the most. Vega's able to change me. She somehow invades all of the walls that I built over these years, and she can easily reach my heart. But what if she breaks it? What if she doesn't like me the way I like her? What if I make a fool of myself?

Talk to her. It's the only way you'll know how she feels..

I sigh, and turn around, and see that I'm still facing Vega's back.

She could be sleeping.. Nah, I can hear her uneven breathing. I wonder if she's mad..

I place a hand on her shoulder, and she jerks it off aggressively.

Yup, definitely mad.

"C'mon baby, I was tired. You know how I get when I'm tired" I softly tell her, but she still doesn't turn around. I give her some time, and she sighs, and turns around.

"Jade.. why do we fight so much?" she finally asks, and I dip my eyebrows at her.

"We don't fight, we just.. disagree a lot" I tell her in a matter-of-factly tone.

"Jade" she sighs, and props up on her elbow, and I do the same.

"Seriously Vega. I wouldn't even consider this fighting. I used to do this with Beck all the time when we were together. It's called disagreements." I tell her, with a roll of my eyes.

"Yeah, but think about it, Jade. We've been disagreeing about stuff all weekend, and it usually ends up with me listening to whatever you say.." she tells me, looking directly into my eyes. Damn, she must've really thought about this.

I huff at her, and roll my eyes. "Ugh, what do you want me to do about it?" I say, getting bored at this conversation.

"Try not to lash out at me every time I say something?"

"That's stupid! When have I ever-" I start, but I stop myself when she gives me a look that shows that I just proved her point.

Ugh. Her and her smartass-ness.

"See.. sometimes, it can get pretty frustrating when everything has to go your way" she tells me.

"Yeah, right. Name one time that happened" I ask her, but I cringe at my own comeback.

"Seriously?" she raises an eyebrow at me, with an annoyed look on her face.

"Ugh. It's not even that bad, coz we always make up afterwards!" I defend, but she still doesn't look too happy.

"Yeah, but couples aren't supposed to argue this much, Jade. Maybe.. that's why.. you and Beck broke up.." she trails off nervously. My eyes harden, and my nostrils flare as I give her a warning glare. "All I'm saying is that we should try and be a bit more loving and understanding towards each other, since we are girlfriends.."

"You forgot one word Vega. Fake girlfriends." I spit at her, and turn around again, so that my back is facing her. I hear her sigh, and turn around too.

Ugh. I guess I can kinda see what she means, but it's not even fighting! It's just being mad at each other for a shot period of time until Vega apologises.

For f**k's sake. Why does she make me feel so guilty about this?

I let out a loud groan, and turn around and get on top of Vega. She turns to lie on her back so I'm sitting on her waist. She gives me an annoyed stare, and I can tell she's a lot more mad than she was before.

"I don't know why I lash out at people so easily, okay? I guess it's just something I've always done" I sigh as I confess.

She looks up at me with her lovely brown eyes, and studies my face. "Yeah, but you don't have to be like that when you're around people like me or Beck." she says in a sad tone, and I raise an eyebrow at it, but brush it off.

"Okay.." I say quietly. "I'll try"

She doesn't say anything but just nods her head at me.

Is she still mad at me? I just told her I'll try to be nicer to her..

I get off her with a confused look, but she still doesn't say anything. Instead, she turns around again and refuses to look at me anymore.

Seriously, when is this girl not mad at me?

"Vegaaa. What did I do now?" I complain, trying to get her to turn around but she won't budge.

"Nothing Jade. I guess I'm just tired as well" she mutters, and I roll my eyes at how our characters have switched so quickly.

"You sure that's all?" I ask in a suspicious tone, because I know she's hiding something. If Vega was tired, then she wouldn't be able to keep her eyelids open. And she'd have that lazy smile planted on her face, along with her messy bun..

Huh. I guess I know a lot more about Vega than I thought..

"Yeah" she mumbles, and she scoots a little farther away from me. Now I know something's up. Vega loves cuddling. In fact, she loves it more than I do. And right now, she's sleeping so far away from me that she might fall off the edge of the bed if I so much as poked her.

What's her deal?

I decide to scoot up close to her and press my chest against her back. I wrap an arm around her waist, and pull her really close.. but her whole body tenses up.

Seriously, what is going on?

"Vega, you tell me I'm the one lashing out at you and starting all of the fights, yet you're the one who's always mad at me." I tell her, getting annoyed at her.

"I'm not mad at you, Jade" she mumbles quietly, as she tries to scoot over a little bit more but I don't let her or else she'll fall.

I could just let her fall.. but I don't want to.

"Really? Tell that to my face then" I challenge, and she seems to think about it for a while but then she turns around and looks me in my eyes. Her eyes are filled with.. sadness and hurt. But what did I do? f**k.

Good job, Jade.

"I'm not mad" she says in the same sad tone, and then tries to turn around again, but I keep my hand on her waist, preventing her from doing so.

"Please, Tori. Tell me what's wrong." I plead, and she looks down, refusing to meet my eyes. She looked as if she was about to tell me for a second, but then she quickly decides against it.

"Really, Jade. I'm just exhausted. How about we talk after a nap?" she asks quietly with a tiny smile, and I look at her unsurely. I give in eventually, as all I want to do right now is sleep beside a cuddling Vega.

"Okay" I whisper, and she smiles at me before turning around again. I try to not be bothered about it so I turn around and fall asleep as well, but I can't. It's just annoying me that we're sleeping back-to-back right now. She did tell me that she wasn't mad at me, so what's the problem?

"Vega?" I call softly as I turn around, hoping she's not asleep already. She shifts a little, but doesn't look at me, and mumbles a small 'yeah?', that I barely heard.

"Can I hold you?" I ask, in a weak tone, that I would usually never use to anyone.

I can see her body tense up a little, but she turns around to face me. I open my arms wide, and she nervously scooches up close to me, burying her head in my collarbone. She clutches onto my waist really tightly, and I raise my eyebrow at that.

First, it's like she's scared of me. But then, she holds me as if I'm gonna disappear?

I sigh and hold her in my arms, as I gently run my fingers through her brown locks. And soon after, I hear her soft breathing become even, as her body is fully relaxed now. I kiss the top of her head, before dozing off myself..