Imprisoned Love

Yours Only

Tori's POV:

"Goddammit Jade! I don't love him, I love you!!" I yell, as I feel like ripping my hair apart from this stupid argument, but my eyes widen when I realise what I just confessed.

OH..

MY..

FRICKIN..

GOD!!!

I DID NOT JUST SAY THAT..

Chiz!!

She slams on the breaks, causing her whole body to jerk forward a little, and before I know it, she's rushing out of the car, towards me.

I swear I feel like I'm about to cry right now.

I wasn't supposed to say it out loud. I wasn't supposed to confess my love to her so soon. We've only been dating for a few months.. she probably doesn't even like me half as much as she used to like Beck. She's probably still kinda repulsed by me..

This wasn't how it was supposed to happen.. and all I wanna do right now, is run away and hide for the rest of my life.

Her face is completely bank.. expressionless.. as she comes to a halt in front of me.

Maybe I can just laugh it off, and say that it was a joke..

Ugghhh..

"Uh, I-I.. Jade.." I stutter, not at all knowing what to say..

She stays quiet and continues to stare intensely into my eyes, and I blink away the tears that are threatening to spill any second now.

A million thoughts race through my mind, as I debate whether I should lie or tell the truth..

But what if she loves me too, and I tell her that I was just kidding.. that would be pretty damn cruel, and it'll only make things worse.

But let's be real here.. there's no way Jade loves me too.

Well I don't really know..

She did nearly slip up on saying something very similar to the words 'I love you' when we were at my house for dinner with my parents.. but it really could just be me overreacting and getting my hopes up for the tiniest of things...

Ugghh, whaddo I do!?

I mean, she's still mad at me.. and she's probably gonna leave me either way.. so.. I guess I might as well just confess..

What have I got to lose at this point..

I close my eyes as I drop my head, and take a deep breath.

"Jade.." I softly say her name and look up to be met with curious ocean blue eyes staring down at me, making me all the more nervous, but still determined to continue..

She furrows her eyebrows slightly, silently asking me if I really said what she heard..

"Yes, Jade... I love you.. and I know you're probably thinking that I'm pathetic for falling in love in such a short period of time.. but I mean, come on. What's not to love about you.. you're sweet, caring, beautiful, protective.. I can literally go on for days talking about how amazing you are, and it still wouldn't do enough justice. And I understand if I'm probably scaring you away right now, and you probably wanna run for the hills.. it's just.. I wanted to tell you while you were still my girlfriend. While I could still call you mine.." I say gently, feeling really emotional all of a sudden.

God, I don't wanna lose her!

She still doesn't speak, and simply stands there with a shocked yet blank look..

As I look into her eyes, I see the thousands of emotions swarming around her mind, as she's contemplating on how to react.

Probably debating whether she should run away or laugh at me..

"And I'm not just saying all of this because I want you to believe me that there's nothing going on with Beck.. I'm saying this because I'm scared, Jade.. I'm scared that you're gonna leave me for good.. and that I'll live on in regret.. bout how I never got to tell the love of my life, how I truly felt about her. I know you're probably not gonna believe me at this point.. but it's true, Jade. It's all true.. I love you.. and I'm so freaking sorry for hurting you baby." I say, with a few tears rolling down my face, as I place a timid hand to her cheek.

I notice how she instantly relaxes into my touch, as she looks anywhere but at my eyes..

Please don't push me away..

She stays silent for a few seconds, and I get even more anxious as I don't know how she's feeling right now. I'm honestly just glad that she's no longer mad at me, and that she hasn't run away from me.. yet.

After what feels like an eternity, her beautiful blue eyes are back to being focused on mine, and this time.. there's no hurt in them. No anger. No confusion.

Nothing but pure lust.

And I can't help but to love her even more, if it's even possible. I can't help but to see a future in her eyes. A future that we share. Our future.. and our lives ahead of us..

"God, I've waited so f*****g long to hear those words come out of your mouth.." she breaks the silence, and I raise both my eyebrows.

Hold on a minute..

Am I imagining this? Or is she really implying as to what I think she's about to say???

"I love you more than you can ever imagine Tori Vega, and I don't think I'll ever stop loving you.." she finishes, and I simply blink in shock, with my mouth agape.

Woah woah woah..

Hold up...

Jade loves me!!

Oh my frickin' God!!!

Jade West loves me back!!!!!

I'm in so much shock that I have to physically shake my head slightly, to focus back on this amazing girl, who apparently loves me too!!!!

I still can't get over it!

I can't believe it! And here I was, thinking she'd yell at me.

God, I love her..

"And all this time, I was too scared to say it first, coz I thought you'd run for the hills.. but here I am. With the girl of my dreams standing in front of me.. telling me that she loves me too... Jesus Tori, how the f**k do you expect me to stay mad at you after all that?" She finishes with a slight smile, and my face breaks into a wide grin and I lunge at her, wrapping my arms around her shoulders as I bury my face into her neck.

Her hands instantly find my waist, as she squeezes it so tightly, as if I were about to disappear in this moment..

Holy chiz!!

This is really happening!

Jade said she loved me!!

AGGHHHH!!!

I turn my head slightly, to plant a dozen kisses to the side of her head, along with a bunch more 'I love you's, because honestly, I've waited far too long to say the words, so I might as well get em all out now..

She chuckles before pulling away from our hug all too soon, making me frown as I didn't want it to end yet.

I've always felt so safe in Jade's arms. Like nothing in the world can hurt me, as long as she's holding me..

"So how long have you loved me exactly?" She asks with a small smirk, and I ponder back to when I first realized that I loved Jade West.

Hmm..

Oh!

"Remember when we had a little fight over me asking you to come over for dinner with my parents?" I remind her, and she nods as she expectantly waits for me to finish.

"Well, I absolutely hated it when we didn't talk for a whole day afterwards. It made me truly realise how much I needed you in my life, and how much I couldn't stand being so near yet so far away from you.." I say the last part a bit quietly, looking away from her since it does sound a bit cheesy, and I'm kinda expecting her to laugh at me.

However, she doesn't.

She simply stares down at me, and when I finally meet her eyes again, I see an evidently amused smile on her face, making me roll my eyes playfully.

"Wow. So you basically can't live without me?" She jokes, and I lightly push her away.

"Shut up." I laugh, and she joins in.

"I mean.. it's what you implied.." she chuckles.

"Yes, Jade." I say, in a much more serious tone, making her stop laughing in an instant.

She furrows her eyebrows a bit, so I decide to finish my sentence.

"I don't think I would be able to live without you.. I mean, I couldn't stand a day without you.. I can't imagine a whole lifetime where you're not in it.." I say sadly, looking down at the ground, but she's quick to cup my cheeks and make me look back at her eyes, which are currently filled with love and.. maybe a bit of sadness?

"Tori, you don't have to ever worry about that, kay? I'm not gonna be leaving you anytime soon, and I hope to God that nothing will ever stand in the way between us. I know our relationship isn't like most others.. and I know that I'm pretty hard to work with.. but I'll never stop loving you baby. And I'll never let you feel alone. Ever." She expresses every single word, looking me dead in the eye, and I nearly tear up at her speech.. except this time, in happiness.

A tear streams down my face, and she brushes it away with the pad of her thumb, keeping her hand on my face as she starts to lean in, me doing the same.

Now, Jade and I have kissed a lot of times before.. but this time.. this time felt so unbelievably different. I've never felt such a strong bond or pull towards anyone ever before, and I've never felt so many amazing emotions all at once.. happiness, joy.. and an incredulous amount of love.. and it's all because of a simple kiss.

We pull back with wide grins on our faces, and I really do feel like I'm the luckiest girl on the planet.

"You've got my heart, Jade. I'm yours.. and yours only." I tell her sincerely.

"And I'll keep it safe, Tori. I'm sorry for accusing you of going out with Beck." She apologizes and I nod my head with a small smile.

Things are finally out in the open. There's nothing else to hide from her.. we can finally go back to the way things were..

Jade loves me too.. and there's no way I'm ever letting her go, now that I've finally gotten her..

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