The Confused One

Episode 5

The past 6 weeks were the longest two weeks in my life however I think the 3 minutes I just spend waiting for the pregnancy test were longer than the damn 6 weeks.

I was going to take the test earlier but I decided to wait just so the test would give me a clearer result.

I slowly approached the pregnancy test.

I kept my hopes down as much as possible because what is the possibility of me actually being pregnant.

I had s*x once so for me to get pregnant straight away.

I picked up the pregnancy test and read the results.

I reread the results again and again.

I made sure that the lines in the test matched with the lines that gave me my answer.

When I was sure I let myself slide down onto the floor and took deep breaths.

I’m pregnant, I’m pregnant and there’s a baby in me.

I’m going to be a mum.

I have to tell my parents.

Before I tell anyone I have to go to the doctors and make sure I actually am pregnant.

I called a private doctor and made my way to the hospital.

I don’t think I ever drove so carefully in my life.

I spent the entire drive thinking of what gender the baby will be.

Wondering if the baby is healthy.

Not long after I got to the doctors I was called in by a doctor.

She made me pee in a cup, take blood and then laid me down for an ultrasound.

As well as making sure I am pregnant the doctor is going to make sure I’m healthy so the baby can grow healthy.

Before I even decided to get pregnant I did take tests to make sure my body was healthy enough to carry a baby but now that I am pregnant the doctor had to make sure I don’t need anything to keep my health up to the max.

After making sure I was healthy the doctor moved on to the baby, waiting for this part of the appointment is what I’ve been waiting for so anxiously.

The doctor placed the cold gel on my belly and then started moving around until she found the baby.

It was so small you could barely see it but it’s there.

The doctor said everything looks okay and the heart beat though not clear yet though to it being so early in the pregnancy is there.

I asked for 3 copies of the ultrasound and after booking the next appointment with the receptionist I left and made my way to my parents house.

I stepped out of the car and made sure I had an ultrasound picture with me to show them and then walked up to the front door and knocked.

“Baby girl.” My dad said and brought me into a hug.

“Hi daddy.” I said and hugged my dad back, I’m still a daddies girl.

“Where’s mum?” I asked and dad pointed into the back of the house where the living room is.

“Dad can you come in too I want to talk to both of you about something.” I said and dad nodded and walked behind me to where he said mum was.

After greeting my mum we all sat down, mum and dad sat down opposite me dad had his arm around mum.

My parents are still very young looking as my mum got pregnant with me when she was 15 turning 16.

Mum has beautiful blue eyes, dark brown hair and slightly tanned skin like I do.

Dad has a blue and a green eye like I do, near blond hair and light skin like I do.

I look at my parents with a big smile and then say,

“I’m pregnant.” 

My mums face lit up with joy however my dads face fell.

“Daddy?” I asked concerned, the one thing in my life that I always worried about was disappointing my dad and if he’s disappointed in me I don’t know what to do.

“My little girl, my only daughter is pregnant.” He said quietly.

“Charlotte I’m so happy for you, who’s the dad?” Mum asked full of curiousness, I’m happy my mums so happy about it.

“I went to a clinic and got a donor.” I said kinda unsurely not knowing what else to tell them.

“Ob Charlotte I’m going to support you through it all.” Mum said and came to hug me when she realised I would be parenting alone.

“Thank you mum I really would really appreciate it.” I said with a genuine smile.

I turned to my dad to see him so much calmer I’m not quite sure why, he’s so calm it scares me.

“Mum?” I said unsurely and she understood what I meant and turned to my dad.

“Your father is happy about the baby but he was disturbed with the fact that you would have had to sleep with someone so since you went to a clinic he’s calmed down.” Mum said everything without even asking dad, she just knew what he was thinking, I guess it’s easy for her since they have been best friends since she was born.

After hugging my now very happy dad I felt kinda bad for lying but I cannot tell the truth now because I can only imagine my dad’s reaction if he found out I actually slept with a person.

I showed my parents the ultrasound and after that my 17 year old brother Callum came home, he still lives at home since he’s the youngest of all the siblings.

Callum was really happy and he wanted to tell the other brothers but I told him I wanted to tell them myself so after I left my parents house I made my way to my twin Charlie’s, I would go to Cameron my other brothers after, his apartment is in the same building as mine.

Cameron’s apartment use to be Charlie’s but after he started a family he moved to a big house and it was around the same time Cameron was looking for a place to move into after leaving mum and dads house so it was the perfect place for him.

From all the people that I will tell about the pregnancy the hardest one will be Charlie because I feel so guilty that I won’t tell him the father of the baby is his best friend.