Undestined

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EVAN'S POV : 

Almost 3 days narin but hindi parin kami nagpapansinan 

" Honey ~ , breakfast is ready "  

no response 

" honey ? " I pinch  his nose to wake him up but he just ignored me and shrugged my hands 

" hey !  , I will go to office . I have work , just eat your breakfast " 

malumay kung sabi sa kanya saka ko hinalikan yung noo niya 

" I will be late from work  ,  why not staying here for a while ? " 

no response , alam kung narinig niya ako

" honey " malambing kung sabi sa kanya saka ako umupo sa higaan 

" your'e not feeling well ? " I tried to look at his face but he just turn around the corner

* inhale * * exhale *

" honey ,  get well okay ? . Dont forget to eat your breakfast " 

but still no response . Nagrequest ata siya ng leave sa work dahil masama daw yung pakiramdam niya .

" I will go na . Just order a food for your lunch . I'll be back early , I will bring foods for our dinner . I love you ,bye . I gotta go now " I kissed his forehead and saka ako lumabas 

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako sa nangyari , 3 days na ang nakalipas simula nong nangyaring aksidente . Ilang ulit ko siyang tinawagan pero hindi siya sumasagot , bandang alas onse na ng gabi siya dumating na basang basa siya sa ulan . HIndi niya ako pinansin , bagkus ay patuloy lang siya sa loob ng banyo at naliligo pagkatapos ay humiga siya sa higaan at natulog . Buti nalang at umuwi siya and Thank God he is safe .

Akala ko in the next day okay na dahil papansinin na niya ako pero hindi parin niya ako pinansin . Nagrequest siya ng leave dahil masama daw yung pakiramdam niya . 

For 3 days hindi niya ako pinansin and for 3 days pinilit kung mag start ng conversation sa kanya but still , no response parin . Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari , ayaw ko naman tanongin si Miss Diane , hindi ko nga siya pinansin sa loob ng office . 

At isa pa tong usap usapan nila sa office na tungkol sa akin , ewan ko kung saan galing yun but may alam ata ako na isa din yun sa dahilan kung bakit nangyari to sa amin . 

Nakatayo parin ako sa labas ng pinto at sinubukan kung kumuha ng lakas ng loob para pumasok sa trabaho . Pinilit kung ngumiti pero ayaw parin umalis sa isipan ko si Ian . 

" yosh ! * clap * Im okay * clap * Im okay * inhale * * exhale * " 

Nilock ko nalang yung pinto ng maigi  , mas maganda yung safety kasi nasa loob siya natutulog .  For 3 days straight ganito yung routine .

" * exhale * * inhale * Im fine " 

IAN'S POV :

GRRRRRR ! ( tunog po yan ng tiyan na nagugutom ) 

Waaaah ! gutom na gutom na ako huhuhu . I feel guilty for what happened but NO ! . I know mataas yung pride ko pero nahihirapan kasi akong kausapin siya . I know deep down in his heart he feel guilty as well , pinilit niya akong kausapin pero pinilit ko ang sarili ko na ayaw ko siyang kausapin . Minsan kami nag aaway pero hindi yung ganitong klasing away , kunting tampuhan din after an hour , okay na kami I mean bati na kami .

But ito yung malala sa lahat eh ! , Normal lang naman yung mag a - away pero kasi may part sa akin na parang ayaw ko muna siyang kausapin ? It looks like , that I need a time to think this problem properly so we can solve it together . 

Pero galit parin ako sa kanya huhuhu . Thingking na nasa office siya ngayon at kasama yung babaeng yun , naku ! nangangalaiti na ata ako sa galit . 

GRRRR ! 

" Im hungry "  I mumble myself 

Tumayo naman ako sa higaan at saka ko tinignan yung pagkain na niluto niya 

" hmmm ang bango at ang sarap naman nito " sinimhot ko talaga yung pagkain

Lahat ng niluto niya favorite ko . Nag request kasi ako na mag leave sa work kasi ayaw ko talagang pumasok muna dahil baka maapektuhan yung pag tra - trabaho ko dahil sa problema . 

I hope Evan was doing fine on his work .  Even though nag a - away kami but still , I really care for him . My love for me , from him was not change .

Its normal to fall inlove but , was it called abnormal if you fall inlove with the same s*x ? .

I cant understand their thinking , their words cut  deeper than the wound . I feel like I do something bad ! . 

For seven years of living together with him . Is their a happy ending for both of us ? Evan ? 

I know he was straight while Im just a gay who works in brothel ( p********e bar ) . We meet by accident . 

What if we didnt meet by that time ? . I wonder ano na kayang nangyari sa akin ? or sa kanya ? . Siguro si Evan ay may family na siya together with his wife and with his kids ! 

" sh*t "  hindi ko talagang mapigilan ang pagtulo ng aking luha . Ang daming what if kasi ang lumaabas sa isipan ko ! 

NO ! NO ! NO ! STOP THINKING BAD THINGS ! . Its good to know that Evan always come back early and its good to know that he always came home without delay .

YES ! THAT'S RIGHT ! THINK POSITIVE . Pagsubok lang to ! 

Fighting ! AJA ! THINK POSITIVE ! 

GRRRR 

arrgh ! sa kakaisip ko yan tuloy , gutom ka na ! 

" ay f*ck ! " nabigla naman ako ng biglang nag ring yung phone ko 

sh*t sino ba yung tumatawag ? . 

ring ! ring ! ring ! 

waaaah ang ingay ! bat ayaw nyang tumigil sa ka - karing ? Si Evan ba yung tumatawag ? Pero sa pagkaka alam ko may important meeting sila ngayon . 

" Arrgh , kainis "  ring ng ring eh ! 

Dali dali ko naman kinuha yung phone ko . 

" Sino batong tumatawag ? " 

I just answered my phone without looking the screen 

" yes ? hello ? " 

" Hi ! Good Morning , are you free right now ? "  nabigla nalang ako dahil siya pala yung tumatawag 

" Hello doctor lino , Im so sorry . Is there something wrong ? " I asked him and look at the screen . Si doctor Lino pala ang tumatawag 

" Im just asking if your free right now ? . I just asked your head nurse and it seems that your having a problem so you file a leave ? " 

ohh ! oo nga pala , yung head nurse lang pala yung sinabihan ko ng reason kung bakit ako nag request ng leave 

" ahh ! ehh "  

waah hindi ko alam kung anong isasagot ko dito ! pero ayaw ko naman maging rude sa kanya dahil kahit papaano , doctor parin siya sa pinagtrabahoan ko . Ayaw kung makagawa ng issue na makapahamak sa work ko 

" instead of weekend , how about ngayon nalang tayo magkita ? lets have a drink and lets talk your problem . Im free right now , my client cancelled the appointment " 

ngayon ? pero hindi pa kami bati ni Evan . Ayaw ko naman na mag isip siya ng kahit na ano sa akin 

" let's meet up this afternoon , lets have lunch together " 

" ehh ? wai----- " bigla niyang drinop yung call 

paano nato ? siguro mag te - text nalang ako kay Evan .

EVAN'S POV : 

" Just a matter of fact that our client want a personalized design , arent we on the process for the latest design ? " 

" NO ! Its appropriate to use the standard " 

" Arent we just doing what the client ask us ? " 

" We have to base it on our standard protocol " 

" we wi------ " 

Hindi ko nalang sila pinakinggan dahil useless naman yung usapan namin dito dahil in the end yung client paring yung masusunod , ayaw kung makisali sa usapan nila , wala ako gana mag work sa ngayon

* sigh *

" Mr. Evan , What do you think ?  " 

ehh ? walang pumasok kahit ni isa sa aking isip sa mga sinasabi nila 

" ahh ! I guess we just need to planned it out and we will discuss it to our head client " 

wait ? ano bang pinagsasabi ko ?

" okay , I will discuss this matter to him "  yun lang ang sabi ng head manager namin dito 

" dismissed " 

lutang parin yung isip ko , parang wala parin ako sa aking sarili .

" are you okay ? " insaktong paglabas ko sa room ay bumungad sa akin yung ka work mate ko na yung name ay Andrew 

" are you having a problem ? "  

I just nod at him and he just silent for a while

" actually yung usap usapan na tungkol sa iyo , I want to talk about it . If it  is okay with you ? " 

I just looked at him dahil na curious talaga ako sa usapang ito 

" Evan ? shall we eat lunch together ? I have something matter to discuss with you " 

nabigla nalang kami dahil biglang sumulpot si Miss Diane , kaya nagka tinginan kaming dalawa ni Andrew .

 I want to make an excuse but I dont want to be rude on her 

" Evan and I have something to talk ,  I mean we have important matter to discuss " 

" then ? can I join you guys ? " 

" ehh ! ahmmm ! its a boy's talk " 

nice job Andrew !  I will treat you later ! 

" Am I not allowed ? " 

paiiyak iyak niya tanong sa amin . 

" ahh ! "  hindi kami makasagot kasi pinipilit niyang ipagsisikan yung sarili niya sa usapan namin

" Miss Dianne ! the head manager want to talk to you " 

nice job Loisina ! 

" right now ? " tanong ni Miss Diane doon kay Loisina 

" yes , ASAP daw , sabi ni Sir " 

kaya walang nagawa si Miss Diane at umalis nalang siya . Nakita kung nag thumbs up si Loisina kay Andrew kaya nag thumbs up din si Andrew at sinabi niyang " thank you " ngumite lang si Loisina at saka siya umalis , sumunod siya kay Miss Diane , dahil nauna kasing umalis  si Miss Diane papuntang office .

Si Loisina kasi isa sa mga manager dito , siguro may importang discussion ata sila sa office ni Sir 

" close ata kayo ni Miss Loisina " sabi ko sa kanya pero tumatawa lang siya 

" lunch muna tayo at saka natin yan pag uusapan yung tungkol sa'yo " 

awkward ! hindi naman kasi kami masyadong close ni Andrew , parang yung normal lang na relationship as an employee yung magpansinan lang kapag nagkikita sa hallway , yung ganoon lang .

" hindi tayo magpapansinan dati but I just want to ask you a few question . Its fine if you wont answer me . So lets just talk it in private " I just nod at him and continue walking 

Naglalakad nalang kami palabas sa building . I wonder if nag take out ba si Ian ? . Ma text nga siya kung kumain na ba siya

ting ! ting !

ang billis ata niyang mag reply ? hindi ko inexpect yun ah ! . Akala ko hindi niya ako sasagutin 

"  Im eating outside together with someone " 

someone ? sinong someone yan ?  

ting ! 

hindi pa nga ako nagreply nag text ulit siya 

" Im eating lunch with one of the doctor in our hospital " 

ahh !  isa sa mga doctor na concern sa kanya . 

" I will call you after your out , dont mind me , just focus on your work ! . Take care " 

ahhm ! should I expect that we are fine ?. Based on his text , bumalik na sa normal yung convo ng text namin ,  pero walang I love you nga lang , pero okay lang naman . 

ting !  

Nag text ulit siya .

Ngumite ako ng napakalapad ,  Arggh ! Ian ! 

" honey me too "  I mumble to myself as I feel my heart beating so fast

Nagtaka naman si Andrew sa akin kasi feel ko namumutla ata ako

" ayos kalang ? "  I just nod at him and smile 

Ang laman kasi ng text niya ay "  lets talk about this matter  and Im sorry, lets solve this together . I love you " 

ting !

dali dali ko namang inopen yung message 

Arghhh Ian ! stop making my heart beat fast !

" I miss you ( with heart emoticon ) " 

IAN'S POV : 

" namumula ka ata ? "  

arrrrgrh ! bakit ko ba yung tinext sa kanya ? . Waaaah ! look ! hindi siya nag reply sa text ko huhuhuhu 

Im so sorry Evan for being a stupid boyfriend . I love you . I really miss you so much 

" waaaaah ! bakit ko ba yun na text sa kanya ? " 

hindi ko napansin na kusang gumalaw yung daliri ko at nag text sa kanya . 

" ahhm ? Are you okay Ian ? " 

" ahh  ! yes doc "  straight kung sabi sa kanya

" kanina kapa tingin ng tingin sa phone mo " 

" ahh ! ehh ! no , I mean ahhm " 

bigla nalang siyang napatawa . . wahhh ! 

" do you mind if we will have a few drinks ? " 

hmm ! sabi ni Evan mag ea - early out daw siya ngayon pero okay lang naman siguro kung iinom ako kahit kunti lang ?  

" you can tell me your problem , Im doctor a doctor remember ? " 

okay lang naman siguro na mag share sa kanya ? 

" you can tell your lover your location if you want  " 

mag te - text nalang siguro ako kay Evan para safe , ayaw ko kasing lumaki pa yung problema namin . 

At isa pa , I know to myself na may sala din ako kasi ayaw kung makinig or ayaw kung makipag usap sa kanya , kung baga't mataas yung pride ko talaga .

" ahhm sure doc "

" you can call me with my name Lino , pls drop the doctor formalities . Kapag tayo tayo lang gusto ko name ko yung itatawag mo " ngumite naman siya sa akin kaya sumang ayon nalang ako sa kanya

" errr ! ahmm Do - - " lumingon siya sa akin at ngumite at sinabi niyang " pls call me by my name " 

" ahm ! Li - Li - Lin - Lino " nahihiyang sabi ko sa kanya , waaaah ! hindi ako sanay ng informalities kapag doctor yung kausap ko .

" yes ? " 

" where shall we go to drinks ? " 

nag iisip naman siya saglit saka siya tumingin sa phone niya 

" wait let me check " 

may hinahanap siyang open bar sa phone niya 

" ahh ! alam ko na , dito nalang tayo . KTV Family Bar "

KTV Family bar ? so it means yung mag rent lang kami ng parang room per hour , yun ba yun ? 

" mag rent tayo ng room may special offer ata sila dito , oh di kaya'y gusto mo sa iba nalang ? " 

" Im not quite familiar with any bar , sorry po " 

hindi kasi ako pamilyar sa ganyang bagay kasi in my previous work ( brothel ) , dretso kasi yung mga customer ko sa mga hotel / motel .  Minsan naman doon kami sa bar na napaka wild talaga kung saan yung iba is nakahubad na sa harap , pero yung mga KTV bar or yung mga family bar which is mag re rent daw per hour , hindi ako kabisado doon eh !

"  then how about this bar ? " 

saka niya pinakita yung door ng bar sa akin na may nakalagay na OPEN HOURS : 3PM  - 6AM . 

Is this legal or not ?

" are you sure ? " I asked him but he just smiled at me 

" can I know the location ? "   I asked him kasi kailangan ko itext si Evan sa location . 

" I will pin you the address then lets go after  " 

so magpapalipas oras kami dito ? hanggang 3 pm 

" okay ,  thank you " 

EVAN'S POV : 

" I know this question was kinda stupid but I will just ask you incase " 

tumango nalang ako sa kanya bilang pagsan ayon

" Ahmm , Is it true that you are living together with your partner ? " 

parang kinabahan ata siya sa tanong niya . Ayaw ko naman magsinungaling kaya , its better to tell them the truth 

" yes , Is there's something wrong ? " 

I asked him and look at him in the eye 

" don't get me wrong , Im just asking because of the rumor " he intertwined his finger and take a sigh 

" o - okay "  yun lang ang nasagot ko sa kanya 

" it is a Man right ? your partner ? "  

Nakikita ko talaga na kinabahan siya sa kanyang tinanong and gaya ng sinabi ko , I dont want to lie to him or to anyone so its better to tell them the truth and Its up to them if they will judge me or not .

" Yes ! he is a guy and Im living with him for seven years " I really took pride with my words 

I am proud with my man . I am so proud with him . As I really care for him as I love him as a Man

" Are you Prejudice to someone like me ? " I asked him without hesitation but he just look at me and sincerely said 

" No ! , I dont see any problem with that "  He told me looking at my eye and he sip his coffee 

" your lover is the one who making a ruckus outside the building right , with Miss Diane ? " 

" Yes ! " I answered him truthfully

" I see " 

a few minutes of silence until he speak again

" Actually , usap usapan na kasi yan ever since the ruckus start and it seems that someone telling a story to everyone " 

" I dont care with them , I dont need their opinion I just want an acceptance " 

a few minutes of silence again before he took a courage to speak again

" did you love him ? " 

I looked at him and he just looking at me seriosly so I took a courage and told him 

" Yes I really do love him , we might be undestined because of our gender but I do believe that fate bring us together . He is the missing piece that complete my life " 

 I smiled at him and biglang bumalik yung flasback sa aming dalawa ni Ian , mga araw na magkasama kami mga araw na wala kaming ginagawa kung hindi ay nakatunganga lang sa higaan . Cuddle each other 

napangiti nalang ako bigla 

" We just need an acceptance . Both of my families was already know of our relationship and we are open of each other . Minsan nag a - away kami but we still believe that it all happens with a reason " 

" It's good to know that both your family accepted your relationship , dahil bihira lang yung family na  nag a-accept ng ganyan "  parang ang lalim ata ng words niya dito 

" thank you " I sincerely thank him 

" anyway ngayon alam ko na yung totoo so dont worry dahil ako ang bahala diyan "  proud niyang sabi sa akin sabay tawa 

" ehh ? anong gagawin mo ? "  I asked him curiously 

" lets tell everyone the truth " nag smile siya sa akin saka nag thumbs up 

" okay ? " 

napa isip naman ako sa sinabi niya 

" Is it really okay ? " I seriously asked him 

" no worry ! no worry ~ let me handle this one " 

this guy is a kind hearted man 

" I dont think there's a reason , why you want to help me " 

anong mapapala niya kapag tinulungan niya ako ? I really cant understand his words and actions , athough I know deep down in my heart that he is a trustworthy and a kind friend

" actually kasi , I have a little brother who's 22 years old and he is a college student . Well to make the story short we found that he is a gay " 

nag pause muna siya saglit at saka siya uminom ng kape , nakikinig lang ako sa kanya saka hinintay yung sasabihin niya 

" lately lang namin nalang noong last few months , nakita namin siya na may kahalikan na lalaki . We asked him the truth and he tell us the truth . My father was really furious , dahil sa galit ng tatay namin biglang inataki siya sa puso kaya tumawag kami ng ambulansya " 

nag pause ulit siya saglit saka siya kumuha ng isang slice ng cake at kumain

" my little brother could not believe what he saw so he started blaming himself and saka siya umalis ng bahay " 

I interrupt him for a minute and ask him  " Is your father okay right now ? "  

tumango naman siya saka ngumite

" okay naman siya ngayon but still nasa hospital parin siya while yung kapatid ko ay naglayas na , hindi namin siya pinaalis kusa siyang umalis ng bahay " 

" saan siya nakatira ngayon ? "  I asked him again

" actually noong umalis siya ng bahay , I just found him sitting outside at my apartment . He was crying so I just told him to go back to house and apologize to father but he dont wanna go back . Pinilit ko siyang tumira muna sa apartment ko pero ayaw niya kasi kaya wala akong nagawa kaya binigyan ko siya ng sarili niyang apartment which is ako yung nagbabayad every month . He have allowance because my parents didnt cut his allowance . Even though ganyan siya he was still my little brother and then last month he seek for my advice because he fell inlove with this guy . I just told him , its fine to fall inlove , but the problem is " 

nag pause ulit siya saka guminhawa * inhale * * exhale * . 

" this guy was 31 years old , ka age kulang ! " napa facepalm naman siya kaya napatawa nalang ako sa sinabi niya 

" dude ~ imagine 22 yung bunso ko at 31 yung guy . Nine years yung gap nila " 

" I think age doesnt matter on this days "  patawang kung sabi sa kanya

" I have no problem with him , having a relationship with the same s*x , but the problem here is the huge gap . My little brother was still studying while this guy was working " bigla naman siya napafacepalm ulit at saka sumigaw 

" If they love each other , I think okay naman siguro " 

" that's it ! that's the main problem " 

napabigla naman ako dahil bigla siyang sumisigaw . Akala ko ba yung age yung problem dito ? 

" one sided lang , I have a feelings that he was just messing or playing with my cute little brother ! . One sided lang dude , dahil yung bunso ko ang may gusto while yung lalaki naman ay wala ! as in walang wala ! waaaaaaah ! my poor little brother huhuhuhu "

hindi ko alam kung maawa ako nito or matatawa sa reaction niya ? 

" If this guy was working so it means your little brother's future was secure right ? " 

" dude ? are you listening to me ? one sided nga lang diba ? hindi natin alam , baka straight siya or may family na siya or may anak na siya or may asawa na siya ? ! waaaah my poor little brother his heart was been playing " nag hestirical na talaga siya

" what's  this guy's work ? maybe we can investigate him if he was just toying your little brother or not ? " 

I suggest him to investigate , baka malay natin hindi pala one sided 

" this guy working as a doctor " 

doctor ? maganda naman pala yung work niya 

" maybe I can help because Ian was working as a Nurse , maybe we can ask him if he know this doctor ? " 

bigla namang nag ningning yung mukha niya 

" really ? your a nice guy "  he told me with a twinkling eyes

" no worries " I just smiled at him

" yeey ! thank you . Im starting watching my brother's movement recently " 

parang stalker lang ? 

" Is that the reason why you are willing to help me because of your brother  ? " 

He just looked at me and smile

"  Maybe that is one of the reason but the main reason is I really want to understand my brother , it seems that he thinks that we didnt understand him nor acccept him . I just want to understand why my brother become that way and why did he fall to a man . I want to know nor to learn about him and about that way . I want to tell my parents and explain them properly . Im thinking that maybe you can help me to fully understand him . Im seeking your advice on what to do so I can advice him properly as well cause he was still a kid " 

" I can help you . If there's a question you can just ask me directly " 

He smiled at me . He really love his brother . 

" no matter what happened he was still my cute little brother "  

I nod and smiled at him 

" anyway Mr.Evan , I will talk this matter to everyone and its better that it was come out from your mouth the truth or the whole story . I can arrange a discussion " 

" you can drop the formalities and you can just call me Evan "

  I just told him and smiled earnestly . Im really thankful for him . 

" and it seems that I have an idea where this rumor came from " he said while looking at me seriously 

IAN'S POV : 

" I see ! , maybe it's just a misunderstanding " 

I told him the truth and medyo tipsy na ata ako sa iniinom ko . I didnt know that Doctor Lino is a bisexual he go to a girl and he go to a boy and right now we are here in a Gay Bar 

" hey ? are free tonight ?  " narinig ko yung sinabi nong isang lalaki saka umupo sa lap ni Doc 

" sorry ~ darling but its a no for tonight " 

arrghh ! medyo nahihilo na ata ako sa kakainom dito , matawagan nga si Evan 

" Do -- I mean Lino , can we go now ? " I asked him because Im really  feeling weird right now . 

Just a few drinks and I will become drunk . 

" hey ~ you okay ? " I just feel someone beside me 

" he is with me " I clearly heard Doctor Lino said to the guy kaya biglang umalis yung lalaki 

" let me help you " I just nod at him at saka niya ako inalayang lumabas ng bar .

Sh*t 7 pm na pala , lagot ako nito kay Evan 

" what is it ? " 

kinakapa kapa ko kasi yung phone ko dahil gusto kung tawagan si Evan 

" my phone "  I told him but I suddenly p**e beside him

" woaah ~ you okay ? let me help you " he offer to me but I just wave my hands and told him its okay

" he will be here " I told him but I suddenly stumble myself kaya bigla akong napayakap sa kanya 

" just hold  tight "  

I didnt know what happened but I have no strength left for me . 

" lets find a taxi " 

I cant answer him cause I dont have strength anymore so I just nod at him , suddenly I feel someone grabbing my hand forcefully 

" ah ! E - Evan ? " 

sh*t nawala ata yung pagkalasing ko , namutla ako at bumilog yung mata ko

" E - E - Evan ? " I looked at him while he was looking furiously with doctor Lino , I can feel an anger at his eyes

" I - I - I can explain , hey Evan ! honey " I tried hugging his back he really picking a fight with a doctor 

sh*t  ! nawala yung pagkalasing ko ata , parang natauhan ako bigla 

" nee ~ honey ~ honey , le - let's go home , honey ? " I really tried to calm him down . I cupped his face tod him to calm down

" thank you doctor " I just bow at him but doctor look at me and smile

" ahhh Stupid p*****t ! "   may biglang sumigaw at tumakbo papunta sa amin saka siya yumakap kay doctor Lino . Students ? nakasuot pa kasi siya ng uniform niya 

" kid ! stop pulling "  doctor lino tried to escape with the kid

" hey ! you " sabay turo niya sa akin 

" ye - yes ? "  

"  Lino and I have have a re ----- " hindi niya natuloy ang kanyang sasabihan bigla kasing tinakpan ni doctor lino ang bibig niya

" ha ha ha ha ha so - sorry Ian , lets talk about this sometimes hehehe "   

anim na haha yung tawa niya , binilang ko talaga

" ye - yeah sure , ahhm o - okay ?  " I dont know what to response 

" you ! Lino and I a -- - - - -  blah  - - brrrr !  "  tinakpan ullit ni Doctor Lino yung bibig niya kaya hindi ko na masyado naintindihan yung sinabi niya

" then bye Ian , we will go na hehehe " Doctor LIno just wave at me habang hinihila niya yung kasama niya paalis 

" o - okay , bye " I just wave at him 

" IAN ! " 

eeek ! napatalon naman ako bigla 

" E - evan ! hehehe ho - honey "  I hugged him so much 

ahhh how I miss this guy !

" IAN ? EXPLAIN ! "  

waaaaah ! galit na po siya sa akin huhuhu :(

" we - wer'e just having a few drinks , that's all . I swear ! " 

hmp ! why should I explain nga pala ??

"  Diba't dapat ikaw yung mag e - explain ? " 

I gasped for a moment . OMG ! nasabi ko talaga yun sa kanya . 

Tinignan niya lang ako for a minute then saka niya ako hinila 

" let's go home ! "  he grabbed my hand and force me to follow him .

I just follow him silently and I saw our car that was park 

" you use the car to get here ? "  hindi siya sumagot sa akin 

" get inside "  mahinahon niyang sabi sa akin kaya sumunod nalang ako . 

dug ! dug ! dug ! 

kinabahan ata ako nito ! jusko !

" wer'e just talking and have a few drinks "  I told him repeatedly but he just quiet 

" when I got back , your'e not at home so I just use the car to fetch you "  

Tahimik lamang kami sa loob walang nagsalita sa amin ni isa .  Nagmamaneho habang ako nasa front seat , tahimik lang din . 

After a minutes nakarating narin kami sa parking lot na tinitirhan namin . Walang nagsalita parin kahit ni isa sa amin .

He parked the car and as soon as I grabbed the front door so I can get out on the car , he just grabbed my hand 

" E - evan , nasasaktan ako "   ang sakit naman kasi . 

Hinila niya ako at saka yinakap ng napaka higpit 

" I  - I cant breathe ! "  

" Ian ~ Dont you love me anymore ? " I feel a pained on his eyes .

" what are you saying ? "  but he didnt answer me , instead yumuko lang siya at parang maiiyak na siya sa nangyari . 

I cupped his face and face it towards me and I kiss his lips and hugged him tightly 

" stupid ! I really love you so much Evan Tian Bloodfallen "  I hugged him so tightly and he started sobbing . Na fe - feel ko yung luha niyang tumutulo

" hey ~ look at me " I cupped his face 

" I Love You honey "  at saka ko pinahiran ang kanyang luha 

" Me too , I love you so much honey * sob * " 

ohhh ! how cute ! 

" There's no one else beside you , okay ? " I tried to stop him from crying 

" why are you meeting with that guy ? " he asked me while looking at my eye 

" nothing much , you dont have to worry . okay ? " I want to make him reassure that nothing happened between me and that doctor 

" okay ? "  he just nod at me and hugged me tightly 

"  do you any question from me ? "  tanong niya sa akin habang nakayakap parin ako sa kanya

" nope , I truly believe in you " 

" nothing happened with me and the girl . Im so sorry for what happened and Im sorry for what Im done "  he sincerely apologized for everything what happened 

" me too , Im sorry for acting so childish " 

" No ! your not acting childish . I deserved for what happened to me " 

pfft ~ napatawa naman ako bigl sa kanya 

" hahaha Ian naman eh ! nag sosory na nga ako hahaha " I just laughed at him 

I want to make him laugh dahil ang seryuso kasi namin ngayon 

" Ian " 

" hmm ? " 

naramdaman ko nalang yung kamay niya na gumagapang sa likuran ko 

" ahh ~ " 

" honey ~ I really love you so much " and he kiss me torridly 

" hmm "  I started moaning dahil na fe feel ko kasi yung kamay niya na pilit pinasok niya sa pantalon 

" ahh ~ "  napasigaw nalang ako dahil unti unti niya pinasadahan ng kanyang daliri ang aking brief 

" can you suck my this " He point his finger 

" hmm ~ "  tumango naman ako 

I started licking his fingers and I tried to climb at him 

" let me push the seat at the back "  

sh*t ! s*x at the car was so much intense 

" ohh ~ " 

pilit niyang hinubad ang aking pantalon kasama na yung boxer at brief ko . Im still sucking his fingers while I tried to unbotton his shirt and unzip his pants while climbing at him .

Sh*t ! I can feel his D*ck got erect 

" ohhh ~ honey " I pushed him slowly to his seat . I stopped sucking his fingers for a while and I started giving a massage to his c*ck .

" ohhh ~ ahh ~ " mahina niyang unggol 

f*ck bat biglang lumalaki yung sa kanya ? . Just how horny was he ? 

" honey ~ what are you doing ? " 

I bend at him so ang nangyari yung position namin ay naging 69 

" ahh ~ hmm ~ " napa ungol ulit siya sa ginawa ko . Dahan dahan kung mina mast*rbat* yung t*t* niya hanggang sa may lumabas na pre c*m . 

" ohhh ~ "  I suddenly moan 

sh*t  ! na fe - feel ko si  Evan na dinidilaan niya yung t*t* ko hanggang sa may pre c*m na lumabas 

" fck ! ohh " napasigaw nalang ako bigla dahil bigla niyang sinubo ang sa akin 

" honey shh ~ " he stopped his doing and sinabihan ako na hinaan ko daw yung boses ko 

Evan naman eh ! 

" hey , your'e stopping "  sabi niya sa akin kaya I started licking his c*ck and started giving him a bl*wj*b kaya napa ungol naman siya saka ko na feel yung kamay niya hinila ang buhok ko saka niya pinush ito sa kanya . 

I deep throat his c*ck , I feel pleasure between our moan . I can feel his tongue licking at my assh*le and he tried to insert on it . He gives me pleasure , I feel hot and I feel like in a cloud , he was gentle to make sure that I wont hurt . 

" ahhh ~ "  I can feel his finger tried to insert on h*e and I gasped for a minute . I feel his finger was inside of me 

" honey ~ are you okay ? " tumango naman ako sa kanya na ibig sabihin ay continue kaya ininsert niya ulit yung daliri niya sa akin at na fe-feel ko na dalawang daliri na ang nakapasok sa akin . 

Patuloy parin ako sa ginagawa ko . I s*cked and licked him 

" honey ~ come at me "  so I stopped for a while and look at him 

Tumayo ako habang nakayuko dahil nasa loob kami ng sasakyan kaya kailangan ko pang yumuko saglit . 

" honey ~  " he started moaning again 

Yumuko ako saglit saka ko iniba yung positiion namin kaya ang nangyari nakapatong ako sa kanya . Yinakap ko siya ng mahigpit at saka kami naghahalikan ulit .

Tinignan ko ang sa labas pero ang tahimik walang sasakyan or taong dumadaan , maririnig molang yung unggol namin at yung tunog ng ari namin na nagkadikit . I started moving my hips whie our c*ck was sticking together and I can feel his manhood rubbing mine . I move my hips while our c*ck was rubbing each other .

Naramdaman ko na unti unting pinasok ng kanyang daliri ang aking loob kaya napasigaw ako  bigla pero dali dali niyang hinalikan ng maigi , french kiss and he started moving his hips as well . 

We rubbed each other and I moving my hips while his finger was inside of me 

" ahh ~ ohh~ ahhh ~ honeeey ~ ahh " 

" hhhhm ~ evaaaan ~honey ~ I ahh ~ laaaav yaaah ~ ahh " 

Naramdaman kung biglang lumaki ulit yung sa kanya .

Sh*t gaano ba kalaki itong sa kanya  ? 

" honey ? can I put it in ? " he asked between our kisses 

" nope ! let me ride you honey ~ "  I lick my lips and smile at him in a seductive look

I started hopping at his manhood , dahan dahan kung pinasok yung sa kanya sa akin hanggang sa mapasok na yung kabouhan niya . Naramdaman kung biglang lumaki yung t*t* niya sa loob kaya napasigaw ulit ako dahil sa sarap ng naramdaman ko 

" feels good ~ ahh ~ " 

He grabbed my face and started kissing . I can see our saliva dripping each other . I tried to sucked his tongue .

" hold tight honey "  I hold him so tight as I can feel him thrust his inside deep into me 

" AHHHH ~ "  

he started inside and out . Bigla akong nilabasan pero patuloy parin siya sa kanyang ginawa . 

" honey Im c*mming ~ ahhh ~ "  I can feel c*m inside of my belly 

Kinapos kami sa hininga and I feel weak for a moment

" ahh ~ ha ~ ha ~~ " I feel tired 

ehh ? honey ? 

"wa - wait Evaaaan ! " he suddenly thrust his c*ck inside of me . * inside * * out * 

ah ~ ah ~ ha ~ 

It's too deep sh*t ! and he suddeny burst his c*m inside 

" ha ~ ha ~ ha ~ "  I really tired but he suddenly whisper at my ear

" I need another round " he smiled at me deviously kaya napa nga nga nalang ako . 

sh*t I forgot , this guy wont stop in 2 or 3 rounds f*ck !

" ahhhhhh ~ "  he suddenly thrust his c*ck inside of me 

" F*CK YOU EVAN  AND I LOVE YOU HONEY ! AHHHH ~ " I shouted at him but he suddenly kiss me torridly 

===  next morning ==== 

napamulat nalang ako , sh*t nakatulog pala kami dito sa loob ng sasakyan . Same parin yung position namin nakapatong parin ako sa kanya . Na feel ko yung kamay niya na nakahawak sa likuran ko . Nakayakap siya ng mahigpit sa akin . 

" wake up honey ~ " I pinch his nose so he blink his eyes for a while and looked at me 

"  good morning honey " he smiled at me at yinakap ulit ako ng napakahigpit

"  hahahahaha what is it ? good morning "  I kissed his forehead

"  lets go inside until it calm down " 

ohh ~ p*****t ng taong to ! hahahahaha

" are you still angry at me ? " 

" nope ! I love you Evan , dont do that again ! "  

"  I love you too Ian , Im so sorry for everything " 

I just smiled at him . Our precious moments and unforgettable days was really hold dear to use , as it hold our connection not a friends nor a lover but a family 

" I will process to enter your name in my family so we can change your last name  "

 I just looked at him with a shock face . OMG ! 

" let's get married Ian , I already save enough money for these seven years " 

I cant utter a single words ! I cant believe it , akala ko ako lang ang nag iisip ng ganito . I cant stop my tears 

" honey ? can I get your answer ? say , Ever since we buy a ring ang engage each other . I seriously think of it . Getting engage and married each other . Lets get married in my birthplace . Lets have a beach wedding in Spain . I already asked someone to prepare everything . I already talked this to my family " 

I cant say any words from him . His birthplace was in Macedonia Spain  , his grandparents from his father side was living on spain. 

My happiness , our dream . I cant believe it he already planned this all along . He really surprised me .

" If you want we can start a business in their , I have enough savings for both of us "  

" waaaaah huhuhu Evaaaaaan huhuhu honey ~ Thank you ! thank you ! I love you so much " 

" ahhm ? should I interpret it as a yes ? " 

" hmmm huhuhuhu yes ! evaaan huhuhu " I nod at him while sobbing , I cant stop my tears . 

" I already planned on this for many years . Honey your'e important to me , your'e my everything . I love you so much " 

I seal our kiss , our vow kiss .