Undestined

Chapter 3

IAN's POV : 

I looked at the time and it's aready four o'clock he hasn't come yet . I looked around and here I saw him running towards me

"sorry! Sorry!" I heard him shout as he ran towards me

"my alarm went off, sorry" he said breathlessly then took oxygen first

hahahaha ang cu-cute niyang tignan talaga

"okay lang" tipid kung sabi sa kanya but deep inside kinikilig talaga ako nemen ehh! Oopppssss!

"let's go" he held out his hand to me

BRILLIANT PARK

We walked around and wherever our feet take us we stop . Earlier we went to the horror house then to the Ferris wheel then we watched the theater

"Let's rest first" he invited me and we just sat in the chair. I looked at the time and it was almost seven o'clock

"Do you want to eat first?" I nod at him

We just sat for a while then stood up again to eat

BRILLIANT PARK RESTAURANT

I saw a sign briliant park restaurant hanging on the door 

"Are you okay here?" he asked me

"yup!" I said to him as we went inside

"Hi sir! two seats?" The waitress asked

"yes please" he said to the waitress and followed the woman.  I just walked quietly then looked around

"here's the menu sir" the woman gave us 

"thank you" 

"what do you want?" he asked me as he looked at the menus

" ahm " f*ta ang mahal ng mga pagkain dito ! Hindi kasya ng pera ko!

wah naman eh!  naubos na kasi sa kalalaro namin ng kahit ano kanina, kainis naman kakahiya naman ohh , ako yung nagyaya tapos wala pala akung dinalang extra ehh ubos na kasi yung pera ko wah

" ah " hindi muna ako nagsalita sh*t naman ehhh !

" order whatever you want , its my treat " tinawag niya muna yung babae kanina

" yes sir ? " tanong ng babae

" I want this and this and this " saka niya tinuturo ang nasa menu

" was card accepted here ? " tanong niya doon sa babae

" yes sir "

" saka kunin mo din kung anong order niya " naka ngiti niyang sabi sa akin

kahiya naman !

" order whatever you like and beside ikaw yung nanglibre kanina " tinignan ko lang siya saka ako nag order ng kahit na ano

" do you want large float or regular float ? "

" ahm " sh*t naman ehh ang mahal kaya ng float nila dito

" 1 large float and 1 regular float please " sabi niya doon sa babae

" yes sir , please allow us to a coupe of minutes  " umalis naman yung babae

what the heck ! Panigurado aabutin ng libo ang pagkain namin

" ahm sorry but short kasi ako sa pera " bulong kung sabi sa kanya

" ha ? Pera ? Bakit ? Short ba yung budget mo ? Wait " saka naman siya kumuha sa kanyang pitaka

Sa mga customer ko , isang malapad na ngiti na yung pinakita ko sa kanila pero sa kanya argh naman ehh kakahiya !

" no ! no ! Hindi panaman ako short hehe sa ngayon ! " binulong ko nalang yung last part na sinabi ko

" just tell me if you need money " binalik niya lang ulit yung pitaka sa kanyang bulsa

Dont please ! I already fall on you . I dont want to be hurt , sa pinapakita mo ngayon sa akin baka bibigyan ko ng ibang meaning yan

" here's your order sir " nabigla naman ako ng dumating yung babaeng may dalang mga order namin, woahh ang bilis yata ? Wala pang sampung minuto 

" yan lang po ba lahat ? "

" yes thank you " at umalis naman yung babae

" let's eat "

Tahimik kaming kumakain habang fini feel ko ang sarap ng pagkain , aba't minsan lang to dahil yung iba kung customer hindi ako dinadala sa mga ganitong klaseng restaurtant.

Bigla ko naman naisip yung nangyari sa skwelahan nong time na may nangyari sa amin sa gilid ng CR

" stop thinking " I shake my head

" what ? Are you ok ? Do you want something ? Should I call them ? " sunod sunod niyang tanong sa akin but I just shake my head as I sign of no

" let's just eat ok ! " kumain ulit kami ng tahimik saka nag u - usap ng kung ano ano habang tumatawa , masasabi mong parang boyfriend ko na talaga siya dahil siya yung nanglibre ng pagkain sa amin and he was so gentle and kind to me , if it is continue . I will really think that he likes me

" just wait here " tumayo muna siya saglit at pumunta sa counter , tinapos ko nalang yung pagkain ko saka siya hinintay bumalik

After ilang minuto bumalik agad siya na may dalang resibo , inilagay niya muna saglit yung resibo sa gilid saka siya uminom ng juice

" so ? After this , saan tayo pupunta ? " tanong niya sa akin habang umiinom

" I dont know maybe , watched fireworks ? " I intertwined my fingers hoping that he will agree

" fireworks ? Hm ? " nag iisip muna siya saglit

" sure ! " sabi niya sa akin kaya napangiti nalang ako sa kanya . Pagkatapos naming kumain lumabas naman kami . I looked at him and smiled bitterly . Im hoping that these kind of things was true.

" Ian ? " napahinto naman kami ng may tumawag sa pangalan ko . Familiar yung boses kaya napalingon ako gilid . My face shocked as I see him . 

" Se-se-sen-senso " nauutal kung sabi

sh*t bat ngayon pa ? tinignan ko siya na may kasamang babae

" long time no see ! " saka siya humarap sa akin , hindi ako makatingin sa kanya

" hey " rinig kung sabi ni Evan saka naman ako tumingin sa kanya pero kay Evan lang ako tumingin hindi doon sa gag*

" woaahh ! Dude ! Calm down , its been a long time since we parted , right ? " He smiled at me teasingly with a smirk . I don't know what to say so I nod at him as a sign of agree

" babe ? Who is he ? "

" nah ! My junior in high school " at tumawa naman siya na mag kahulugan . I grin my teeth and looked below hoping he will go already . 

" or maybe something else , right ? " yumuko nalang ako saka bumalik sa akin ang ala ala noong high school palang ako

Back in high school I fall in love to a girl nor a boy like I said Im a Bisexua , yung first relation ko kasi ay babae but not after ilang months nagkahiwalay kami.  I was devastated and hopeless on that time and that's how I meet him my Senior who's name is Senso at first akala ko idolized lang na parang sikat na artista pero mali pala ako dahil iba na pala to, my heart skip and my heart beat everytime I saw him . 

I confess my feelings to him and he just nod and smiled and say that the likes me as well akala ko okay na masaya na, siya yung nakauna sa akin well except doon sa babae akala ko totoo na yung feelings niya pero mali pala

" pffttt dude why should I go with him ? " yan ang unang narinig ko sa kanya akala ko joke niya lang yung pero mali pala ,  then in just a snapped a video about me having s*x with a man was scattered around the campus of course ako lang yung nasa video kasi naalala ko pa noon na siya yung nag video sa akin habang tinitira niya ako sa likud. 

Simula noon parati na ako binubully nila parang pinagtawanan na nila yung pagkatao ko kumalat yung video at nalaman ng family ko pero yung akala ko sila yung iintindi sa akin mali pala ako dahil tinakwil nila ako sa  bahay at doon ako namumuhay ng mag isa . 

Mga ilang months din yun saka ko naisip na maghanap ng trabaho at doon nagsimula ang lahat. 

Nagtratrabaho ako sa brothel bilang male p********e, hindi naman sa pinagmalaki marami namang customer ang gustong kumuha sa akin . My life was shattered into pieces gusto ko sanang mag stop sa pag aaral pero pinigilan ako nga mga kasamahan ko sa trabaho they say they will help me with my studies and school fees and that's how I feel loved with them , loved as a family they even treat me as a family, yung madam namin yung nagbabayad ng half sa tuition ko while yung half naman ay sa akin while my school projects sila yung mga kasamahan ko ang nag ambag ambag sa gastosin , kaya ngayong 3rd year na ako ayaw ko paring umalis sa aking trabaho at pinagpatuloy ko parin ang pag aaral ko.

Nabigla ako ng bigla akong tapikin ni Evan

" are you okay ? " tanong niya sa akin saka kulang siya tinignan

" babe lets go "

"bye! See yah" then he winked at me . 

 I heard Evan hissed and say  "Bastard!"

Why is he here ? When everything was already okay he suddenly came!

"I think i will go now " I told him as I walked slowly

"wait" I heard him shout my namebut I didn't bother looking at him as I feel ashame of my past 

sh * t" suddenly my tears fall down by its own . I left quickly and run as fast . 

no! No! I don't want Evan to know everything that happened to me! It's okay that he knows I work in the brothel but don't let him know the embarrassments I experience in life .