Can The Caged Bird Sing?

Chapter 2 New Friend

---Evelyn's POV---

The day that I was born was the hardest moment for my whole family. Setting the scene to the rest of my life of torture and hatred. I know I would be mad if my mother was killed by someone too.. but I didn't mean to and never wanted this so I just don't understand how they can still blame me to this day about something I had no control over as a baby.

I have never even had a chance to meet my mother but always craved for some type of motherly companion just to help me through so many hard times.. but as the song goes, you can't always get what you want.

So the torment and torture I have endured from my family won't stop until I'm gone from this place.. but as of right now I have no where to go and no money to leave with if I even wanted to.. I work hard every single day from morning until night.. but I don't get paid one penny for my work.. My father says I owe it to him and my brothers for taking my mother away, because this is a debt that can never be repaid.

I just give in to his demands so I won't have to pay the wrath of his fury filled fists.. I just work all day cleaning the pack house and doing everything a maid would do, for everyone who lives here.. which is a lot of people.

But as long as the people here leave me alone to do my job then I guess I don't care.. but that never really happened hence all the bruises and wounds I have trying to heal on my body. But I feel numb at this point after so many years of abuse and malnourishment.. nothing fazes me anymore.. I'm just a shell of a person in this world.. because anyone who could have helped me has thrown that in my face and the only people I wanted, destroyed that moment for me as well. So I won't trust nor believe anything anyone has to say except for Myra of course.

My pessimistic ways were created by them all.. But for so many years I still held onto the idea of a mate saving me from this hell hole like the princess I thought I was, young and naive.

But my goddess given mate threw that out real quick.. On my 16th birthday.. the day that means so much to many of us wolves because that's the day we finally get to shift and hopefully find our mate with our new found senses.. I of course never got a birthday party.. not even one birthday praise from anyone around but I never expected one either.. I was realistic with myself.. I just wanted to find that one person who would save me from all of this torment.. to finally give me the love that I craved.. but I guess that was too much to ask from the moon goddess.

I remember that night as if it was yesterday.. it was very long day like any other.. I had been cooking and cleaning all day, like I always do. I went through the whole day without even knowing what day it really was because they all seem to just blurr together.. I had actually forgot it was my birthday until I hear the most enthusiastic voice saying, "Happy birthday my beautiful other half! Are you excited to try to shift for the first time because it is coming and fast.. I can feel it.. whether you're ready or not!"

"Who is there?!" I ask with panic looking all around me wondering who is messing with me because no one talks with me like this.

"Oh I'm so sorry I got so excited! I forgot to introduce myself.. I'm Myra.. your wolf!" She says with so much excitement to me in the most soothing tone, that it causes me to smile even if it's just for a moment.

"My wolf?" I ask outloud as she giggles at me. "You don't have to talk outloud to talk with me.. you can just speak to me with your mind and I will hear everything you have to say... I have been apart of you for a while but since you're so close to shifting for your first time.. I can finally talk to you!" She explains to me shocking me completely.

"Wait did you just say shifting.." I say outloud remembering what she just said to instruct me, so I try thinking the rest of the comment in my mind in hopes she really can hear me. "Did you say I'm close to shifting for my first time?"

Myra answers without hesitation.. "Yes girl you are so close it's not even funny! We need to get those senses going so I can get out of here and help us find our mate! Maybe he can take us away from this hell hole." She explains further for me as confusion is probably evident across my face at this point.

I put the rest of the dishes away in the cabinet, after cleaning them.. "How do you know about my life?" I ask her just wondering how much she knows and what she wants to know.. since this is new for the both of us I'm assuming.

"Evee.. I have been with you since the day you were brought into this world.. the torment and torture you endured, was with me as well. I felt every last hit, kick and slander that was sent your way.. I know what you have been put through and how much you deserve something better... no judgment here.. I just want what's best for you." Myra explains to me so honestly and empathetically that I'm slightly mortified knowing she knows about everything... but also in a sense relieved to have someone to talk to now that understands where I'm coming from and what I have been through.. so in this moment I don't feel so alone.

"Thanks Myra.. I have to finish up the laundry or I will get in trouble.. but then we can do this shifting thing after.." I change the subject about my shitty life in hopes she will just take my lead going along with the new subject.

"That's not how it works Evee.. it happens when it's ready to and you need to prepare because it's about to happen." She explains to me freaking me out a little with the concern that's riddled in her voice.

"So what do I do to prepare then?" I ask as I step down the many stairs headed for the laundry room to finish up what I have started. "I.. don't know.." She bluntly replies as I scoff at that.

"You're a wolf and you don't know what we need to do to shift?" I ask her with probably too much sass in my words but for some reason my hormones are running a little rampant at the moment.. feeling a little uncontrollable.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have snapped I just feel a little irritable for some reason.. I feel like I might be getting sick actually." I reply sympathetically to her.. not trying to piss off my only friend.

"It's ok I know what you mean though.. I'm feeling overwhelmingly hot.. like I could throw up but like I want to jump in a pool of ice.. I don't know what's happening.." She replies with more panic in her voice.. but if she doesn't know what's happening and I don't either.. then who am I suppose to talk to about this?

I keep descending the stairs just trying to get off of them since I'm starting to feel dizzy now. I make it all the way down to the laundry room.. But that doesn't help because my senses are getting heightened.. so I can smell the mossy mold scents of the dampened room along with the overwhelmingly strong scents of the soap that fills my senses as if it's being poured onto me. Then the overpowering smells of dirty clothing fills my noses making me want to throw up now more than ever.

I have to hold my breath to not smell the disgusting scents that fill this room.. but the more I hold my breath the dizzier I get.. It's just turned into a lose-lose situation.

That's when it hits me. The devastating pain.. that's not just hitting me on the inside but on the outside as well. I collapse onto the floor not knowing what's happening or what to do to fix it. I writh in pain on the floor, grunting out in pain.. I yell for help but no one will come because its me but also because I'm the only one who is ever down here.

I don't know when they started but I feel the tears pouring down my cheeks like an endless waterfall, as I gasp for air trying to get some nourishment for my lungs. My skin starts to burn as if someone has thrown me straight into the fire to char.. I yell more in pain just wishing for the pain to pass. "Myra what's happening to me?!" I yell and no response.

That's when I hear it.. the loudest popping I have ever heard accompanied by the feeling as if my body is being torn into peices. Tearing can be heard along with more popping. I scream in pain begging for this to end or to just take me with the pain.. either way I just need this to stop.

I feel my body getting weaker feeling as if I'm fading away.. I think I'm dying I think it's happening.. I drift off closing my eyes just giving into the suffocating pains that I can't get rid of.

I lay there on my back, on the cool floor until the pain just stops.. as if it was a dream or illusion. I let out a deep breath, opening my eyes, realizing I'm still alive.. how alive am I really? Who really knows. I close my eyes just taking a moment to breathe after all I have endured.

I open my eyes and things feel different somehow.. but if you asked me how, I honestly couldn't tell you. I just feel different. I roll over to my belly just to stand up but that's when I notice it. My hands have turned to paws filled with fur. I push myself up to stand as I prance around on my four paws like a dog heading to show.

There are no mirrors down here so I prance over to the washing machine door that's clear so I can try to see something. I look at my reflection and I'm actually beautiful.. I don't know why I'm suprised about this.. but my wolf's hair is mostly a dark brown like my hair is normally with patches of white fur here and there.. My eyes instead of the dull hazel they normally are. now shine bright with mostly green enhanced in them.

"We are beautiful." I say to myself and Myra as she huffs replying.. "We have always been beautiful I'm just glad you finally can see the beauty you have within. Because I have always thought you were beautiful."

"Oh.. thanks.. I'm sorry if I seem pessimistic.. I swear I don't want to be like this.. this is just what I have been around all my life and it really wears on me to the point that I'm pushing it on everyone else around me.. and I'm sorry." I try to explain feeling sad that I ended up like this.. I wish I could be better but I'm not.

"It's ok you don't have to explain anything to me, I know what you went through and why you are the way you are and it's ok... don't beat yourself up.. I just want to help you get some strength and confidence back because I know you're better than that.. so we will work together everyday to be better.. not just for ourselves but for our mate and anyone who comes with it." She exclaims to me causing a big teethy grin to appear across my face as a wolf.

"So what do I do now?" I ask her as she plainly states, "Let's change back and take a look around.. things should smell stronger as we have found out already.. but we should also be able to see and hear better! You also will be stronger than before! But with these amazing gifts has to come patience and practice because without those we can never truely control or become the one we need to be without it.. it will be hard but I know we can do it." Myra say encouragingly to me as I just really enjoy her talks already.. this is probably the best day of my life just because she is here with me.. I don't know if this day could even get any better.