“So where’s your husband I would love to meet him?”
And there’s the question I hate it. Every time it’s like a knife right in my heart “ he died last year “ I barely squeak out. I don’t want to see the pity in his beautiful ocean blue eyes so I look away from him out the window into the rainy day.
“ oh I know not to say I’m sorry because it really means nothing I lost my wife a long time ago too”
And there it is a slight glimmer of hope in me someone who understands what it’s like to lose the light of your life. I don’t know what to say so I just gesture for him to sit. He reply’s “ thank you “
The waitress returns “Here you are sweetie, oh you have a friend do you need a menu?”
Carlo says “ no I already ate?”
“Okay your food will be out here shortly” and she runs off off to the back.
I ask “ you really don’t want anything to eat?”
“ no I really did just eat, so what do you have planned for the rest of the day?” He says with a smile and genuine curiosity.
“ I don’t really have anything planned I tend to just wander around, I might go by the carousel. Did you have anything planned?”
“ I was thinking of going to the arcade would you like to accompany me?”
I haven’t been able to bring myself to go go back in there yet I try every time I come here but the closest I have come is the door “ I can’t “ and I look down. I can feel his eyes on me but I can’t look up so I just close my eyes. Then I feel his finger coax my chin up and I feel a jolt like an electric current running through me and my eyes fly open. I look into those big beautiful deep blue eyes and see his understanding and compassion.
“It’s okay mija I understand I still can’t go to the place’s me and my wife had so many memories”
“Alrighty sweetie here’s your pancakes and bacon” I jump at the sound of the waitress coming back but he just sits back like he was expecting her to come back.
“ ohhh thank you “ I look at my food and the out of politeness I offer Carlo some “ would you like some?”
He smiles “ haha no I promise I am not hungry “ but for some reason I feel like I’m missing some inside joke. But nonetheless I dig in without a care in the world. The pancakes are amazing so fluffy and flavorful With a hint of vinalla they remind me of waking up on Sunday morning to breakfast with my mom. They always get the bacon just right with the perfect crispy to floppy ratio. I finish it and realize I forgot to talk and quietly chuckle to myself. Carlo looks at me “ and what’s so funny?”
“ haha I was just thinking about how I got so into eating that I forgot my manners and didn’t talk to you haha” I laughed and give him a big grin.
He chuckled “ I actually enjoyed watching you eat your not like other women who try to hide that they actually you know have to eat to survive “ and he hit the nail on the head
“ I don’t really care what people think the only person's opinion that mattered to me is gone so I’m just me and if people don’t like it then that’s a them problem not a me problem”
“ well that’s an amazing outlook on life mija” and there he goes making me lose my words so I just stare at his beautiful ocean blue eyes and I feel myself leaning towards him like there is something pulling us together. His eyes are so mesmerizing like actual water moving.