The last time I had a hard time facing a stage with confidence, I was still a teenager. I had a stage flight then. Having been clearly rejected by my true parents made me think of myself as unworthy. I was naive enough to conclude that their rejection was was based on I being not a good enough kid to deserve their love. My thoughts were always about how pathetic I am. Hence the fear to stand infront of an audience and address it confidently. But that faded with time as the Ray's show of love disapproved my earlier thoughts of being unworthy. But now I feel like the stage flight is back. Because I surely want to run.
If I had known I would be this nervous I would have asked Nick to represent me in this ceremony. There is nothing worse than to stammer every sentence of your speech at an eve
