"When I saw that, when I began to notice that he was still angry with me I did not want to think about it. I did not want anything that would make me begin to feel like there was something wrong somewhere. I did not want to think that there was another thing creeping, another human creeping to betray me once again but the truth was that I saw in her someone that could make me begin to wonder if actually I was made to do some of the things that I did. When he tried to make.me feel confident and comfortable, the more he tried to make me feel okay with his presence the more I felt that something was wrong somewhere but the truth was that I did not understand it at first. I just did not want to keep making it look like I knew what I was doing because I did not and the reason was simple and nea

