Why me

WHY DOE'S HE LOOK SO FAMILIAR ??

Watching as my mother and father greet the older couple Alejandra had this feeling that I was being watched intently by someone. Sure enough as she glances over to the other man to see that his eyes are solely focused on her. "Alejandra !!" I heard my father's voice as I snap my head to look up at him. "Yes ??" I asked. "I said that this is Mr. and Mrs. Blackwhite. They are our friends your mother and I are taking the cruise with." He explained.

"Oh, my apologies. How it's very nice to meet you." I said shaking each of their hands.

"You too dear." They both said with smiles. "And this is their son Jeremy Blackwhite." My father finished. I looked over at Jeremy I noticed that his eyes were still solely focused on me as he stood up taking my hand and kissing the back of it. "It's nice to to meet you," I said with a blush. "I look forward to getting to know you, Alejandra." He said as he led me around the table by my hand pulling out the chair next to him for me to sit down and then pushing it in once I did. "Thank you," I told as he sat back down beside me never taking his eyes off of me. Dinner went by rather well and quickly I thought. I am not sure how it happened but the next thing I knew he and my parents excuse themselves leaving just him and me at the table. "Uhm .... What just happened ??" I asked utterly confused.

"I believe we just got ditch by our parents." He said with an entertaining look on his face.

Looking I can't help but think to myself for the hundredth time, ( why does he look so familiar ??)

"I have to ask, have we met before ?? You look so familiar to me." I ask him.

"I was wondering if you remember me or not. I will give you three hints. We met thru a friend when you were 8 years old, and went separate ways when you were 17 years old." He said. It must have shown up on my face that I didn't need to hear his third hint.

"Oh my god," I say in a whisper. My heart-stopping as the memories come flooding back and the pain and guilty set in my chest. I can feel the tears threatening to fall. Jeremy of course noticed as he always had. "Come here, it's alright Princess.", He said as he pulled me into his arms giving me a comforting hug.

"I am so sorry Jeremy !!", I say as my voice breaks and my face is bared in the side of his neck. "You have nothing to be sorry for. If anybody should be sorry then it should be me.", He says stroking my hair. I was extremely grateful that the table we where at was very exclusive and private. We pulled away from each other as we heard the clicking of the waitresses heels against the tile floor. "Here are your desserts, and the bill and tip has already been taken care of, is there anything else I can do for you ??" She asks with a smile.

"Yes thank you I believe where done here could we get these to go please ??" Jeremy tells her and she puts our desserts in a to go container.

He drives us to his house since my parents are at mine. As he pulls in his driveway turning off his car and getting out and walking around to open my door for me.

"Thank you Jeremy." I say giving him a smile as I stepped out of his car.

"Any time Princess. Anytime." He said matching my smile as he leads me into his beautiful house. "Would you like to have a drink ??" He asked going over to a small corner bar set up in his living room.

" Yes please as long as it's liquor. And you seem to have turned out alright." I say looking around. "Seems to look that way doesn't it ??" He asked coming to sit next to me on the huge sectional couch and handing me my glass of Amber colored liquid. "Thank you." I say with a smile taking a sip. "You're very welcome. So how have you been ??" He asked.

"Well .... I have had several jobs. Both legal and not legal job's." I say stopping and wincing at slightly nobody would usually notice, at the emotions that flashed through just his eyes. (f**k !!!! ) I mentally scream.

"Continue from Taco Bell." Is what I get from him.

"Okay .... Then there was my management job at this maintenance and repair place where they remodel apartment's, motels, and houses, EXC." I pause as he puts a finger up and my heart melts from the old gesture. "What happened with that job ??", He asked. "We'll uhmm .. . One day my boss just didn't show up, and well I found out later that he was heading to prison for driving the work truck thought his front living room trying to kill his wife." I said gulping down a mouth full of air. As his eyes grow big. "OK, what next ??" He asked. "Well, then there was pizza hut, I only had that job like 3 weeks before I got T-boned totaling out my First car. Then there was Target I only had that job a couple month's before I got arrested for someone else's charges, then there was a few years break from working legally I guess you could say till 2013 when I became self-employed doing all kinds of different job's." I say letting out a deep breath hoping he would just let the arrested part go. "Have you had or do you have any or a serious relationship ??" He asked taking a drink of his liquor. "No I'm not seeing anyone and I have to admit I haven't had a serious relationship since you." I say wondering why I ever walked away from the man sitting in front of me now. "Is that so ??" He asks as he set's his glass down and stretching his arm over the back of the couch behind me. "Well yes." I reply clearing my throat.

"Why haven't you had a serious relationship since me??" he asks as he Wings a little bit in closer towards me calling me to bite the inside of my lip. "Well .... I just haven't really found anyone that caught my interest in that way I guess. None of the guys that I've met lately or since forever ago obviously have been shall we say, my kind of guys." I say to him with a bit of a laugh for the end. A silence Falls between the two of us as he stares deeply into my eyes looking through my very Soul it feels. the fact that it feels that he is looking through my soul at the very moment makes me feel a little uneasy I guess you could say and well I begin to shift in my seat before asking. " So how about yourself ??" I ask looking down at my hands which have become ever so interesting at this moment. "No, I spent years trying to track you down but none of our mutual friends would tell me where you were they even told me they wouldn't tell you that I was looking for you then after that I just focused on working hoping that one day I would find you and by then I'd be able to provide for you the way I felt I should be able to." he says so coolly at the same time I was taking a drink causing the liquid to get caught down the wrong windpipe and me to start coughing horribly and embarrassingly from being cought off guard at his words. "Now ?? I mean now do you still feel that same way ??" I asked unsure if I truly want to hear the response he has to give. "Now more than ever, I feel that way." he says pushing his lips gently to mine. He kisses me with so much longing and desire

that I can not help nor stop the moan that escapes me. The kiss quickly becomes so much more heated and passionate that I can not help but be thankful at my phone's sudden ringing as I quickly pull away causing him to let out a frustrated growl.

"Hello" I said.

"Yes Mother ... I will head home now." I said before hanging up the phone.

Me: "Sorry stud I have to go." I say before slipping out from underneath him and heading towards the door.