I didn’t have dinner that night, because Ryder didn’t return, and I couldn’t sleep either. It’s midnight already and I haven’t gotten any sleep. I was worried sick, I went overboard this time, I know. I shouldn’t have said I had any feelings for Jordan just to get back at him. Heaven knows I didn’t call him out to have an argument. I wanted us to talk, I wanted to know about his ex-mate and what he had with Susan, hell, I was desperate to know what he wanted to make of me. His father didn’t want me, and he hasn’t said anything to suggest he wanted me for real. Yet, when I saw him, I said all the things I didn’t plan to say.
I told myself it was his fault. If he wasn’t so arrogant, we wouldn’t have had that argument, but I was fooling myself. I did everything Elsie warned me not to. I just
