It is now or never.
Finally the day I've been dreading is here and I can't halt the dawn ebbing its gradual way into daylight. Everything hinges on what I do now, and once done, it can never be undone. I knew that my life will never be the same once I publicly share my story, and I'm still unsure if I'm fine with that. All of the reasons not to do this suddenly came flooding in, as if my body chemistry has just sent them a blanket invitation. I felt the soft panic grow within me as I watched Ellie busily set up the room. She organized and decorated my background for the video, laid out the clothes that I will wear and she also set up her camera for filming. I wanted to help her but I was so nervous that I felt like my legs would give in. I took a deep breath as I started to have second th
