I can speak but voiceless

**Chapter 1: something**

**LAYLIA**

I got up of bed and head straight to the bathroom to wash myself up, today i will be going to the mall to gather things i need for school tomorrow. I just graduated high school and now college.

“Life sucks huh?” Speaking to my self in the mirror, well do i even have a choice? Young adults like me are destined to finish studying and work right after. Were not poor, in fact my family run three business and i know i will be stable for life, i never wanted to study since im a lazy person, i stopped dreaming long after my father died. We were close, i liked him more than my mother.

I was disturbed by a knock on my door.

“Ms lia, breakfast is all ready.” A maid said behind my door.

“Coming!” I shouted back, after getting ready i head down for breakfast which is less exciting than you all thought. As i got down my mother is at the table eating.

“Morning” out of energy i said, she didn’t respond which is not surprising for me, after father died we were never in good terms, we always fight and yell at each other. Cant blame me, she was never a good mother after all. I finished breakfast and left the house.

My phone buzzed and a text from joaquin appeared, he said that we was waiting at the mall. A smile lined my lips and i excitedly drove.

“Hey!..” i shouted as i ran for him. Joaquin is my childhood love and he doesn’t know about it of course, were best friends since our parents are too, ever since i met him i already fall for him, he is a great guy, he cared and love for the people around him, helped others and is super hot.

“Lia! I got something for you but open it at home” he handed me a bag and my heart was going crazy.

“Thanks, lets go?” I asked and he agreed, we walked through the mall scanning shops that are nice and headed to the bookstore, i brought papers, pen and things that are common for schooling. I already paid for what i got but i cant see joaquin anywhere, i looked for him and saw him with a bunch of girls around him asking for pictures. What are their problem? My blood boils to what i see and walked through the crowd and pulled him out but a hand stopped me.

“Hey! What is your problem? Cant you see? Theres a line.” She said annoyed. Then others girls started to agree with her and pushed me out making me fall on my butt. What the f^ck?

“Sorry girls, don’t want to be rude but we need to go” joaquin said as he picked me up bridal style, i didn’t utter a word since i was still in shock and he started walking to the parking lot. He put me down and asked where my car was parked. I pointed to it and we started walking.

“Does it still hurt?” He asked worriedly. I looked at him embarrassed for what happened to me and its still painful.

“No.. im good” i said, trying not to make eye contact with him, ughhhhrrr im so annoyed by those bitches lurking around him, hes so popular and always had attention on him, but who am i to get mad? Im just his bestfriend.

“Sorry… your bestfriend is too hot ” He whispered, letting out a big sigh. I rolled my eyes, this guy ughrr sometimes is so annoying. We reached my car and he hopped in.

“Uhh? Dont you have a car?” I asked rolling my eyes.

“Nope. I asked mr suarez to drop me so i can go with you” and he reclined his seat.

“Ugh whatever” i drove home and we head inside.

We headed in my room and dropped all my things.

“So…” he awkwardly spoke. I head to the bathroom to wash myself up.

“How about lets go together tomorrow at school? Hmm ill pick you up?” He asked

“Ill be bringing my car, and i don’t want to be in trouble again with those girls who drool over you” i sarcastically replied, why invite me so sudden? I felt butterflies but i managed to stay calm

“Sorry.. but ill be by your side, no trouble i promise” he said. “Your room is so dull, you should add our picture in-front” he added

“No way ill put your ugly face in my room, and go home!” I shouted as i shower. He didn’t speak again and i continued showering. Moments later i felt someone hugging me. Shocked, i turned around and saw joaquin with me.

“What the f**k?” I pushed him and was about to leave but he suddenly pulled me and kissed me. O M G!!! I felt an electric shock my body and i froze, i didn’t know what to do or what to react, he pulled me even close and our bodies touched.

I pulled away “w-what?” Trying to utter a word but he was silent. He pulled me closer again and kissed me, i felt his hand move behind me. I kissed him back, releasing all the love that i kept all those years, did he knew about my feelings?

His hand were roaming around my body scanning it inch by inch, as our kiss get deeper and deeper, i heard a knock and broke away, i immediately covered myself and left the bathroom.

“ who is it?” I shouted

“Ms lia, ms. Lara is here” she said. Lara? What is she doing here? Were supposed to hangout next week. I thought she was busy?

“ ok! Tell her to wait down ill be there!” I replied. I put clothes on, then joaquin just got out the shower.

I turned to him “ what the hell are you doing?” I asked blushing but hide it to him

“ you were taking long so i joined you” he calmly said “i didn’t know you have a tattoo” he added

“I got it last year and who cares if i didn’t tell you, im grown up now and you are not my dad nor my boyfriend” i annoyingly said. He’s so calm about what happened which pisses me off so bad. Like it didn’t even bothered him at all

“Lara is here, so ill be leaving. You can go home on your own” i said and was about to leave when he pulled me again, whats with this man about pulling. I tripped and fell on my bed facing joaquin who’s on top of me.

My heart started to beat fast as we look into each others eyes. My phone rang and Lara was calling. Joaquin answered the phone.

“Hey Lara. Me and Lia will be going somewhere comeback next week? Sorry bye!” Then hanged up

“Hey!” I said And tried to grab the phone but his arms were too long, what is wrong with him?

“Your heavy! Get off me” trying to push him but he was too strong and stiff, he didn’t said a word and stare in my eyes.

“Beautiful” he said, and leaned forward and kissed me. I slightly pushed him away but he leaned more and started to kiss me deeper. His hands move toward my body and inside my clothes. I moaned as i felt his hand on my chest, i can feel his manhood pressing against me, he kissed me more and it felt good, i wanted to say i love him but was too scared. Is thus even right? I wanted to say no and stop but my body wont stop, my body and heart is liking to what was happening making it hard for me to stop.

He tore my top “hey!” I reacted but he didn’t flinch at all he looked into my chest and looked at me.

“Beautiful” he said and he started sucking on it, i moaned as i felt his tongue and lips pressed against my chest.

“Uhhh” he’s so good.

“J-joaquin-“ he stopped and looked at me

“Lia, can i?” He asked looking into my eyes.

“This is not right” i said. Looking away from him, yes i love him and yes i want him but this is just not right, were not together and its my, my first.

“I love you Lia, ever since” he said and kissed my forehead.

“But if you don’t want to, i wont” he added.

“ i-i.. love you too, ever since” i replied, all blushing i tried to hide my face. But he slightly pulled my face facing him and he smiled

“ really?” I can see the excitement and joy in his eyes.

“But its my- my first time” i shyly said, he chuckled and kissed me.

“Ill be gentle love.” He said and we kissed, is this real? Joaquin said he loved me. Am i dreaming? But it felt so real.

We kissed like we were releasing all the love we kept through the years. Its endless

We removed all our clothes and he played with me.

“Mmmm..” i moaned feeling his fingers.

“You’re wet” he said, i blushed and tried to push his hands off but he still continued,

“I like it love, can i?” He politely asked and i nodded. And We made love.

**JOAQUIN**

Whats taking Lia so long? I missed her everyday. I stood up and opened the bathroom door in her room and it was unlocked. I got in and saw Lia completely undressed. I was stunned to what im seeing, i undressed my self and hugged her from behind. She turned around shocked to what i did.

“What the f**k?” She said and was about to leave but i pulled her and kissed her, i always wanted to kiss her lips so bad, but I’ve been holding back. I loved her ever since i saw her. But didn’t bother to confess nor say anything because i was scared of being rejected. So i stayed as her best friend. I pulled her closer to me and kissed her. As our bodies touched she pulled away and was about to speak but i kissed her again. She kissed back. Deeper and deeper. I heard a knock and Lia broke away and started to dress herself.

“Damn” i whispered, i touched my lips and butterflies i felt “we kissed” i said smiling. I wrapped my self with a towel and hop outside. She turned to me and said “what the f**k are you doing?” She annoyingly asked.

“You were taking so long so i joined you” i calmly said being careful not to show any feelings.

“I didn’t know you have a tattoo” i said to change the topic.

She rolled her eyes and answered “i got it last year and who cares if i didn’t tell you, im grown up now and you are not my dad nor my boyfriend” she annoyingly said, and i too got annoyed. Yeah right. Whatever. Well not yet.

“Lara is here, so ill be leaving. You can go home on your own” she said. Why is she always annoyed? She was leaving and i have to make my move. So i pulled her but she tripped and we fell on her bed. My heart started to beat fast. Shes so beautiful as ever. I looked at here scanning her face. And hoping she would like me back. I was distracted with the phone ringing and saw Lara was calling. I answered the phone.

“Hey Lara. Me and Lia will be going somewhere comeback next week? Sorry bye!” Then i hanged up. I hope she goes away.

“Hey!” she said and tried to grab the phone, whats with her? Does she don’t want to be with me?

“Your heavy! Get off me” she said trying to push me but i stayed stiff. I want her so much and i want her now.

“Beautiful” i said and leaned forward and kissed her She slightly pushed away but i didn’t react instead i leaned more and started to kiss her deeper. I moved my hands towards her body so i can feel her, i moved my hands in her clothes and i touched her chest, she moaned and it made me want her more and more, i kissed her and i can feel she wanted it as well,

I tore her top “hey!” She reacted. I stared at her chest and she was blushing, damn this girl is so perfect.

“Beautiful” i said to make her at ease and i started sucking on it, she moaned and i just don’t want to stop now.

“Uhhh” she said

“J-joaquin-“ i stopped and looked at her.

“Lia, can i?” I asked looking passionately into her eyes.

“This is not right” she said. Looking away from me, my heart shattered from hearing her words.

“I love you Lia, ever since” i said and kissed her forehead. A sign of assurance. So she wont hold back.

“But if you don’t want to, i wont” i added.i don’t want to force her if she don’t want to, i still respect her so much.

“ i-i.. love you too, ever since” she replied, i can see her all blushing and she tried to hide it, i slightly pulled her face. Beauty

“ really?” Happy and excited i said.

“But its my- my first time” she said, it made me smile and i kissed her

“Ill be gentle love.” I said and we kissed, i know this is not a dream and it is real, i love Lia more than anything. I love her so much and I’m willing to give her my world and my everything .

We kissed more and more and removed all of our clothing

“Mmmm..” she moaned as i played with her. Shes wet and i know she loved me.

“You’re wet” i said, she blushed and tried to push my hands off but i continued, i want to please her to satisfy her. I want her love and everything.

“I like it love, can i?” I politely asked and she nodded. And We made love. She fall asleep after what happened i felt joy in my heart. That i guess were official now. I know all of you are thinking why didn’t i tried confessing before, why just now bla bla bla. Its not very easy you know. Before i didn’t have the confidence.

I got down and made dinner for us. She need energy after what happened. While making her favorite pasta i cant help but smile. Remembering what she said, she said she love me? Damn i felt butterflies over and over again. I fixed the table and happily got back to her room to wake her up.

Looking at Lia while she sleeps. She looks innocent, so gorgeous, her white skin. Pink lips. Pointed nose and long eyelashes are all perfect . I kissed her nose and she opens her eyes.

“Love..” i said.

“Mm?” She responded. Smiling at me

“I prepared dinner… lets eat” i said and kissed her on the lips but she moved like flash and put her hand in between.

“Dont.. i haven’t brushed yet” she embarrassingly said. Pshh that doesn’t matter to me. I gave her a smile and gently pushed her hand away and kissed her. Our kiss became deeper and deeper and she was on top of me. I stopped and looked at her mesmerized by her beauty i smiled.

“Lets eat dinner first love” i said and carried her down. Memories.

** LEYLIA**

He carried me down to the kitchen and gently sat me down the chair and he sat across me. I looked at him. And felt butterflies in my stomach. As my eyes went down his body i noticed he was only wearing tank top revealing his buff and fine ass body. It made me blush but i hid it.

“Lia..” he spoke, waking me up daydreaming

“I know I’m hot and all but can we eat? Im hungry from all the workout we did” he said smiling. I immediately looked away as i remembered what happened. We. Had. s*x.

“Yeah lets eat.” I shyly said. I cant believe it. We did it and my first was the love of my life. While thinking what happened between us i didn’t even noticed he cooked my favorite pasta. I took a bite and i was immediately in love and finished it forgetting joaquin was with me.

“Slow down love. You might choke” he said laughing

“Its so good i cant even stop” i said mouth full, he smiled and reached for a napkin and wiped my lips

“ so messy yet you still look beautiful” he said, and once again i blushed. Whats with his sweet words. He’s never this sweet to me before he always mock me and piss me off. After eating silence ate the room.

“Soo…” i said. What will i say? I need a topic to remove this awkwardness.

“Lets go to school together?” I asked.

“Yeah, ill pick you up and lets go together everyday.” He said. Damn this guy he’s always making me blush.

After an hour he said hell go home and bring more stuff tom so he can stay with me when he wants to. Its not a problem to me anyways. We bid our goodbyes and i head back my room. I lay down my bed with a big smile. Gosh what a great day. My phone rang and joaquin was calling. What? He’s been like gone for 10 mins. I answered the phone.

“Did you see my gift?” He said.

“ ohh not yet” i replied

“Open it.” He excitedly said, i grabbed the bag from the table and opened it revealing a letter and a box. I red the letter and it says

“Lia i know we’ve been friends for so long now and now i gathered up my courage to confess my love for you. I know i sound cheesy and i don’t care. I love you and lets date.

I laughed at what it says he’s so demanding.

“Why are you laughing?” I heard joaquin said on the phone

“ oh nothing.” I replied. I opened the box and a necklace popped out. It was a beautiful heart necklace made of gold.

“Its beautiful joaquin” i said admiring it and tried it on.

“I know it would look perfect on you. Wear it all the time and if one day i see that not on your neck that means were over” he said.

“ then ill wear it everyday” i happily replied. Someone called him and he said he need to go and said goodbye. I laid down my bed happy. And didn’t notice i fell asleep